Bouncing back…

I'm feeling better today than I have in awhile. I've definitely got more energy and the fatigue isn't wearing on me quite as badly as it was. Our church opened it's doors for a Sunday service for the first time in months today, which was nice. One more piece of normal falling back into place. … Continue reading Bouncing back…

Learning to switch myself ‘off’ sometimes…

Today was just what I needed. The day was low-key, and not spent at the keyboard, which felt fantastic. I ended up spending the day at the store with Lynn, and there was a steady stream of well-wishers to wish her a belated happy birthday. A friend I commissioned tot make a birthday cake for … Continue reading Learning to switch myself ‘off’ sometimes…

Taking a break…

I have been dragging ass all day. The fatigue is just killing me today. I've had very little motivation to get things done, though the day was still somewhat productive. I started the morning with an appointment with the kinesiologist to get some core exercises to work on. After that I headed home, and just … Continue reading Taking a break…

Running in the red…

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Today has been a day. I was up and out relatively early, taking Willow to see the vet in Stettler. The vet ended up keeping her for a few hours so she could do some tests, which left me with time to kill. The good news is that the vet … Continue reading Running in the red…

Contemplating the -near- future…

Photo by Andrea Piacquadio on Pexels.com This evening, I am feeling grateful for friends. A friend of mine reached out this morning offering to pick up the pet food from Alliance for me today, seeing as they were up there anyway on other business. This kind gesture saved me a trip up there, for which … Continue reading Contemplating the -near- future…

Dealing with change…

I'm struggling today. Photo by Alexas Fotos on Pexels.com The fatigue is really bad today, and I'm just feeling stressed with life in general. It doesn't help that my plans for today ended up going sideways; I had intended to do some work in the office today, working on researching my next assignment for my … Continue reading Dealing with change…

Seeing in grey…

Recovery in mental illness is hard. It's not like a physical injury that can be seen. There is no casino splints, nothing visual that clues people in that something is wrong. Mental illness is all internal. Mental illness is painful. It affects relationships. It makes you question your own abilities and confidence. For significant mental … Continue reading Seeing in grey…

Productivity in Recovery…

Kevin J Sabo photo Today, I'm feeling optimistic. I received my marks back for my latest essay, and while I did not do as well as I was wanting, I did do better than I was expecting, scoring above 80 per cent, which I am not going to complain about. With this assignment done and … Continue reading Productivity in Recovery…

Rusting out versus burning out…

Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com During my session with M on Monday, we got talking about how much I've been taking on. In particular, he introduced me to the concept of burning out versus rusting out. In his opinion I am not in danger of the latter, but the former is definitely something I need … Continue reading Rusting out versus burning out…

A restful July 1…

Photo by Social Soup Social Media on Pexels.com Things have been quiet today. I spent some more time prepping myself for the market tomorrow, and spent some more time unwinding playing Spiderman on the Playstation 4. I think I've nearly completed the game, but it's definitely been a fun one to play. The developers, Insomniac … Continue reading A restful July 1…

Trying to give my brain a break…

Today has found me a bit better than yesterday, though I am still feeling fatigued, stressed, and generally emotional. It's been a quiet day today. I made pancakes for lunch for Lynn and I, and then played an hour of Spider Man on the Playstation 4, before settling in to the office to do a … Continue reading Trying to give my brain a break…

Sometimes doing nothing is doing something…

Today hasn't been a great mental health day. My moods and energy level have definitely been low, and I have been having a hell of a time managing to get anything done. My ambition has just ben gone. I have a couple stories for work that I need to write and I just haven't been … Continue reading Sometimes doing nothing is doing something…

Changes and growth…

I finally managed to get out shooting again last night, which felt good. It was a quiet evening with little wildlife moving about; still, I managed to capture an image of this hawk having supper, which is as cool as it is disturbing. Even birds need to eat. Despite not finding much to shoot last, … Continue reading Changes and growth…

Waking up functional…

Today wasn't as productive as I would have liked, but it was still productive none-the-less. I started the morning doing some telephone interviews for a story I'm working on, then it was off to the store for the day. The store was quiet, but I did manage to get some creative writing done. I attempted … Continue reading Waking up functional…

Struggling with fatigue…

Today didn't go quite as planned. I ended up not sleeping that well last night. I don't know why, but over the last couple of weeks I have been having a harder time falling asleep than usual. I just haven't been feeling tired, despite the meds. Unfortunately that usually turns into me over sleeping in … Continue reading Struggling with fatigue…

Working on “downtime.”

It's been a few days since I've written. Things have been busy. Between work picking up, school, and my photography, I have not had much in the way of downtime, but I'm not complaining. With the weather getting nicer, I've been getting out to shoot more, and have been really happy with some of the … Continue reading Working on “downtime.”

Progress with reasonable goals…

Today has been fairly quiet on the home front. I finished up an article for my editor that I started last night, and submitted it, then started on the reading for my next unit in my university course that I am currently taking for my writing. I covered a lot today, though it was mainly … Continue reading Progress with reasonable goals…

Maintaining…

This morning Lynn and I were up and out a bit earlier than normal, to pick up a new A-frame that we are going to repurpose for the store, because the one down there is too small and light for the task. After we got back from that, I logged into my free webinar I … Continue reading Maintaining…

Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

I'm struggling today. I know I've been feeling the darkness creeping in over the last few days. My anxiety has been a lot higher, and my concentration and motivation have both been proving challenging. I definitely have not been as productive over the last couple days as I have been over the last little while. … Continue reading Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

Getting through this pandemic with patience…

Photo by cottonbro on Pexels.com This shutdown continues, with no end in sight, thanks to the Covid 19 Pandemic gripping the world. I know many people are advocating for the loosening of the restrictions that are in place so that the economy can be reopened and people can quit being confined to their homes. I … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic with patience…

Getting through this pandemic…

Despite my anxiety being peaked with everything going on in the world, I think I'm doing okay. I've managed to get myself back into a regular workout routine, even re-introducing the weight component with yesterday's workout. So far, I've been on the treadmill everyday this week for 30 to 40 minutes, and I'm already noticing … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic…

Weathering the storm…

Tonight, I find myself in a contemplative mood. I found out today that the paper is struggling today, due to ad revenue fleeing because of the pandemic. According to the letter from the publisher, if things don't change, the paper may not survive through to the other side of this. It has me considering my … Continue reading Weathering the storm…

Why I’m not panicking, yet…

One thing that is really surprising about all the events going on in the world is that my anxiety is not climbing. There could be a few reasons why this situation isn't affecting me more: I already live with a heightened state of awareness due to my anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and this … Continue reading Why I’m not panicking, yet…

Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…

Today has been another quiet day. I let myself sleep in again, trying to kick the remainder of this bug I've been fighting, and aside from heading out to grab groceries haven't been up to much. I've done a bit of gaming, rendering the world of Farcry 5, and also did some grocery shopping, and … Continue reading Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…

Not 100 per cent.. :(

My weekend has ended up differently than I was anticipating. I had a couple events to cover yesterday and was planning on going to church today, however those didn't happen. I ended up waking up with a headache yesterday morning, which progressed to a fever and chills as the day went on. I did escape … Continue reading Not 100 per cent.. 😦