Tag: #Depression

Taking a break…

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I have been dragging ass all day. The fatigue is just killing me today. I've had very little motivation to get things done, though the day was still somewhat productive. I started the morning with an appointment with the kinesiologist to get some core exercises to work on. After that I headed home, and just … Continue reading Taking a break…

Work, work, work…

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Today was a pretty laid back day. I ended up doing a couple of interviews this morning for an article I'm working on, and I made some headway on my next essay. This afternoon, I worked on my photography and Photoshop courses, then did some more work on my essay, as well as doing some … Continue reading Work, work, work…

Running in the red…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, ;, Acceptance, adaptability, Anxiety, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Furry Family, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Today has been a day. I was up and out relatively early, taking Willow to see the vet in Stettler. The vet ended up keeping her for a few hours so she could do some tests, which left me with time to kill. The good news is that the vet … Continue reading Running in the red…

Contemplating the -near- future…

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Photo by Andrea Piacquadio on Pexels.com This evening, I am feeling grateful for friends. A friend of mine reached out this morning offering to pick up the pet food from Alliance for me today, seeing as they were up there anyway on other business. This kind gesture saved me a trip up there, for which … Continue reading Contemplating the -near- future…

Dealing with change…

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I'm struggling today. Photo by Alexas Fotos on Pexels.com The fatigue is really bad today, and I'm just feeling stressed with life in general. It doesn't help that my plans for today ended up going sideways; I had intended to do some work in the office today, working on researching my next assignment for my … Continue reading Dealing with change…

Restful…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, learning new skills, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Yesterday and today have both ended up being pretty restful days. I didn't end up doing too much yesterday, trying to give myself a chance to unwind. Still, the day wasn't without its productivity. I got some studying in for my university course, updated my website, and even managed to catch an episode of SEAL … Continue reading Restful…

Seeing in grey…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Colour spectrum, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, Relapse, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Recovery in mental illness is hard. It's not like a physical injury that can be seen. There is no casino splints, nothing visual that clues people in that something is wrong. Mental illness is all internal. Mental illness is painful. It affects relationships. It makes you question your own abilities and confidence. For significant mental … Continue reading Seeing in grey…

Productivity in Recovery…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-Discipline, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Kevin J Sabo photo Today, I'm feeling optimistic. I received my marks back for my latest essay, and while I did not do as well as I was wanting, I did do better than I was expecting, scoring above 80 per cent, which I am not going to complain about. With this assignment done and … Continue reading Productivity in Recovery…

Rusting out versus burning out…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Hope, journalism, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com During my session with M on Monday, we got talking about how much I've been taking on. In particular, he introduced me to the concept of burning out versus rusting out. In his opinion I am not in danger of the latter, but the former is definitely something I need … Continue reading Rusting out versus burning out…

A restful July 1…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, small victories, Spiderman, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Social Soup Social Media on Pexels.com Things have been quiet today. I spent some more time prepping myself for the market tomorrow, and spent some more time unwinding playing Spiderman on the Playstation 4. I think I've nearly completed the game, but it's definitely been a fun one to play. The developers, Insomniac … Continue reading A restful July 1…

Trying to give my brain a break…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Colour spectrum, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, History, Hope, journalism, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Novel writing., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, Self-harm, Spiderman, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today has found me a bit better than yesterday, though I am still feeling fatigued, stressed, and generally emotional. It's been a quiet day today. I made pancakes for lunch for Lynn and I, and then played an hour of Spider Man on the Playstation 4, before settling in to the office to do a … Continue reading Trying to give my brain a break…

Sometimes doing nothing is doing something…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Abandonment, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today hasn't been a great mental health day. My moods and energy level have definitely been low, and I have been having a hell of a time managing to get anything done. My ambition has just ben gone. I have a couple stories for work that I need to write and I just haven't been … Continue reading Sometimes doing nothing is doing something…

Mastering my craft…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Growth, #PhotographyFriday, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goals, growth, Highlight reel, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

The day hasn't been overly busy, but it has been steady. I was up and out earlier than I have been of late. I was filming the weekly devotional put out by our church during the Covid-19 shutdown. After we finished the filming, I headed down to the store to do the editing on the … Continue reading Mastering my craft…

Waking up functional…

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Today wasn't as productive as I would have liked, but it was still productive none-the-less. I started the morning doing some telephone interviews for a story I'm working on, then it was off to the store for the day. The store was quiet, but I did manage to get some creative writing done. I attempted … Continue reading Waking up functional…

I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Novel writing., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

The last few days have been a blur. I've been keeping myself busy with a variety of tasks, such as writing and photoshop work. Despite not writing daily on my blog the way I have been, I have been spending quite a bit of time each day at the computer. Yesterday I got some work … Continue reading I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

Swimming along the wall…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, History, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Sometimes doing nothing is doing something. This weekend has been pretty lazy, but I'm not complaining. I've been feeling pretty drained over the last few days, and I'm not 100 per cent sure why. I know that between my writing, looking after the house, school, my photography, and everything else I've had going on, I've … Continue reading Swimming along the wall…

Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Depression, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I'm struggling today. I know I've been feeling the darkness creeping in over the last few days. My anxiety has been a lot higher, and my concentration and motivation have both been proving challenging. I definitely have not been as productive over the last couple days as I have been over the last little while. … Continue reading Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

Damaged Heroes…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #heroes, borderline personality disorder, Creativity, Depression, Hope, journalism, my story isn't over yet., ptsd, reporter, Self-confidence, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I think part of the passion I have for writing comes from reading. I've always been a reader. As a youth I would routinely stay up late reading, and I read pretty much anything I could get my hands on. By the age of thirteen I was reading Dale Brown, Tom Clancy, and Michael DiMercurio, … Continue reading Damaged Heroes…