Time and Consistency

My recovery day may be extending into two. Woke up this morning feeling like hell. According to my CPAP machine and my Fitbit show that I slept well, but it sure doesn't feel like it. Here's hoping coffee helps. I have a slow weekend in front of me. I am bouncing out to the golf … Continue reading Time and Consistency

Newton’s law, staying in motion, and staying accountable.

Yesterday was a record breaking day for me. It was the first day that I logged over 20,000 steps. By the end of the day I definitely felt every step. I was tired. As tired as I was those, I felt accomplished too. I didn't set out to try to break the record yesterday, it … Continue reading Newton’s law, staying in motion, and staying accountable.

Solid

Well, just over a week into summer and the weather is starting to remind me of BC for all the wrong reasons. I can't remember the last time our region has been overcast and rainy for as long as it has. The overcast has definitely not been helping my mood instability over the last few … Continue reading Solid

Progress…

Despite the moods being up and down, today has been ok. I ended up hitting the treadmill today, and ended up fast walking 3 miles while watching a podcast on Youtube. The three miles took me just over an hour to complete, and allowed me to physically work through some of my stress. The three … Continue reading Progress…

Recovery at the edge of the abyss

Mood-wise, things are still turbulent, but they seem to be easing. I'm still not in a great headspace, but it's routine battling back from the edge of the abyss. Yesterday went reasonably well. We attended our friend's wedding and I even attended the party for a short while before my senses were totally overwhelmed by … Continue reading Recovery at the edge of the abyss

War with myself

Today I'm finding my anxiety peaked and my energy level has dropped off a cliff. Not a great combination. I'm tired. I feel like I could sleep for a week. The thing that sucks is I don't know what the trigger was for this slide. Things have been going well. Work has been keeping me … Continue reading War with myself

July 1, a retrospective on the first six months of 2019.

At the half way point of the year, I find myself reflecting on the trials our family has faced. Losing Brenda in February, my subsequent hospital admission in March, some changes at the work, and the loss of friends causing me to attend more funerals this than I have been at in the last 10 … Continue reading July 1, a retrospective on the first six months of 2019.