Picture Taking…

I'm appreciative that it is the tail end of what turned into another fairly steady work-week. For school, I finished my latest module and am now at the 50 per cent mark of the twentieth century course I am working through. I've decided that I am going to pick up the additional English course come … Continue reading Picture Taking…

Insight…

Photo by Anna Tarazevich on Pexels.com I have received one comment from medical professionals too many times to count during my journey with mental illness. The comment is words to the effect of "you have a level of insight not normally seen in those dealing with mental illness." While not wrong, the comment is frustrating … Continue reading Insight…

Getting back into the groove…

The Village of Halkirk, with the sunset behind. April 14,2021. Kevin J Sabo photo. Well, it's been a day. The bad news? Two back to back meetings, both of which went longer than normal to cover for the paper. The good news? I did manage to get out for a walk with the dogs for … Continue reading Getting back into the groove…

A much needed confidence boost…

Today has been one of the most productive and highest energy days that I've had in weeks. I managed to stay busy most of the day working on various projects, and then I did an introduction to the photography editing software I use, Adobe's Lightroom. While not quite a train wreck,. the session definitely did … Continue reading A much needed confidence boost…

A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Photo by Brett Sayles on Pexels.com When I can't find something, my brain freaks out. I search all over for the misplaced item. My focus goes out the window, and I struggle. I had just such an occurrence happen yesterday. I couldn't find the clip-on sunglasses for my glasses. I searched my work bag. I … Continue reading A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Recognizing and adjusting…

Photo by Liza Summer on Pexels.com Mentally and emotionally, I feel hung over. The last couple of weeks have been challenging, but I feel like I am finally making good progress in my climb out of the valley of depression. Getting my sleep figured out has definitely been helping. The last couple of days especially, … Continue reading Recognizing and adjusting…

Face-Value…

Photo by ROMAN ODINTSOV on Pexels.com Slowly, but surely, my moods are starting normalize. Aside from having a hard time getting my butt out of bed this morning, today has been productive. I spent some time playing Sub Nautica, a really neat survival game that Sony has made free to play, and then this afternoon … Continue reading Face-Value…

Struggling with sleep…

Photo by Christian Domingues on Pexels.com I think one of the biggest reasons being admitted to hospital helps as much as it does is because it helps reset my sleep patterns. Looking back at all the times I've struggled and ended up in hospital, one common thread is that my sleep patterns have been screwed … Continue reading Struggling with sleep…

Figuring out what to master…

This has been turning into quite the week. I was covering council meetings for the local paper both Monday night and Tuesday morning. The Monday night meeting was fairly light so only ended up getting one story out of it. The Tuesday morning meeting had more substance to it and I ended up generating three … Continue reading Figuring out what to master…

Crosses…

I live in a rural community. To facilitate travel, the area I live in is criss-crossed with highways. They are just like highways you will find anywhere in the prairies. Long. Straight. Dotted with crosses on the side of the highway, signifying where someone somebody loved came to a tragic ending. This cross is all … Continue reading Crosses…

Trauma…

Trauma affects everyone differently. Some people are able to push through the trauma, leaving them relatively unscathed. Some may crawl into the bottle while others may turn to self-harm. Generally speaking, people affected by trauma can have problems with their self-esteem and their self-identity. They can lose track of who they are. While my mental … Continue reading Trauma…

Complications…

Well, it has been a week. I'm still in Saskatchewan, helping out my mother-in-law as she recovers from surgery, which she had last Tuesday. While the surgery went well, she ended up having some complications in the days after the surgery, necessitating an overnight admission to the local hospital and an urgent trip back down … Continue reading Complications…

Stay Strong…

I have dealt with mental health issues for the better part of the last two decades. Over the years, doctors have given me multiple diagnoses, with the main two being Borderline Personality Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, though anxiety and depression are both factors as well. Medications have been a part of my treatment … Continue reading Stay Strong…

Just beginning…

So, my plans to switch over to a communications degree have hit a bit of a snag. The program on offer is a Bachelor of Professional Arts in communication, however I don't meet the minimum requirements to enter the program. I need to be at minimum finished second-year of university before I can even apply. … Continue reading Just beginning…

The importance of therapy…

I am really liking my new therapist with our local mental health unit. I've been seeing her since last summer, and so far things seem to be a good fit. I had an appointment with her today, and we discussed a few different things, mainly surrounding my confidence issues. Despite being still mentally and physically … Continue reading The importance of therapy…

Unstable sense of self…

I wish I had more faith in myself. Surprising me incredibly, I got my exam results back yesterday for the twentieth century history final I wrote on Friday. First off, I was surprised that the exam was marked and back to me so fast. Secondly, I was surprised that I passed, and by a fairly … Continue reading Unstable sense of self…

Stress test

After an intense three week push, it's all over but the crying. I wrote the final exam for the first half of twentieth century history today. I say this after every exam, but I do not have a good feeling about this one. The exam was three long answer questions where you were expected to … Continue reading Stress test

No complaints

Well, the last few days have been busy. I've been heavy into study mode, with my final exam taking place a week from Friday. In addition to the studying, work has been keeping me busy as well. I covered the store for Lynn today so she could get some work finished up at the church, … Continue reading No complaints

Two years…

Today marks a somber anniversary in our home. Two years ago we lost Lynn's sister, who had a minor procedure done on her knee, then threw a blood clot and passed away a week later. The two years that have gone by since her passing have been both astonishingly fast and agonizingly slow at the … Continue reading Two years…

Coming up for air…

Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Pexels.com Since it's been a few days since I've last written, I figured I should probably make an appearance. I haven't been active on here, or on social media in general, due to studying. I've been working my way through the last couple modules of my current course, before I … Continue reading Coming up for air…

In good stead…

I am feeling somewhat relieved tonight. I received an email from my school today, notifying me that my essay, which I agonized over for a month, was graded. The resulting mark was a much needed confidence boost. The mark for the assignment was 84 per cent, which was consistent with the 82 per cent for … Continue reading In good stead…

Calm…

I'm feeling calm, even centred, tonight. It's been a busy day. I had a meeting to cover this morning, followed by an appointment with M this afternoon. We had a good conversation, covering a lot of ground, talking about things I want to work on in 2021. He said that I seem calmer, more relaxed … Continue reading Calm…

Focusing on my skills…

Dec. 27,2020, Paintearth County Today, I'm feeling content. The day wasn't overly strenuous, but it kept me busy. I did some practise with Adobe Illustrator, wrote a column, and prepped some photos for my editor this morning. After lunch I had a meeting to cover for the paper, and then after that finished, I came … Continue reading Focusing on my skills…

What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

I strive to make every day better than the one before. I'd say I accomplished that over the last couple of years. I pushed myself, pushed my skills, and managed to get some good work done, for both the paper and the church. Honestly, if someone had told me a year ago that I would … Continue reading What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

Accomplished…

I think it's safe to say that I've hit my wall. The last week was one of the busiest that I can remember in I don't know how long. Between the filming for church and the writing for work, it's kept me hopping. Aside from a couple of minor glitches that I noticed during the … Continue reading Accomplished…