Paying off…

I ended up working a pretty quiet day at the store today. Lynn was out of commission with a migraine, and seeing as I had a light day I offered to cover. Despite the store being quiet, I was not unproductive. I ended up getting a couple of articles written, and I have a couple … Continue reading Paying off…

Undeniable…

I am pumped. It took a solid three hours of effort, but I finally got my next assignment done. It still needs some editing and revising, however the heavy lifting on the project is done, which means I should be in excellent shape to have it submitted by Friday, which was the goal I was … Continue reading Undeniable…

A great place to be…

I would like to thank everyone for the support with the last post I wrote. It's definitely a subject matter that hits close to home, and the support means a lot. Today started off quietly, but things got busy later in the day. I relaxed a bit this morning, playing Fallout 4 for a bit. … Continue reading A great place to be…

Content warning; discusses suicide… You don’t have to fight with mental illness alone.

Photo by Kat Jayne on Pexels.com I've lost track of the number of times I've been suicidal over the years. I still struggle with suicidal ideation every so often, though thankfully not as bad as I used to. The depression that causes the suicidal ideation is a liar. It isolates you from those who care … Continue reading Content warning; discusses suicide… You don’t have to fight with mental illness alone.

Learning to switch myself ‘off’ sometimes…

Today was just what I needed. The day was low-key, and not spent at the keyboard, which felt fantastic. I ended up spending the day at the store with Lynn, and there was a steady stream of well-wishers to wish her a belated happy birthday. A friend I commissioned tot make a birthday cake for … Continue reading Learning to switch myself ‘off’ sometimes…

Feeling Stable

I am getting tired of sleeping through my alarm clock... I had my alarm set for 7:30 because I had a nine a.m. meeting. I figured it gives me an hour to get up, have coffee, and make myself human. Nope. Woke up at 8:30, and barely made it out the door in time. On … Continue reading Feeling Stable

Good and bad…

The ride-along I was supposed to be doing with our local ambulance crew didn't end up happening. Because of the COVID-19 cases in the province our provincial health authority ended up suspending the entire ride-along program. I'm taking it as both a good and bad thing. It's good because I was worrying about how I … Continue reading Good and bad…

Living up to your dash…

Photo by Miguel Á. Padriñán on Pexels.com I was recently watching a motivational video on Youtube, and came across a concept that has kind of stuck with me. The short version is, when we die, as we all inevitably will, what is on our tombstone? Usually your date of birth, a dash, and your date … Continue reading Living up to your dash…

Busy with goals…

Our theatre performance has finished for another year. With my involvement in practises running since January and the eight recent performances, it's been a buys few weeks. It's been a nice diversion, but truth be told, I'm kind of glad that it's wrapped. It has been a big commitment of time and energy, and now … Continue reading Busy with goals…

Looking forward to routine…

I've been busy over the past week, and I'm feeling it. My energy has still been such that I am managing to make it through the day and get done what I need to, but I haven't had much energy for anything else. That's been the frustrating part. I continue to lose the war with … Continue reading Looking forward to routine…

Movie Review: “Bad Boys for Life” (No spoilers)

"Bad Boys, Bad Boys, Whacha gonna do, whatcha gonna do when they come for you?" The "Bad Boys" are back, in a fairly solid movie. I'm don't mind movie sequels, however the further between a movie and it's successor, the less inclined I am to like it. It's especially bad when they come over a … Continue reading Movie Review: “Bad Boys for Life” (No spoilers)

Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

Today has been interesting. I started this morning off conducting an interview with my town's two doctors, then headed down to the store and had lunch with Lynn. When I got home, I had a chat with my editor in regard to the interview this morning then headed onto the treadmill for a workout. The … Continue reading Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

A New Chapter?

Today marks the next chapter in my quest for knowledge. My course, "Introduction to Composition" goes live today on the school web-site. Like the previous course I took, this course has a six month contract. I'm looking forward to starting the course, as it seems to be taking a deeper look at some of the … Continue reading A New Chapter?

Contemplation

Today has been quiet. I was at the church for our annual general meeting this morning, then some research and writing for a bit this afternoon. I was supposed to head to Halkirk to take some photos this afternoon, however since I can barely see across the street, I decided that discretion was the better … Continue reading Contemplation

Work and self-care…

Today is definitely off to a rough start. I do not feel like I slept at all well last night, and this morning I am dragging ass. Despite that though, I have already managed to get some work done, and set up a meeting for later on this morning. My goals for today are to … Continue reading Work and self-care…

Confidence Boost

Well, after a few lumps and bumps the theatre group got through the dress rehearsal yesterday. Overall there performance went fairly well, though there were a couple of mis-cues with lighting. In the end, though, everything turned out pretty good, and I'm looking forward to the rest of the run. This morning I woke up … Continue reading Confidence Boost

Unsettled

Wow, am I unsettled this morning. I don't feel like I slept well last night, and in general I am just feeling spacey. I'm hoping it is a feeling I can shake off prior to our theatre performance this after noon. Today we are running through the dress rehearsal before the show opens for real … Continue reading Unsettled

I’m…

My anxiety is peaked today, and I find myself battling with my thoughts and my emotions. I'm tired of the noise in my mind. I'm tired of constantly being on edge. I'm tired of the feeling that I am walking on eggshells around everybody. I'm tired of the suicidal thoughts invading my mind again, drowning … Continue reading I’m…

Changes afoot

After a very short period of deliberation, I have decided to change photography website providers. It turns out that with the Adobe Photography package I subscribe to includes free portfolio hosting, using their software. The only charge for the service is $12/year for the custom domain. That is opposed to the $13/month I've been paying … Continue reading Changes afoot

The end of a decade…

Suffice it to say, I'm not the same person I was a year ago. With all the growth in the past year, how can I be? Then again, the growth has not been limited to the last year. I find it hard to believe that not only are we a matter hours away from a … Continue reading The end of a decade…

Little bit of everything…

Today had a little bit of everything in it. I covered the store for a bit this morning while Lynn was getting bloodwork done, then came home, did some laundry and other housework, and started brainstorming for my next assignment. I finally settled on a topic; now to begin the research. I grabbed a workout … Continue reading Little bit of everything…

Sparks

Photo by Malte Lu on Pexels.com The last few years have been rough. There is no getting around that. I still miss my past life as an EMT. I had a love and passion for that job that I can't explain. I loved the adrenaline rush when the tones would drop. I loved that I … Continue reading Sparks