Unstable sense of self…

I wish I had more faith in myself. Surprising me incredibly, I got my exam results back yesterday for the twentieth century history final I wrote on Friday. First off, I was surprised that the exam was marked and back to me so fast. Secondly, I was surprised that I passed, and by a fairly … Continue reading Unstable sense of self…

Whatever comes my way…

I'm slowly making progress in my 20th Century History course. After around a month of work put into it, I finally got my second assignment polished up and submitted. With that weight off, I can focus on the last four modules of this course, focusing on post World War 2 life and the start of … Continue reading Whatever comes my way…

Needing a recharge…

Well, this stupid busy week is drawing to a close. Between work meetings and errands to run, this week has kept me hopping. I still have a couple of stories to finish writing, but thankfully the end is in sight. I just keep reminding myself that I have got this. And, I do. The fact … Continue reading Needing a recharge…

Oops…

Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com For the second time since the new year rang in, I screwed up and forgot my night-time meds. The problem is, without the meds, I don't sleep. Unfortunately, by the time I realized what had happened, and why I wasn't sleeping, it was four in the morning, and if … Continue reading Oops…

Looking for compromise…

Merry Christmas and happy holidays! Christmas was quiet, thanks to the pandemic necessitated lockdown our region finds itself in. About the only good news is that despite the restrictions in place across the province, small businesses have been allowed to remain open. I did some reading, and some playing with with the array of Adobe … Continue reading Looking for compromise…

Getting my -geese- in a row…

Kevin J Sabo photo I am definitely bouncing back. After taking it easy Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday, Wednesday had me back in the office covering several of my council meetings for the paper, and otherwise get back to work. The only down side to everything going on is that it is making it busy for … Continue reading Getting my -geese- in a row…

Some days…

It's safe to say that today did not go as planned. First off, I was grouchy pretty much from the time I woke up. That was followed by Lynn saying she wasn't feeling well and asking me to go down and cover the store, for at least part of the day. I did, but I … Continue reading Some days…

Succeeding in spite of myself…

Photo by Lum3n on Pexels.com Tonight has me feeling accomplished. It was a somewhat busy day, catching up on some writing for work, studying, and doing a dump run. This afternoon at the store we celebrated the third anniversary of the store as well. Some friends were kind enough to bring in a pumpkin pie … Continue reading Succeeding in spite of myself…

Recovery…

To sum up today, it didn't go as planned. I met B this morning to film his weekly devotional. With me being away until today he was going to film it himself on his phone, but since I was home I offered to do it. We got it done in good time, and I went … Continue reading Recovery…

Going in-patient…

direction sign with capital letter H for hospital This week has been challenging. I've been dealing with low moods, fatigue -again-, and poor concentration. I am definitely not at the lowest point that I've been, but I've definitely been struggling. I reached out to Dr. M at the centre, and heard back from him. He's … Continue reading Going in-patient…

Stopping isn’t an option

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I hate this time of year. As good as I've been doing, I always find myself struggling at this time of year, and this year is apparently no exception. I'm over a week into a downward spiral that always hits me this time of year, and today has probably been … Continue reading Stopping isn’t an option

Feeling empty…

Photo by Alex Fu on Pexels.com This has been a busy, and stressful week. On Monday I took Lynn to Red Deer for an MRI, then had a meeting to cover for the paper that night. On Tuesday I had another meeting, followed by studying. Wednesday, I was at the Alliance Market with my photography … Continue reading Feeling empty…

Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

In what was an incredibly quick turnaround, I received my marks back from the final exam I wrote last week, and I am not unhappy with the results. I ended up scoring 87 per cent on the exam, which gave me an 85 overall average for the composition course. On the down side, it was … Continue reading Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

Seeing in grey…

Recovery in mental illness is hard. It's not like a physical injury that can be seen. There is no casino splints, nothing visual that clues people in that something is wrong. Mental illness is all internal. Mental illness is painful. It affects relationships. It makes you question your own abilities and confidence. For significant mental … Continue reading Seeing in grey…

Productivity in Recovery…

Kevin J Sabo photo Today, I'm feeling optimistic. I received my marks back for my latest essay, and while I did not do as well as I was wanting, I did do better than I was expecting, scoring above 80 per cent, which I am not going to complain about. With this assignment done and … Continue reading Productivity in Recovery…

Trying to give my brain a break…

Today has found me a bit better than yesterday, though I am still feeling fatigued, stressed, and generally emotional. It's been a quiet day today. I made pancakes for lunch for Lynn and I, and then played an hour of Spider Man on the Playstation 4, before settling in to the office to do a … Continue reading Trying to give my brain a break…

Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

I'm struggling today. I know I've been feeling the darkness creeping in over the last few days. My anxiety has been a lot higher, and my concentration and motivation have both been proving challenging. I definitely have not been as productive over the last couple days as I have been over the last little while. … Continue reading Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

Feeling Stable

I am getting tired of sleeping through my alarm clock... I had my alarm set for 7:30 because I had a nine a.m. meeting. I figured it gives me an hour to get up, have coffee, and make myself human. Nope. Woke up at 8:30, and barely made it out the door in time. On … Continue reading Feeling Stable

Going Forward… Goals

I'm sitting at over 560 blog posts since I started this journey in the fall of 2017. That's a lot of time behind the keyboard. I am grateful from my community support in doing this blog, and have no plans to end it any time soon, however lately I have been thinking about what my … Continue reading Going Forward… Goals

Maintaining…

Today has been a busying day, writing and chasing stories for the paper. I ended up having a telephone appointment with Dr. M at the centre today as well, and was unprepared for what he had to say. In his opinion I am doing the best I have since he'd met, proven by the fact … Continue reading Maintaining…

A Switch in Perspective…

I connected with M yesterday for the second time in under a week, and I'm definitely grateful for the sessions. Something I realized during the session was kind of a breakthrough though. The pandemic raging around the world as I write this would be enough stress for even the most mentally tough person to handle. … Continue reading A Switch in Perspective…

Falling into routine

We are falling into a routine after the stress of the last few days. I'm slowly getting back into my work projects, and Lynn is doing some online marketing for the store and her home-based-businesses. The air in the house is definitely somber compared to what it was, but the other two dogs are starting … Continue reading Falling into routine

Weathering the storm…

Tonight, I find myself in a contemplative mood. I found out today that the paper is struggling today, due to ad revenue fleeing because of the pandemic. According to the letter from the publisher, if things don't change, the paper may not survive through to the other side of this. It has me considering my … Continue reading Weathering the storm…

Good and bad…

The ride-along I was supposed to be doing with our local ambulance crew didn't end up happening. Because of the COVID-19 cases in the province our provincial health authority ended up suspending the entire ride-along program. I'm taking it as both a good and bad thing. It's good because I was worrying about how I … Continue reading Good and bad…

A battle in the war…

I am currently sitting at one of the longest writing streaks that I've had, having done a blog daily for the last 28 days. With my fitness regime, I'm sitting at 4 days straight, which is the longest streak I've had in quite awhile, though I am still keeping at my low intensity workouts for … Continue reading A battle in the war…