Remembering 9/11, its impact on my mental health journey

Due to the smoke from forest fires the moon was an orange-red on Sept. 10, 2022. (Kevin J Sabo photo) It seems almost fitting that the full moon last night was red. Twenty-one years ago, the United State was hit with an almost unimaginable tragedy. The events of Sept. 11, 2001 are forever etched in … Continue reading Remembering 9/11, its impact on my mental health journey

Beginning to live life…

The year continues to fly by. It doesn't seem possible that we are well into the first week of September already, yet here we are. I'm not going to lie, the past few months have flown by way too fast. I can't believe that I have been staff at the paper for over ten months … Continue reading Beginning to live life…

Finding my path…

Photo by James Wheeler on Pexels.com I can't believe that it has been nearly a month since I've written here last. I think I have finally found the path I am meant to be on. Work has been keeping me busy. I've been making inroads into the community of Stettler, and people are starting to … Continue reading Finding my path…

Stress test

Photo by Giancarlo Rojas on Pexels.com It's been a minute since I've had a chance to collect my thoughts and do a blog post. The last couple of weeks have challenged me both personally and professionally. A local firefighter with the department I used to volunteer with was killed in the line of duty at … Continue reading Stress test

Finding positive stress…

Photo by Pedro Figueras on Pexels.com It's hard to describe, but this week has been equally frustratingly busy and agonizingly slow. This was was my first week doing layout for both papers, which was definitely some added challenge. Still, being so early in the new year, combined with cases of the Omicron variant of COVID-19 … Continue reading Finding positive stress…

Feeling Driven…

Photo by Ivan Samkov on Pexels.com Today was a sharp contrast compared to the day off I took yesterday. Unfortunately, we said goodbye to Lynn's mom early this morning. With cold and snowy weather moving into the region again starting tomorrow, she decided to take off a couple days earlier than planned. After she left, … Continue reading Feeling Driven…

Learning, Quickly…

Photo by Soubhagya Maharana on Pexels.com It is that time of year again where time seems to have little meaning; that twilight zone between Christmas and New Year's where the days just seem to bleed together. While Lynn is taking some much needed time off -she closed the store from Dec. 24 until just after … Continue reading Learning, Quickly…

Pleasant surprises…

Photo by Vladislav Murashko on Pexels.com Sometimes I succeed in surprising myself. I woke up to my Communications exam marks in my email box first thing Saturday morning, with pleasantly surprising results. Due to the few questions in the exam that I was drawing a complete blank on I was expecting a mark somewhere in … Continue reading Pleasant surprises…

Grateful for the journey…

Photo by Craig Adderley on Pexels.com How the hell did it get to be the end of November already? Suffice it to say, the month of November has been an extremely busy one. I admit, I am enjoying my new role with the paper, though the transition maybe hasn't been quite as smooth as I … Continue reading Grateful for the journey…

Crazy…

Photo by Bich Tran on Pexels.com How did we get past the middle of June already? The last few weeks have absolutely flown by. When I have weeks like I've had this week, that is not hard. This week has gone from zero to stupid in a heartbeat. Just because of how the calendar fell … Continue reading Crazy…

Looking at the positives…

Photo by Ivan Bertolazzi on Pexels.com I've been struggling a bit over the last week. Work has slowed down a bit, which has allowed me plenty of time for me to work on my schoolwork. This is not a bad thing, as it's allowed me to get my second assignment done for my twentieth century … Continue reading Looking at the positives…

Figuring out what to master…

This has been turning into quite the week. I was covering council meetings for the local paper both Monday night and Tuesday morning. The Monday night meeting was fairly light so only ended up getting one story out of it. The Tuesday morning meeting had more substance to it and I ended up generating three … Continue reading Figuring out what to master…

Stay Strong…

I have dealt with mental health issues for the better part of the last two decades. Over the years, doctors have given me multiple diagnoses, with the main two being Borderline Personality Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, though anxiety and depression are both factors as well. Medications have been a part of my treatment … Continue reading Stay Strong…

The river of time…

The river of time is not something anyone can slow. I had that driven home this morning after my optometrist appointment. After twenty years of not needing glasses, the doctor is strongly recommending them for distance. While the prescription is low enough that I don't need them for driving, again, she is strongly encouraging them. … Continue reading The river of time…

In good stead…

I am feeling somewhat relieved tonight. I received an email from my school today, notifying me that my essay, which I agonized over for a month, was graded. The resulting mark was a much needed confidence boost. The mark for the assignment was 84 per cent, which was consistent with the 82 per cent for … Continue reading In good stead…

Needing a recharge…

Well, this stupid busy week is drawing to a close. Between work meetings and errands to run, this week has kept me hopping. I still have a couple of stories to finish writing, but thankfully the end is in sight. I just keep reminding myself that I have got this. And, I do. The fact … Continue reading Needing a recharge…

Calm…

I'm feeling calm, even centred, tonight. It's been a busy day. I had a meeting to cover this morning, followed by an appointment with M this afternoon. We had a good conversation, covering a lot of ground, talking about things I want to work on in 2021. He said that I seem calmer, more relaxed … Continue reading Calm…

Procrastinating with procrastinating…

Photo by cottonbro on Pexels.com This morning I'm feeling tired. Between work articles and my history paper that I'm working on, the last few days have been busy. My week actually pretty much exploded on Monday, and doesn't look as if it's going to slow down before Saturday, making it the busiest week I think … Continue reading Procrastinating with procrastinating…

The rest of the story…

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Over the last two decades that I've dealt with my mental health issues, I've gone from happy and healthy to suicidal and depressed and back again. I am easy to read, and when I'm struggling most of the people close to me can read me like a book. Still, when … Continue reading The rest of the story…

Content warning; discusses suicide… You don’t have to fight with mental illness alone.

Photo by Kat Jayne on Pexels.com I've lost track of the number of times I've been suicidal over the years. I still struggle with suicidal ideation every so often, though thankfully not as bad as I used to. The depression that causes the suicidal ideation is a liar. It isolates you from those who care … Continue reading Content warning; discusses suicide… You don’t have to fight with mental illness alone.

Reflex… DBT Skill

Today is one of those days that I'm feeling like I accomplished nothing, despite plenty of evidence to the contrary. I was up around 9:30, and played some Red Dead Redemption 2 for a bit while Lynn slept. After she got up, I caught up on some dishes, vacuumed, and cleaned up the back yard … Continue reading Reflex… DBT Skill

Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

Today has been interesting. I started this morning off conducting an interview with my town's two doctors, then headed down to the store and had lunch with Lynn. When I got home, I had a chat with my editor in regard to the interview this morning then headed onto the treadmill for a workout. The … Continue reading Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

The breaking storm…

I think that slowly but surely, like the weather is warming and the days are getting longer, the storm in my mind is breaking. This morning I woke up feeling like I have more energy, and it was not quite the battle to get out of bed that it has been. Even doing some work … Continue reading The breaking storm…

Content Warning (mention of suicide): Getting Whiplash

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has reached out to me since I published my last post. As you may have figured out, I'm struggling right now. My moods have been going so up and down over the last few days I'm beginning to get whiplash. At the urging of Lynn, … Continue reading Content Warning (mention of suicide): Getting Whiplash

I’m…

My anxiety is peaked today, and I find myself battling with my thoughts and my emotions. I'm tired of the noise in my mind. I'm tired of constantly being on edge. I'm tired of the feeling that I am walking on eggshells around everybody. I'm tired of the suicidal thoughts invading my mind again, drowning … Continue reading I’m…