Unstable sense of self…

I wish I had more faith in myself. Surprising me incredibly, I got my exam results back yesterday for the twentieth century history final I wrote on Friday. First off, I was surprised that the exam was marked and back to me so fast. Secondly, I was surprised that I passed, and by a fairly … Continue reading Unstable sense of self…

Stress test

After an intense three week push, it's all over but the crying. I wrote the final exam for the first half of twentieth century history today. I say this after every exam, but I do not have a good feeling about this one. The exam was three long answer questions where you were expected to … Continue reading Stress test

No complaints

Well, the last few days have been busy. I've been heavy into study mode, with my final exam taking place a week from Friday. In addition to the studying, work has been keeping me busy as well. I covered the store for Lynn today so she could get some work finished up at the church, … Continue reading No complaints

Two years…

Today marks a somber anniversary in our home. Two years ago we lost Lynn's sister, who had a minor procedure done on her knee, then threw a blood clot and passed away a week later. The two years that have gone by since her passing have been both astonishingly fast and agonizingly slow at the … Continue reading Two years…

In good stead…

I am feeling somewhat relieved tonight. I received an email from my school today, notifying me that my essay, which I agonized over for a month, was graded. The resulting mark was a much needed confidence boost. The mark for the assignment was 84 per cent, which was consistent with the 82 per cent for … Continue reading In good stead…

Needing a recharge…

Well, this stupid busy week is drawing to a close. Between work meetings and errands to run, this week has kept me hopping. I still have a couple of stories to finish writing, but thankfully the end is in sight. I just keep reminding myself that I have got this. And, I do. The fact … Continue reading Needing a recharge…

Oops…

Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com For the second time since the new year rang in, I screwed up and forgot my night-time meds. The problem is, without the meds, I don't sleep. Unfortunately, by the time I realized what had happened, and why I wasn't sleeping, it was four in the morning, and if … Continue reading Oops…

Focusing on my skills…

Dec. 27,2020, Paintearth County Today, I'm feeling content. The day wasn't overly strenuous, but it kept me busy. I did some practise with Adobe Illustrator, wrote a column, and prepped some photos for my editor this morning. After lunch I had a meeting to cover for the paper, and then after that finished, I came … Continue reading Focusing on my skills…

Looking for compromise…

Merry Christmas and happy holidays! Christmas was quiet, thanks to the pandemic necessitated lockdown our region finds itself in. About the only good news is that despite the restrictions in place across the province, small businesses have been allowed to remain open. I did some reading, and some playing with with the array of Adobe … Continue reading Looking for compromise…

What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

I strive to make every day better than the one before. I'd say I accomplished that over the last couple of years. I pushed myself, pushed my skills, and managed to get some good work done, for both the paper and the church. Honestly, if someone had told me a year ago that I would … Continue reading What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

Accomplished…

I think it's safe to say that I've hit my wall. The last week was one of the busiest that I can remember in I don't know how long. Between the filming for church and the writing for work, it's kept me hopping. Aside from a couple of minor glitches that I noticed during the … Continue reading Accomplished…

The tail end of a busy week…

Photo by Olya Kobruseva on Pexels.com Well, it's been a week. Between work and church commitments this week, I've definitely been busy. The good news is that I got all the videos shot and the video put together today, a full day earlier than I had planned. The bad news is that one of the … Continue reading The tail end of a busy week…

Pushing outside my comfort zone…

Photo by Kyle Loftus on Pexels.com With the holiday season upon us, my schedule continues to get busier. Thanks to the new Covid-19 restrictions in place across the province, we are switching up the format for our annual Christmas in song service. Instead of having the performers singing their music pieces live during the Sunday … Continue reading Pushing outside my comfort zone…

Feeling inspired…

Photo by Lum3n on Pexels.com The fatigue I've been feeling is starting to get old. Yesterday was really bad. Today has been somewhat better, with the fatigue not starting to settle in until later in the day. Today has been quiet. With the fatigue kicking my ass I mainly played low today, reviewing some old … Continue reading Feeling inspired…

Challenges and progress…

Photo by Francesco Ungaro on Pexels.com The last few days have been a challenge. I've been balancing my work and school commitments okay, but my energy level has taken a dive off a cliff. My get up and go has gotten up and left me in the dust. On the bright side, the fatigue I'm … Continue reading Challenges and progress…

Some days…

It's safe to say that today did not go as planned. First off, I was grouchy pretty much from the time I woke up. That was followed by Lynn saying she wasn't feeling well and asking me to go down and cover the store, for at least part of the day. I did, but I … Continue reading Some days…

Measuring progress in inches, not miles…

Photo by Karolina Grabowska on Pexels.com I have learned a lot over the last few years. I've learned that mental health recovery is possible, but that it takes work. I've learned that progress, real progress, is measured in inches, not in miles. Real progress is measured in the daily grind, how you respond to life's … Continue reading Measuring progress in inches, not miles…

Holding steady…

Photo by Alex Andrews on Pexels.com The weekend hasn't been overly busy, but it has been steady. Saturday, I spent most of the day studying, working on my 20th Century History course. It's been feeling good getting back into the swing of things. I also picked up my new office chair on Saturday, and I … Continue reading Holding steady…

Figuring out how far I can push myself…

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Well, this has been a week. I've definitely been pushing myself hard this week. It seems like events and newsworthy activities have exploded in the region this week, and I've had a lot of articles to write as a result. As well, I spent some time attempting to make some … Continue reading Figuring out how far I can push myself…

Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

In what was an incredibly quick turnaround, I received my marks back from the final exam I wrote last week, and I am not unhappy with the results. I ended up scoring 87 per cent on the exam, which gave me an 85 overall average for the composition course. On the down side, it was … Continue reading Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

Driven…

As far as my schooling goes, one chapter is drawing to a close and another is beginning. I got my marks for my final assignment, and despite the piece not being one of my strongest submissions, I still managed to keep my mark into the eighties, which is a relief. The instructor commented that I … Continue reading Driven…

Adding up…

Photo by George Becker on Pexels.com The fatigue is back, and it feels like it's brought reinforcements. I've been tired over the past few days, and it doesn't seem to matter how much I sleep. I ended up taking last weekend off from my workout routine, and I have yet to get back into it. … Continue reading Adding up…

Pushing through your limits…

Photo by Lee Catherine Collins on Pexels.com Today has been... productive. After filming the Pastor's devotional this morning, I headed home, did the editing and then uploaded it to Facebook. After that I dug into my school work, and completed a passable first draft of my next assignment for university. All told, the essay comes … Continue reading Pushing through your limits…

The rest of the story…

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Over the last two decades that I've dealt with my mental health issues, I've gone from happy and healthy to suicidal and depressed and back again. I am easy to read, and when I'm struggling most of the people close to me can read me like a book. Still, when … Continue reading The rest of the story…

Opposite action

Photo by Ruel Madelo on Pexels.com One tool that has helped me significantly in my mental struggles is the concept of opposite action. Simply put, opposite action is doing the opposite of what you are feeling at a given time. Don't feel like getting out of bed? Get out of bed anyways. Don't feel like … Continue reading Opposite action