Insight…

Photo by Anna Tarazevich on Pexels.com I have received one comment from medical professionals too many times to count during my journey with mental illness. The comment is words to the effect of "you have a level of insight not normally seen in those dealing with mental illness." While not wrong, the comment is frustrating … Continue reading Insight…

Getting back into the groove…

The Village of Halkirk, with the sunset behind. April 14,2021. Kevin J Sabo photo. Well, it's been a day. The bad news? Two back to back meetings, both of which went longer than normal to cover for the paper. The good news? I did manage to get out for a walk with the dogs for … Continue reading Getting back into the groove…

A much needed confidence boost…

Today has been one of the most productive and highest energy days that I've had in weeks. I managed to stay busy most of the day working on various projects, and then I did an introduction to the photography editing software I use, Adobe's Lightroom. While not quite a train wreck,. the session definitely did … Continue reading A much needed confidence boost…

A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Photo by Brett Sayles on Pexels.com When I can't find something, my brain freaks out. I search all over for the misplaced item. My focus goes out the window, and I struggle. I had just such an occurrence happen yesterday. I couldn't find the clip-on sunglasses for my glasses. I searched my work bag. I … Continue reading A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Recognizing and adjusting…

Photo by Liza Summer on Pexels.com Mentally and emotionally, I feel hung over. The last couple of weeks have been challenging, but I feel like I am finally making good progress in my climb out of the valley of depression. Getting my sleep figured out has definitely been helping. The last couple of days especially, … Continue reading Recognizing and adjusting…

Face-Value…

Photo by ROMAN ODINTSOV on Pexels.com Slowly, but surely, my moods are starting normalize. Aside from having a hard time getting my butt out of bed this morning, today has been productive. I spent some time playing Sub Nautica, a really neat survival game that Sony has made free to play, and then this afternoon … Continue reading Face-Value…

Struggling with sleep…

Photo by Christian Domingues on Pexels.com I think one of the biggest reasons being admitted to hospital helps as much as it does is because it helps reset my sleep patterns. Looking back at all the times I've struggled and ended up in hospital, one common thread is that my sleep patterns have been screwed … Continue reading Struggling with sleep…

Crosses…

I live in a rural community. To facilitate travel, the area I live in is criss-crossed with highways. They are just like highways you will find anywhere in the prairies. Long. Straight. Dotted with crosses on the side of the highway, signifying where someone somebody loved came to a tragic ending. This cross is all … Continue reading Crosses…

Trauma…

Trauma affects everyone differently. Some people are able to push through the trauma, leaving them relatively unscathed. Some may crawl into the bottle while others may turn to self-harm. Generally speaking, people affected by trauma can have problems with their self-esteem and their self-identity. They can lose track of who they are. While my mental … Continue reading Trauma…

Complications…

Well, it has been a week. I'm still in Saskatchewan, helping out my mother-in-law as she recovers from surgery, which she had last Tuesday. While the surgery went well, she ended up having some complications in the days after the surgery, necessitating an overnight admission to the local hospital and an urgent trip back down … Continue reading Complications…

Unstable sense of self…

I wish I had more faith in myself. Surprising me incredibly, I got my exam results back yesterday for the twentieth century history final I wrote on Friday. First off, I was surprised that the exam was marked and back to me so fast. Secondly, I was surprised that I passed, and by a fairly … Continue reading Unstable sense of self…

Stress test

After an intense three week push, it's all over but the crying. I wrote the final exam for the first half of twentieth century history today. I say this after every exam, but I do not have a good feeling about this one. The exam was three long answer questions where you were expected to … Continue reading Stress test

No complaints

Well, the last few days have been busy. I've been heavy into study mode, with my final exam taking place a week from Friday. In addition to the studying, work has been keeping me busy as well. I covered the store for Lynn today so she could get some work finished up at the church, … Continue reading No complaints

Two years…

Today marks a somber anniversary in our home. Two years ago we lost Lynn's sister, who had a minor procedure done on her knee, then threw a blood clot and passed away a week later. The two years that have gone by since her passing have been both astonishingly fast and agonizingly slow at the … Continue reading Two years…

In good stead…

I am feeling somewhat relieved tonight. I received an email from my school today, notifying me that my essay, which I agonized over for a month, was graded. The resulting mark was a much needed confidence boost. The mark for the assignment was 84 per cent, which was consistent with the 82 per cent for … Continue reading In good stead…

Needing a recharge…

Well, this stupid busy week is drawing to a close. Between work meetings and errands to run, this week has kept me hopping. I still have a couple of stories to finish writing, but thankfully the end is in sight. I just keep reminding myself that I have got this. And, I do. The fact … Continue reading Needing a recharge…

Oops…

Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com For the second time since the new year rang in, I screwed up and forgot my night-time meds. The problem is, without the meds, I don't sleep. Unfortunately, by the time I realized what had happened, and why I wasn't sleeping, it was four in the morning, and if … Continue reading Oops…

Focusing on my skills…

Dec. 27,2020, Paintearth County Today, I'm feeling content. The day wasn't overly strenuous, but it kept me busy. I did some practise with Adobe Illustrator, wrote a column, and prepped some photos for my editor this morning. After lunch I had a meeting to cover for the paper, and then after that finished, I came … Continue reading Focusing on my skills…

Looking for compromise…

Merry Christmas and happy holidays! Christmas was quiet, thanks to the pandemic necessitated lockdown our region finds itself in. About the only good news is that despite the restrictions in place across the province, small businesses have been allowed to remain open. I did some reading, and some playing with with the array of Adobe … Continue reading Looking for compromise…

What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

I strive to make every day better than the one before. I'd say I accomplished that over the last couple of years. I pushed myself, pushed my skills, and managed to get some good work done, for both the paper and the church. Honestly, if someone had told me a year ago that I would … Continue reading What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

Accomplished…

I think it's safe to say that I've hit my wall. The last week was one of the busiest that I can remember in I don't know how long. Between the filming for church and the writing for work, it's kept me hopping. Aside from a couple of minor glitches that I noticed during the … Continue reading Accomplished…

The tail end of a busy week…

Photo by Olya Kobruseva on Pexels.com Well, it's been a week. Between work and church commitments this week, I've definitely been busy. The good news is that I got all the videos shot and the video put together today, a full day earlier than I had planned. The bad news is that one of the … Continue reading The tail end of a busy week…

Pushing outside my comfort zone…

Photo by Kyle Loftus on Pexels.com With the holiday season upon us, my schedule continues to get busier. Thanks to the new Covid-19 restrictions in place across the province, we are switching up the format for our annual Christmas in song service. Instead of having the performers singing their music pieces live during the Sunday … Continue reading Pushing outside my comfort zone…

Feeling inspired…

Photo by Lum3n on Pexels.com The fatigue I've been feeling is starting to get old. Yesterday was really bad. Today has been somewhat better, with the fatigue not starting to settle in until later in the day. Today has been quiet. With the fatigue kicking my ass I mainly played low today, reviewing some old … Continue reading Feeling inspired…

Challenges and progress…

Photo by Francesco Ungaro on Pexels.com The last few days have been a challenge. I've been balancing my work and school commitments okay, but my energy level has taken a dive off a cliff. My get up and go has gotten up and left me in the dust. On the bright side, the fatigue I'm … Continue reading Challenges and progress…