I have BPD…

I've spoken about my battle with Borderline Personality Disorder before, but I have never really discussed what the diagnosis ACTUALLY means. Borderline Personality Disorder, also known as BPD, is a debilitating mental illness that affects approximately 2 per cent of the population. It is diagnosed primarily in women, however there is a growing belief that … Continue reading I have BPD…

Dusting myself off after lessons learned

Between my mental health struggling and being busy with company I've been having a hard time getting back into my routine, and I'm definitely feeling it. The fatigue related to the downswing has been bad, and I just haven't had the energy to break away to hit the gym. That is something I'm going to … Continue reading Dusting myself off after lessons learned

In awe of my support

Yesterday was my eleventh anniversary to Lynn. The last eleven years have been full of highs and lows as I battle with my mental health. Through it all she has been my rock. She has supported me, encouraged me, and given me a swift kick in the ass when needed. I feel somewhat remiss that … Continue reading In awe of my support

knocking down trolls

Blood doesn't make someone family. I broke my rule of not checking social media before bed last night, and saw that a family member left a troll-like comment on one of my previous posts where I was struggling mentally. It hurt that a family member could be so callous, telling me to "get a life" … Continue reading knocking down trolls

Thin ice and mules…

I had my appointment with H today in Stettler. He saw before I walked in that I was struggling. He asked me what was up. He asked me if I was taking my meds as prescribed. Then he asked me; "How much can a donkey carry?" I'll admit, I kind of looked at him blankly … Continue reading Thin ice and mules…

Time and Consistency

My recovery day may be extending into two. Woke up this morning feeling like hell. According to my CPAP machine and my Fitbit show that I slept well, but it sure doesn't feel like it. Here's hoping coffee helps. I have a slow weekend in front of me. I am bouncing out to the golf … Continue reading Time and Consistency

The grind

Lynn is off to Saskatchewan for a week, and I am going to be looking after the home-front grind. Looking after the dogs, the house, the store, and myself is going to keep me busy. That's good though. The structure is good to have. With any luck the fence, which has been under construction for … Continue reading The grind