Just beginning…

So, my plans to switch over to a communications degree have hit a bit of a snag. The program on offer is a Bachelor of Professional Arts in communication, however I don't meet the minimum requirements to enter the program. I need to be at minimum finished second-year of university before I can even apply. … Continue reading Just beginning…

The importance of therapy…

I am really liking my new therapist with our local mental health unit. I've been seeing her since last summer, and so far things seem to be a good fit. I had an appointment with her today, and we discussed a few different things, mainly surrounding my confidence issues. Despite being still mentally and physically … Continue reading The importance of therapy…

Unstable sense of self…

I wish I had more faith in myself. Surprising me incredibly, I got my exam results back yesterday for the twentieth century history final I wrote on Friday. First off, I was surprised that the exam was marked and back to me so fast. Secondly, I was surprised that I passed, and by a fairly … Continue reading Unstable sense of self…

Stress test

After an intense three week push, it's all over but the crying. I wrote the final exam for the first half of twentieth century history today. I say this after every exam, but I do not have a good feeling about this one. The exam was three long answer questions where you were expected to … Continue reading Stress test

No complaints

Well, the last few days have been busy. I've been heavy into study mode, with my final exam taking place a week from Friday. In addition to the studying, work has been keeping me busy as well. I covered the store for Lynn today so she could get some work finished up at the church, … Continue reading No complaints

Two years…

Today marks a somber anniversary in our home. Two years ago we lost Lynn's sister, who had a minor procedure done on her knee, then threw a blood clot and passed away a week later. The two years that have gone by since her passing have been both astonishingly fast and agonizingly slow at the … Continue reading Two years…

Coming up for air…

Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Pexels.com Since it's been a few days since I've last written, I figured I should probably make an appearance. I haven't been active on here, or on social media in general, due to studying. I've been working my way through the last couple modules of my current course, before I … Continue reading Coming up for air…

In good stead…

I am feeling somewhat relieved tonight. I received an email from my school today, notifying me that my essay, which I agonized over for a month, was graded. The resulting mark was a much needed confidence boost. The mark for the assignment was 84 per cent, which was consistent with the 82 per cent for … Continue reading In good stead…

Calm…

I'm feeling calm, even centred, tonight. It's been a busy day. I had a meeting to cover this morning, followed by an appointment with M this afternoon. We had a good conversation, covering a lot of ground, talking about things I want to work on in 2021. He said that I seem calmer, more relaxed … Continue reading Calm…

Focusing on my skills…

Dec. 27,2020, Paintearth County Today, I'm feeling content. The day wasn't overly strenuous, but it kept me busy. I did some practise with Adobe Illustrator, wrote a column, and prepped some photos for my editor this morning. After lunch I had a meeting to cover for the paper, and then after that finished, I came … Continue reading Focusing on my skills…

What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

I strive to make every day better than the one before. I'd say I accomplished that over the last couple of years. I pushed myself, pushed my skills, and managed to get some good work done, for both the paper and the church. Honestly, if someone had told me a year ago that I would … Continue reading What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

Accomplished…

I think it's safe to say that I've hit my wall. The last week was one of the busiest that I can remember in I don't know how long. Between the filming for church and the writing for work, it's kept me hopping. Aside from a couple of minor glitches that I noticed during the … Continue reading Accomplished…

Getting my -geese- in a row…

Kevin J Sabo photo I am definitely bouncing back. After taking it easy Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday, Wednesday had me back in the office covering several of my council meetings for the paper, and otherwise get back to work. The only down side to everything going on is that it is making it busy for … Continue reading Getting my -geese- in a row…

Some days…

It's safe to say that today did not go as planned. First off, I was grouchy pretty much from the time I woke up. That was followed by Lynn saying she wasn't feeling well and asking me to go down and cover the store, for at least part of the day. I did, but I … Continue reading Some days…

Measuring progress in inches, not miles…

Photo by Karolina Grabowska on Pexels.com I have learned a lot over the last few years. I've learned that mental health recovery is possible, but that it takes work. I've learned that progress, real progress, is measured in inches, not in miles. Real progress is measured in the daily grind, how you respond to life's … Continue reading Measuring progress in inches, not miles…

Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

In what was an incredibly quick turnaround, I received my marks back from the final exam I wrote last week, and I am not unhappy with the results. I ended up scoring 87 per cent on the exam, which gave me an 85 overall average for the composition course. On the down side, it was … Continue reading Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

Driven…

As far as my schooling goes, one chapter is drawing to a close and another is beginning. I got my marks for my final assignment, and despite the piece not being one of my strongest submissions, I still managed to keep my mark into the eighties, which is a relief. The instructor commented that I … Continue reading Driven…

Adding up…

Photo by George Becker on Pexels.com The fatigue is back, and it feels like it's brought reinforcements. I've been tired over the past few days, and it doesn't seem to matter how much I sleep. I ended up taking last weekend off from my workout routine, and I have yet to get back into it. … Continue reading Adding up…

Grateful for a bit of down-time…

I am always grateful for light days. With nothing on the agenda and with how fatigued I've been feeling I cut myself some slack today. I played a couple hours of "The Outer Worlds," did some reading for my next assignment, did a couple of miles on the treadmill, and participated in an online forum … Continue reading Grateful for a bit of down-time…

Bouncing back…

I'm feeling better today than I have in awhile. I've definitely got more energy and the fatigue isn't wearing on me quite as badly as it was. Our church opened it's doors for a Sunday service for the first time in months today, which was nice. One more piece of normal falling back into place. … Continue reading Bouncing back…

Learning to switch myself ‘off’ sometimes…

Today was just what I needed. The day was low-key, and not spent at the keyboard, which felt fantastic. I ended up spending the day at the store with Lynn, and there was a steady stream of well-wishers to wish her a belated happy birthday. A friend I commissioned tot make a birthday cake for … Continue reading Learning to switch myself ‘off’ sometimes…

Taking a break…

I have been dragging ass all day. The fatigue is just killing me today. I've had very little motivation to get things done, though the day was still somewhat productive. I started the morning with an appointment with the kinesiologist to get some core exercises to work on. After that I headed home, and just … Continue reading Taking a break…

Running in the red…

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Today has been a day. I was up and out relatively early, taking Willow to see the vet in Stettler. The vet ended up keeping her for a few hours so she could do some tests, which left me with time to kill. The good news is that the vet … Continue reading Running in the red…

Dealing with change…

I'm struggling today. Photo by Alexas Fotos on Pexels.com The fatigue is really bad today, and I'm just feeling stressed with life in general. It doesn't help that my plans for today ended up going sideways; I had intended to do some work in the office today, working on researching my next assignment for my … Continue reading Dealing with change…

Seeing in grey…

Recovery in mental illness is hard. It's not like a physical injury that can be seen. There is no casino splints, nothing visual that clues people in that something is wrong. Mental illness is all internal. Mental illness is painful. It affects relationships. It makes you question your own abilities and confidence. For significant mental … Continue reading Seeing in grey…