Seeing in grey…

Recovery in mental illness is hard. It's not like a physical injury that can be seen. There is no casino splints, nothing visual that clues people in that something is wrong. Mental illness is all internal. Mental illness is painful. It affects relationships. It makes you question your own abilities and confidence. For significant mental … Continue reading Seeing in grey…

Rusting out versus burning out…

Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com During my session with M on Monday, we got talking about how much I've been taking on. In particular, he introduced me to the concept of burning out versus rusting out. In his opinion I am not in danger of the latter, but the former is definitely something I need … Continue reading Rusting out versus burning out…

I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

The last few days have been a blur. I've been keeping myself busy with a variety of tasks, such as writing and photoshop work. Despite not writing daily on my blog the way I have been, I have been spending quite a bit of time each day at the computer. Yesterday I got some work … Continue reading I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

Working on “downtime.”

It's been a few days since I've written. Things have been busy. Between work picking up, school, and my photography, I have not had much in the way of downtime, but I'm not complaining. With the weather getting nicer, I've been getting out to shoot more, and have been really happy with some of the … Continue reading Working on “downtime.”

Progress with reasonable goals…

Today has been fairly quiet on the home front. I finished up an article for my editor that I started last night, and submitted it, then started on the reading for my next unit in my university course that I am currently taking for my writing. I covered a lot today, though it was mainly … Continue reading Progress with reasonable goals…

Swimming along the wall…

Sometimes doing nothing is doing something. This weekend has been pretty lazy, but I'm not complaining. I've been feeling pretty drained over the last few days, and I'm not 100 per cent sure why. I know that between my writing, looking after the house, school, my photography, and everything else I've had going on, I've … Continue reading Swimming along the wall…

Feeling a bit better.

Today was a quieter day. On the plus side, I've been in a better mood, on the minus side, I didn't sleep well last night, and I've been dragging ass all day. Willow, the little bugger, didn't help matters any, crying for her breakfast for twenty minutes straight when I had not exited the bedroom … Continue reading Feeling a bit better.

Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

I'm struggling today. I know I've been feeling the darkness creeping in over the last few days. My anxiety has been a lot higher, and my concentration and motivation have both been proving challenging. I definitely have not been as productive over the last couple days as I have been over the last little while. … Continue reading Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

Tired but accomplished…

Today was another office day, cleaning up more work from my interviews and photos I took yesterday. I managed to get four stories done and submitted which has me pretty close to being caught up for the time being. I have one more story that I can start work on, however until I get some … Continue reading Tired but accomplished…

Reflex… DBT Skill

Today is one of those days that I'm feeling like I accomplished nothing, despite plenty of evidence to the contrary. I was up around 9:30, and played some Red Dead Redemption 2 for a bit while Lynn slept. After she got up, I caught up on some dishes, vacuumed, and cleaned up the back yard … Continue reading Reflex… DBT Skill

Feeling Stable

I am getting tired of sleeping through my alarm clock... I had my alarm set for 7:30 because I had a nine a.m. meeting. I figured it gives me an hour to get up, have coffee, and make myself human. Nope. Woke up at 8:30, and barely made it out the door in time. On … Continue reading Feeling Stable

Going Forward… Goals

I'm sitting at over 560 blog posts since I started this journey in the fall of 2017. That's a lot of time behind the keyboard. I am grateful from my community support in doing this blog, and have no plans to end it any time soon, however lately I have been thinking about what my … Continue reading Going Forward… Goals

Getting through this pandemic…

Despite my anxiety being peaked with everything going on in the world, I think I'm doing okay. I've managed to get myself back into a regular workout routine, even re-introducing the weight component with yesterday's workout. So far, I've been on the treadmill everyday this week for 30 to 40 minutes, and I'm already noticing … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic…

Weathering the storm…

Tonight, I find myself in a contemplative mood. I found out today that the paper is struggling today, due to ad revenue fleeing because of the pandemic. According to the letter from the publisher, if things don't change, the paper may not survive through to the other side of this. It has me considering my … Continue reading Weathering the storm…

Skills work amid Covid-19

A pretty light day today. I caught up on some housework, played some Playstation, and disappeared into the backcountry with a friend to take some photos. I didn't end up taking many this afternoon, but I did get a few good ones. My friend B and I were doing some exploring at an old graveyard … Continue reading Skills work amid Covid-19

Not 100 per cent.. :(

My weekend has ended up differently than I was anticipating. I had a couple events to cover yesterday and was planning on going to church today, however those didn't happen. I ended up waking up with a headache yesterday morning, which progressed to a fever and chills as the day went on. I did escape … Continue reading Not 100 per cent.. 😦

Good and bad…

The ride-along I was supposed to be doing with our local ambulance crew didn't end up happening. Because of the COVID-19 cases in the province our provincial health authority ended up suspending the entire ride-along program. I'm taking it as both a good and bad thing. It's good because I was worrying about how I … Continue reading Good and bad…

A battle in the war…

I am currently sitting at one of the longest writing streaks that I've had, having done a blog daily for the last 28 days. With my fitness regime, I'm sitting at 4 days straight, which is the longest streak I've had in quite awhile, though I am still keeping at my low intensity workouts for … Continue reading A battle in the war…

Living up to your dash…

Photo by Miguel Á. Padriñán on Pexels.com I was recently watching a motivational video on Youtube, and came across a concept that has kind of stuck with me. The short version is, when we die, as we all inevitably will, what is on our tombstone? Usually your date of birth, a dash, and your date … Continue reading Living up to your dash…

Early Morning Peace…

I always forget how much I enjoy the predawn quiet in the house. Lately I haven't even been setting an alarm, because it didn't seem to matter what I tried, I couldn't talk myself into getting out of bed, and as a result I've been sleeping in later and later. With my schedule being kind … Continue reading Early Morning Peace…

Refocus

Despite the best of intentions, everyone can lose sight of their goals sometimes. Throw in mental health struggles, and the very effort of survival can throw goals a little off course, or right out of sight. Thinking about the last few weeks, I can see that despite the forward progress I've continued to make, that … Continue reading Refocus

Busy with goals…

Our theatre performance has finished for another year. With my involvement in practises running since January and the eight recent performances, it's been a buys few weeks. It's been a nice diversion, but truth be told, I'm kind of glad that it's wrapped. It has been a big commitment of time and energy, and now … Continue reading Busy with goals…

Looking forward to routine…

I've been busy over the past week, and I'm feeling it. My energy has still been such that I am managing to make it through the day and get done what I need to, but I haven't had much energy for anything else. That's been the frustrating part. I continue to lose the war with … Continue reading Looking forward to routine…

Movie Review: “Bad Boys for Life” (No spoilers)

"Bad Boys, Bad Boys, Whacha gonna do, whatcha gonna do when they come for you?" The "Bad Boys" are back, in a fairly solid movie. I'm don't mind movie sequels, however the further between a movie and it's successor, the less inclined I am to like it. It's especially bad when they come over a … Continue reading Movie Review: “Bad Boys for Life” (No spoilers)

Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

Today has been interesting. I started this morning off conducting an interview with my town's two doctors, then headed down to the store and had lunch with Lynn. When I got home, I had a chat with my editor in regard to the interview this morning then headed onto the treadmill for a workout. The … Continue reading Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…