Seeing in grey…

Recovery in mental illness is hard. It's not like a physical injury that can be seen. There is no casino splints, nothing visual that clues people in that something is wrong. Mental illness is all internal. Mental illness is painful. It affects relationships. It makes you question your own abilities and confidence. For significant mental … Continue reading Seeing in grey…

Productivity in Recovery…

Kevin J Sabo photo Today, I'm feeling optimistic. I received my marks back for my latest essay, and while I did not do as well as I was wanting, I did do better than I was expecting, scoring above 80 per cent, which I am not going to complain about. With this assignment done and … Continue reading Productivity in Recovery…

Rusting out versus burning out…

Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com During my session with M on Monday, we got talking about how much I've been taking on. In particular, he introduced me to the concept of burning out versus rusting out. In his opinion I am not in danger of the latter, but the former is definitely something I need … Continue reading Rusting out versus burning out…

A restful July 1…

Photo by Social Soup Social Media on Pexels.com Things have been quiet today. I spent some more time prepping myself for the market tomorrow, and spent some more time unwinding playing Spiderman on the Playstation 4. I think I've nearly completed the game, but it's definitely been a fun one to play. The developers, Insomniac … Continue reading A restful July 1…

Trying to give my brain a break…

Today has found me a bit better than yesterday, though I am still feeling fatigued, stressed, and generally emotional. It's been a quiet day today. I made pancakes for lunch for Lynn and I, and then played an hour of Spider Man on the Playstation 4, before settling in to the office to do a … Continue reading Trying to give my brain a break…

Changes and growth…

I finally managed to get out shooting again last night, which felt good. It was a quiet evening with little wildlife moving about; still, I managed to capture an image of this hawk having supper, which is as cool as it is disturbing. Even birds need to eat. Despite not finding much to shoot last, … Continue reading Changes and growth…

Waking up functional…

Today wasn't as productive as I would have liked, but it was still productive none-the-less. I started the morning doing some telephone interviews for a story I'm working on, then it was off to the store for the day. The store was quiet, but I did manage to get some creative writing done. I attempted … Continue reading Waking up functional…

An evening drive…

Today was a mix of work and play. This morning I did some interviewing and article writing, then after lunch I went out to take some photos. I only ended up going out for an under an hour as the light was harsh and I didn't end up coming upon any wildlife. After I got … Continue reading An evening drive…

Feeling a bit better.

Today was a quieter day. On the plus side, I've been in a better mood, on the minus side, I didn't sleep well last night, and I've been dragging ass all day. Willow, the little bugger, didn't help matters any, crying for her breakfast for twenty minutes straight when I had not exited the bedroom … Continue reading Feeling a bit better.

Getting through this pandemic with patience…

Photo by cottonbro on Pexels.com This shutdown continues, with no end in sight, thanks to the Covid 19 Pandemic gripping the world. I know many people are advocating for the loosening of the restrictions that are in place so that the economy can be reopened and people can quit being confined to their homes. I … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic with patience…

Tired but accomplished…

Today was another office day, cleaning up more work from my interviews and photos I took yesterday. I managed to get four stories done and submitted which has me pretty close to being caught up for the time being. I have one more story that I can start work on, however until I get some … Continue reading Tired but accomplished…

Reflex… DBT Skill

Today is one of those days that I'm feeling like I accomplished nothing, despite plenty of evidence to the contrary. I was up around 9:30, and played some Red Dead Redemption 2 for a bit while Lynn slept. After she got up, I caught up on some dishes, vacuumed, and cleaned up the back yard … Continue reading Reflex… DBT Skill

Feeling Stable

I am getting tired of sleeping through my alarm clock... I had my alarm set for 7:30 because I had a nine a.m. meeting. I figured it gives me an hour to get up, have coffee, and make myself human. Nope. Woke up at 8:30, and barely made it out the door in time. On … Continue reading Feeling Stable

Going Forward… Goals

I'm sitting at over 560 blog posts since I started this journey in the fall of 2017. That's a lot of time behind the keyboard. I am grateful from my community support in doing this blog, and have no plans to end it any time soon, however lately I have been thinking about what my … Continue reading Going Forward… Goals

Maintaining…

Today has been a busying day, writing and chasing stories for the paper. I ended up having a telephone appointment with Dr. M at the centre today as well, and was unprepared for what he had to say. In his opinion I am doing the best I have since he'd met, proven by the fact … Continue reading Maintaining…

Practising my craft…

Yesterday was mainly about photography. I was up and out early for my every 90 day bloodwork for my blood sugars. It is a standing order, but due to the instability of my sugars of late they agreed that it was probably good to get it done. After I got back home I ended up … Continue reading Practising my craft…

A Switch in Perspective…

I connected with M yesterday for the second time in under a week, and I'm definitely grateful for the sessions. Something I realized during the session was kind of a breakthrough though. The pandemic raging around the world as I write this would be enough stress for even the most mentally tough person to handle. … Continue reading A Switch in Perspective…

Falling into routine

We are falling into a routine after the stress of the last few days. I'm slowly getting back into my work projects, and Lynn is doing some online marketing for the store and her home-based-businesses. The air in the house is definitely somber compared to what it was, but the other two dogs are starting … Continue reading Falling into routine

Getting through this pandemic…

Despite my anxiety being peaked with everything going on in the world, I think I'm doing okay. I've managed to get myself back into a regular workout routine, even re-introducing the weight component with yesterday's workout. So far, I've been on the treadmill everyday this week for 30 to 40 minutes, and I'm already noticing … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic…

Weathering the storm…

Tonight, I find myself in a contemplative mood. I found out today that the paper is struggling today, due to ad revenue fleeing because of the pandemic. According to the letter from the publisher, if things don't change, the paper may not survive through to the other side of this. It has me considering my … Continue reading Weathering the storm…

Why I’m not panicking, yet…

One thing that is really surprising about all the events going on in the world is that my anxiety is not climbing. There could be a few reasons why this situation isn't affecting me more: I already live with a heightened state of awareness due to my anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and this … Continue reading Why I’m not panicking, yet…

Good and bad…

The ride-along I was supposed to be doing with our local ambulance crew didn't end up happening. Because of the COVID-19 cases in the province our provincial health authority ended up suspending the entire ride-along program. I'm taking it as both a good and bad thing. It's good because I was worrying about how I … Continue reading Good and bad…

A battle in the war…

I am currently sitting at one of the longest writing streaks that I've had, having done a blog daily for the last 28 days. With my fitness regime, I'm sitting at 4 days straight, which is the longest streak I've had in quite awhile, though I am still keeping at my low intensity workouts for … Continue reading A battle in the war…

Living up to your dash…

Photo by Miguel Á. Padriñán on Pexels.com I was recently watching a motivational video on Youtube, and came across a concept that has kind of stuck with me. The short version is, when we die, as we all inevitably will, what is on our tombstone? Usually your date of birth, a dash, and your date … Continue reading Living up to your dash…