A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Photo by Brett Sayles on Pexels.com When I can't find something, my brain freaks out. I search all over for the misplaced item. My focus goes out the window, and I struggle. I had just such an occurrence happen yesterday. I couldn't find the clip-on sunglasses for my glasses. I searched my work bag. I … Continue reading A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Recognizing and adjusting…

Photo by Liza Summer on Pexels.com Mentally and emotionally, I feel hung over. The last couple of weeks have been challenging, but I feel like I am finally making good progress in my climb out of the valley of depression. Getting my sleep figured out has definitely been helping. The last couple of days especially, … Continue reading Recognizing and adjusting…

Face-Value…

Photo by ROMAN ODINTSOV on Pexels.com Slowly, but surely, my moods are starting normalize. Aside from having a hard time getting my butt out of bed this morning, today has been productive. I spent some time playing Sub Nautica, a really neat survival game that Sony has made free to play, and then this afternoon … Continue reading Face-Value…

Struggling with sleep…

Photo by Christian Domingues on Pexels.com I think one of the biggest reasons being admitted to hospital helps as much as it does is because it helps reset my sleep patterns. Looking back at all the times I've struggled and ended up in hospital, one common thread is that my sleep patterns have been screwed … Continue reading Struggling with sleep…

Laying low…

Old man winter had one more swing in him. We woke this morning to a major spring storm. Though we didn't get a lot of accumulation of the white stuff, the drifts were next level. We had a three-foot snow drift directly outside our back door which I had to force through just to put … Continue reading Laying low…

Figuring out what to master…

This has been turning into quite the week. I was covering council meetings for the local paper both Monday night and Tuesday morning. The Monday night meeting was fairly light so only ended up getting one story out of it. The Tuesday morning meeting had more substance to it and I ended up generating three … Continue reading Figuring out what to master…

Crosses…

I live in a rural community. To facilitate travel, the area I live in is criss-crossed with highways. They are just like highways you will find anywhere in the prairies. Long. Straight. Dotted with crosses on the side of the highway, signifying where someone somebody loved came to a tragic ending. This cross is all … Continue reading Crosses…

Home again…

It feels good to be home. After two weeks away looking after Lynn's mom post-surgery, I travelled home today. In total, the trip was just shy of eight hours, which makes for a long day. I'm a little annoyed at myself though. I thought I had packed everything up at the mother-in-law's house, however, apparently … Continue reading Home again…

Heading home…

My time in Saskatchewan is drawing to a close. I came out here two weeks ago to help my mother-in-law recover from surgery, and with a clean bill of health by the surgeon yesterday, that mission has come to an end. Despite some complications immediately following the surgery, the last week has gone well, with … Continue reading Heading home…

Trauma…

Trauma affects everyone differently. Some people are able to push through the trauma, leaving them relatively unscathed. Some may crawl into the bottle while others may turn to self-harm. Generally speaking, people affected by trauma can have problems with their self-esteem and their self-identity. They can lose track of who they are. While my mental … Continue reading Trauma…

Complications…

Well, it has been a week. I'm still in Saskatchewan, helping out my mother-in-law as she recovers from surgery, which she had last Tuesday. While the surgery went well, she ended up having some complications in the days after the surgery, necessitating an overnight admission to the local hospital and an urgent trip back down … Continue reading Complications…

Being productive…

My last day home before I head east for a a week or two has been productive. I finished two stories and a column for my local paper, as well as getting next week's devotional video for B edited and uploaded. In addition to the productivity, I was dealing with the plumber this morning, as … Continue reading Being productive…

Where I’m supposed to be…

When I was a child, I wanted to be a marine biologist. As I got into high school my aspirations shifted, moving towards the Coast Guard or ambulance, of which I was fortunate to be able to get to work on the the latter. During my young adult years, I was all about working as … Continue reading Where I’m supposed to be…

Stay Strong…

I have dealt with mental health issues for the better part of the last two decades. Over the years, doctors have given me multiple diagnoses, with the main two being Borderline Personality Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, though anxiety and depression are both factors as well. Medications have been a part of my treatment … Continue reading Stay Strong…

Perspective change…

No blog post yesterday as the day got away from me. Yesterday was definitely busier than other recent days. I had a council meeting to cover for the paper first thing yesterday morning. When that concluded I spent some time working on my meeting notes before breaking for lunch. After lunch, it was back to … Continue reading Perspective change…

A relaxed, but productive day…

While not a full day off, today was definitely relaxed. I had intended to take today off, having made arrangements for someone to cover sound at the church service this morning, and then veg on the couch and play video games or chill with Lynn for the rest of the day. Unfortunately, that plan got … Continue reading A relaxed, but productive day…

Well, after a big push today with the help of B, my new office is functional. I still have a few things to organize, however it is already a drastic improvement over the my previous space. Aside from the other space being a spare room, in addition to my office, we're also going to be … Continue reading

The river of time…

The river of time is not something anyone can slow. I had that driven home this morning after my optometrist appointment. After twenty years of not needing glasses, the doctor is strongly recommending them for distance. While the prescription is low enough that I don't need them for driving, again, she is strongly encouraging them. … Continue reading The river of time…

The importance of therapy…

I am really liking my new therapist with our local mental health unit. I've been seeing her since last summer, and so far things seem to be a good fit. I had an appointment with her today, and we discussed a few different things, mainly surrounding my confidence issues. Despite being still mentally and physically … Continue reading The importance of therapy…

Enjoying the peace of morning…

How can you be upset with this face waking you up??? Thanks to a puggle who needed to go outside earlier than normal this morning, I was up earlier than my usual wakeup lately. I'm not even mad. I've been wanting to start getting up earlier again. Lately, I've just been so fatigued that I've … Continue reading Enjoying the peace of morning…

Unstable sense of self…

I wish I had more faith in myself. Surprising me incredibly, I got my exam results back yesterday for the twentieth century history final I wrote on Friday. First off, I was surprised that the exam was marked and back to me so fast. Secondly, I was surprised that I passed, and by a fairly … Continue reading Unstable sense of self…

Stress test

After an intense three week push, it's all over but the crying. I wrote the final exam for the first half of twentieth century history today. I say this after every exam, but I do not have a good feeling about this one. The exam was three long answer questions where you were expected to … Continue reading Stress test

No complaints

Well, the last few days have been busy. I've been heavy into study mode, with my final exam taking place a week from Friday. In addition to the studying, work has been keeping me busy as well. I covered the store for Lynn today so she could get some work finished up at the church, … Continue reading No complaints

Two years…

Today marks a somber anniversary in our home. Two years ago we lost Lynn's sister, who had a minor procedure done on her knee, then threw a blood clot and passed away a week later. The two years that have gone by since her passing have been both astonishingly fast and agonizingly slow at the … Continue reading Two years…

Coming up for air…

Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Pexels.com Since it's been a few days since I've last written, I figured I should probably make an appearance. I haven't been active on here, or on social media in general, due to studying. I've been working my way through the last couple modules of my current course, before I … Continue reading Coming up for air…