Bouncing Back…

An old country cemetery near home with the old church overlooking it. Oct. 11, 2021. Kevin J. Sabo Photo. The last few days have been busy, but a much slower pace than previous weeks. I managed to get caught up with work, and focus some on school, catching up on some English reading and working … Continue reading Bouncing Back…

Controlling the variables…

Photo by Emiliano Arano on Pexels.com I'm not going to mince words. I've been struggling over the last couple of weeks. This time of year is never good for me. Add in how busy I've been with work and school, and medication tweak, and the deaths of three friends in the community in the last … Continue reading Controlling the variables…

Growth in challenge…

Photo by David Selbert on Pexels.com Unfortunately, I've had a little bit of a reality check lately. I got my second assignment done for my Prose class, as well as the first course for my Communications. The assignment for the Communications course was okay, however the Prose I am finding challenging. I ended up with … Continue reading Growth in challenge…

Holding onto the feeling…

Photo by Leon Ardho on Pexels.com With work slowing down a bit this week, I have turned towards my studies. I am approaching the half way mark on both my Communications and my Prose Forms classes. All told, I probably have about another ten to twelve weeks of work to get through for each course, … Continue reading Holding onto the feeling…

Shining through…

Today was definitely productive. It honestly wouldn't have been anywhere near as productive if it hadn't of been for Lynn. Fortunately she was able to get someone to cover the store today, so I could settle into the office and catch up on some work. And catch up I did. I still have a couple … Continue reading Shining through…

Progress…

Photo by Polina Zimmerman on Pexels.com Well, I managed to get my second assignment submitted for my Prose course, along with the first assignment for my Communications course. I've also managed to start on the first of three novels I'll be studying as part of Prose. Slowly but surely, I'm making forward progress. This week … Continue reading Progress…

Changing chapters…

Photo by Markus Winkler on Pexels.com It is time to close one chapter, and begin another; at least as far as school goes. After an intense week of studying, I wrote the final exam for my twentieth century history class yesterday, and received my results this evening. I ended up with an 85 on the … Continue reading Changing chapters…

A bitter sweet day…

Photo by Anna Tarazevich on Pexels.com Today was bitter sweet. After nearly a year, I had my final appointment with the therapist from the local mental health unit. She is leaving the service as the end of next week, which has me sad. I had a good therapeutic relationship with her, and I feel that … Continue reading A bitter sweet day…

Looking at the positives…

Photo by Ivan Bertolazzi on Pexels.com I've been struggling a bit over the last week. Work has slowed down a bit, which has allowed me plenty of time for me to work on my schoolwork. This is not a bad thing, as it's allowed me to get my second assignment done for my twentieth century … Continue reading Looking at the positives…

Finding growth in challenge…

Photo by Olya Kobruseva on Pexels.com As usual, this last week has been steady, if not overly busy, at least compared to some weeks. Work has slowed down some, which has had me focusing my efforts on my next, and final, twentieth century history assignment for the current course I am working on. The assignment … Continue reading Finding growth in challenge…

Tired, but not overwhelmed…

Despite this week being significantly quieter than last, I am feeling trashed. I've had my workout regime derailed, due to bad cramps occurring in my right calf muscle, which is not helping things any. I had a soak last night, which helped, but as it sits right now, I am still feeling. I think if … Continue reading Tired, but not overwhelmed…

Best laid plans…

As much as I try to slow down, the void in time always seems to be filled with something else that needs my attention. This month, I have deliberately stepped back from my writing for the paper and have been working on getting back into my school work. I got my essay submitted, and I … Continue reading Best laid plans…

Running…

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I can't believe it has been over a week since I've written last. After my quick trip to Saskatchewan last week, I travelled home last Friday, and haven't stopped running since. The last week has been pretty busy, with interview and photos last Saturday and catching up on some work … Continue reading Running…

Insight…

Photo by Anna Tarazevich on Pexels.com I have received one comment from medical professionals too many times to count during my journey with mental illness. The comment is words to the effect of "you have a level of insight not normally seen in those dealing with mental illness." While not wrong, the comment is frustrating … Continue reading Insight…

Getting back into the groove…

The Village of Halkirk, with the sunset behind. April 14,2021. Kevin J Sabo photo. Well, it's been a day. The bad news? Two back to back meetings, both of which went longer than normal to cover for the paper. The good news? I did manage to get out for a walk with the dogs for … Continue reading Getting back into the groove…

A much needed confidence boost…

Today has been one of the most productive and highest energy days that I've had in weeks. I managed to stay busy most of the day working on various projects, and then I did an introduction to the photography editing software I use, Adobe's Lightroom. While not quite a train wreck,. the session definitely did … Continue reading A much needed confidence boost…

A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Photo by Brett Sayles on Pexels.com When I can't find something, my brain freaks out. I search all over for the misplaced item. My focus goes out the window, and I struggle. I had just such an occurrence happen yesterday. I couldn't find the clip-on sunglasses for my glasses. I searched my work bag. I … Continue reading A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Recognizing and adjusting…

Photo by Liza Summer on Pexels.com Mentally and emotionally, I feel hung over. The last couple of weeks have been challenging, but I feel like I am finally making good progress in my climb out of the valley of depression. Getting my sleep figured out has definitely been helping. The last couple of days especially, … Continue reading Recognizing and adjusting…

Face-Value…

Photo by ROMAN ODINTSOV on Pexels.com Slowly, but surely, my moods are starting normalize. Aside from having a hard time getting my butt out of bed this morning, today has been productive. I spent some time playing Sub Nautica, a really neat survival game that Sony has made free to play, and then this afternoon … Continue reading Face-Value…

Struggling with sleep…

Photo by Christian Domingues on Pexels.com I think one of the biggest reasons being admitted to hospital helps as much as it does is because it helps reset my sleep patterns. Looking back at all the times I've struggled and ended up in hospital, one common thread is that my sleep patterns have been screwed … Continue reading Struggling with sleep…

Crosses…

I live in a rural community. To facilitate travel, the area I live in is criss-crossed with highways. They are just like highways you will find anywhere in the prairies. Long. Straight. Dotted with crosses on the side of the highway, signifying where someone somebody loved came to a tragic ending. This cross is all … Continue reading Crosses…

Trauma…

Trauma affects everyone differently. Some people are able to push through the trauma, leaving them relatively unscathed. Some may crawl into the bottle while others may turn to self-harm. Generally speaking, people affected by trauma can have problems with their self-esteem and their self-identity. They can lose track of who they are. While my mental … Continue reading Trauma…

Complications…

Well, it has been a week. I'm still in Saskatchewan, helping out my mother-in-law as she recovers from surgery, which she had last Tuesday. While the surgery went well, she ended up having some complications in the days after the surgery, necessitating an overnight admission to the local hospital and an urgent trip back down … Continue reading Complications…

Unstable sense of self…

I wish I had more faith in myself. Surprising me incredibly, I got my exam results back yesterday for the twentieth century history final I wrote on Friday. First off, I was surprised that the exam was marked and back to me so fast. Secondly, I was surprised that I passed, and by a fairly … Continue reading Unstable sense of self…

Stress test

After an intense three week push, it's all over but the crying. I wrote the final exam for the first half of twentieth century history today. I say this after every exam, but I do not have a good feeling about this one. The exam was three long answer questions where you were expected to … Continue reading Stress test