Content warning; discusses suicide… You don’t have to fight with mental illness alone.

Photo by Kat Jayne on Pexels.com I've lost track of the number of times I've been suicidal over the years. I still struggle with suicidal ideation every so often, though thankfully not as bad as I used to. The depression that causes the suicidal ideation is a liar. It isolates you from those who care … Continue reading Content warning; discusses suicide… You don’t have to fight with mental illness alone.

Bouncing back…

I'm feeling better today than I have in awhile. I've definitely got more energy and the fatigue isn't wearing on me quite as badly as it was. Our church opened it's doors for a Sunday service for the first time in months today, which was nice. One more piece of normal falling back into place. … Continue reading Bouncing back…

Learning to switch myself ‘off’ sometimes…

Today was just what I needed. The day was low-key, and not spent at the keyboard, which felt fantastic. I ended up spending the day at the store with Lynn, and there was a steady stream of well-wishers to wish her a belated happy birthday. A friend I commissioned tot make a birthday cake for … Continue reading Learning to switch myself ‘off’ sometimes…

Taking a break…

I have been dragging ass all day. The fatigue is just killing me today. I've had very little motivation to get things done, though the day was still somewhat productive. I started the morning with an appointment with the kinesiologist to get some core exercises to work on. After that I headed home, and just … Continue reading Taking a break…

Work, work, work…

Today was a pretty laid back day. I ended up doing a couple of interviews this morning for an article I'm working on, and I made some headway on my next essay. This afternoon, I worked on my photography and Photoshop courses, then did some more work on my essay, as well as doing some … Continue reading Work, work, work…

Running in the red…

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Today has been a day. I was up and out relatively early, taking Willow to see the vet in Stettler. The vet ended up keeping her for a few hours so she could do some tests, which left me with time to kill. The good news is that the vet … Continue reading Running in the red…

Contemplating the -near- future…

Photo by Andrea Piacquadio on Pexels.com This evening, I am feeling grateful for friends. A friend of mine reached out this morning offering to pick up the pet food from Alliance for me today, seeing as they were up there anyway on other business. This kind gesture saved me a trip up there, for which … Continue reading Contemplating the -near- future…

Dealing with change…

I'm struggling today. Photo by Alexas Fotos on Pexels.com The fatigue is really bad today, and I'm just feeling stressed with life in general. It doesn't help that my plans for today ended up going sideways; I had intended to do some work in the office today, working on researching my next assignment for my … Continue reading Dealing with change…

Restful…

Yesterday and today have both ended up being pretty restful days. I didn't end up doing too much yesterday, trying to give myself a chance to unwind. Still, the day wasn't without its productivity. I got some studying in for my university course, updated my website, and even managed to catch an episode of SEAL … Continue reading Restful…

Seeing in grey…

Recovery in mental illness is hard. It's not like a physical injury that can be seen. There is no casino splints, nothing visual that clues people in that something is wrong. Mental illness is all internal. Mental illness is painful. It affects relationships. It makes you question your own abilities and confidence. For significant mental … Continue reading Seeing in grey…

Productivity in Recovery…

Kevin J Sabo photo Today, I'm feeling optimistic. I received my marks back for my latest essay, and while I did not do as well as I was wanting, I did do better than I was expecting, scoring above 80 per cent, which I am not going to complain about. With this assignment done and … Continue reading Productivity in Recovery…

Rusting out versus burning out…

Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com During my session with M on Monday, we got talking about how much I've been taking on. In particular, he introduced me to the concept of burning out versus rusting out. In his opinion I am not in danger of the latter, but the former is definitely something I need … Continue reading Rusting out versus burning out…

A restful July 1…

Photo by Social Soup Social Media on Pexels.com Things have been quiet today. I spent some more time prepping myself for the market tomorrow, and spent some more time unwinding playing Spiderman on the Playstation 4. I think I've nearly completed the game, but it's definitely been a fun one to play. The developers, Insomniac … Continue reading A restful July 1…

Trying to give my brain a break…

Today has found me a bit better than yesterday, though I am still feeling fatigued, stressed, and generally emotional. It's been a quiet day today. I made pancakes for lunch for Lynn and I, and then played an hour of Spider Man on the Playstation 4, before settling in to the office to do a … Continue reading Trying to give my brain a break…

Sometimes doing nothing is doing something…

Today hasn't been a great mental health day. My moods and energy level have definitely been low, and I have been having a hell of a time managing to get anything done. My ambition has just ben gone. I have a couple stories for work that I need to write and I just haven't been … Continue reading Sometimes doing nothing is doing something…

Changes and growth…

I finally managed to get out shooting again last night, which felt good. It was a quiet evening with little wildlife moving about; still, I managed to capture an image of this hawk having supper, which is as cool as it is disturbing. Even birds need to eat. Despite not finding much to shoot last, … Continue reading Changes and growth…

Mastering my craft…

The day hasn't been overly busy, but it has been steady. I was up and out earlier than I have been of late. I was filming the weekly devotional put out by our church during the Covid-19 shutdown. After we finished the filming, I headed down to the store to do the editing on the … Continue reading Mastering my craft…

Waking up functional…

Today wasn't as productive as I would have liked, but it was still productive none-the-less. I started the morning doing some telephone interviews for a story I'm working on, then it was off to the store for the day. The store was quiet, but I did manage to get some creative writing done. I attempted … Continue reading Waking up functional…

Productivity…

Today was a productive day. I started the day by doing a run up to Alliance to grab pet food for Taffy and Rolo. When I got home from that, I headed straight into the backyard and -nearly- finished the mowing the back yard. I would have had it all done, but we got rain … Continue reading Productivity…

I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

The last few days have been a blur. I've been keeping myself busy with a variety of tasks, such as writing and photoshop work. Despite not writing daily on my blog the way I have been, I have been spending quite a bit of time each day at the computer. Yesterday I got some work … Continue reading I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

Positive indicators

Today has been a day. I slept in a bit, before getting up and heading into the office. I did a Facebook live announcing the winner of a draw that I was running on my photography business's Facebook page. The winner ended up being a lady from Edmonton that Lynn knows. I ended up coordinating … Continue reading Positive indicators

Busy!

Where do the days go? I haven't written in a few days because I've gotten busy. I've been putting tons of time in to my studies, as well catching the odd story for work. School-wise, I'm still working on my next module through Athabasca University, which currently has me working on a research essay. I'm … Continue reading Busy!

Struggling with fatigue…

Today didn't go quite as planned. I ended up not sleeping that well last night. I don't know why, but over the last couple of weeks I have been having a harder time falling asleep than usual. I just haven't been feeling tired, despite the meds. Unfortunately that usually turns into me over sleeping in … Continue reading Struggling with fatigue…

Working on “downtime.”

It's been a few days since I've written. Things have been busy. Between work picking up, school, and my photography, I have not had much in the way of downtime, but I'm not complaining. With the weather getting nicer, I've been getting out to shoot more, and have been really happy with some of the … Continue reading Working on “downtime.”

Progress with reasonable goals…

Today has been fairly quiet on the home front. I finished up an article for my editor that I started last night, and submitted it, then started on the reading for my next unit in my university course that I am currently taking for my writing. I covered a lot today, though it was mainly … Continue reading Progress with reasonable goals…