Category: PS4

Cardio day

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It's only been a few days, but the work is already paying off. Today was a cardio day, and I ended up doing one and three-quarter miles on the treadmill tonight, in forty-five minutes. The amusing thing is that I'm feeling more awake after the workout than I was before. I'm working on slowly stretching … Continue reading Cardio day

Balance…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, small victories, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Today was another long day, but I did manage to get some exercise in. Today was day two of the hearings held in our county related to a proposed wind project.Covering the proceedings was definitely interesting, though I must admit I'm glad it's not something I cover regularly. I ended … Continue reading Balance…

A great place to be…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fallout4, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, sparks, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I would like to thank everyone for the support with the last post I wrote. It's definitely a subject matter that hits close to home, and the support means a lot. Today started off quietly, but things got busy later in the day. I relaxed a bit this morning, playing Fallout 4 for a bit. … Continue reading A great place to be…

Contemplating the -near- future…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fallout4, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Furry Family, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, Storms, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Andrea Piacquadio on Pexels.com This evening, I am feeling grateful for friends. A friend of mine reached out this morning offering to pick up the pet food from Alliance for me today, seeing as they were up there anyway on other business. This kind gesture saved me a trip up there, for which … Continue reading Contemplating the -near- future…

Working on “downtime.”

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It's been a few days since I've written. Things have been busy. Between work picking up, school, and my photography, I have not had much in the way of downtime, but I'm not complaining. With the weather getting nicer, I've been getting out to shoot more, and have been really happy with some of the … Continue reading Working on “downtime.”

Being someone else’s survival guide

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Gaming, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Spiderman, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

As anticipated, today was fairly busy. It got even busier with having to do some photography work in my office, but it is what it is. I did manage to get a bit of downtime in, playing a half-hour of Spider Man on the Playstation and watching an episode of SWAT that had Lynn and … Continue reading Being someone else’s survival guide

The thrill of the hunt, and an update

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Christmas is out of the house for another year. After church and lunch today, Lynn and I hunkered down at home, and got our tree taken down, and everything back into storage. Today seemed as good a day as any considering the mercury was sitting at -35C once wind chill was factored in. I don't … Continue reading The thrill of the hunt, and an update

Taking down time…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was a low key day. So low key, in fact, that I unfortunately didn't get a workout in. I ended up doing some research for a project that led me rather deep down the rabbit hole, and I didn't realize the time. That said, despite being a low key kind of day, it was … Continue reading Taking down time…

Bookwork

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Faith, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Scars, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, small victories, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was quiet. I got a workout in, did some reading, and finished the reading for the next unit of my course. Once I get the assignment done I will officially be on the downhill part of the course. I have two assignments and one unit left to do before I tackle the final exam, … Continue reading Bookwork

Catching up

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Family, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, Politics, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-harm, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I haven't written for a couple days, as I've been busy. I've had a nice little flurry of work pop up in the run up to Christmas. Sunday, between church and community events, I spent most of the day shooting photos. It may have been busy, but it was fun. I always enjoy covering those … Continue reading Catching up

Content Warning: Unexpected triggers and self-care…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Faith, Family, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Self-care, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was nice and quiet. I was pretty much a home body today. I caught up on some housework, got some playstation time in, and got a workout in. This evening I watched a couple hours of television with Lynn, and have been doing some school work. Overall, I'm feeling good. I'm liking that my … Continue reading Content Warning: Unexpected triggers and self-care…

Enjoying down-time

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Storms, suicide survivor, the fast and the furious, The Outer Worlds, Writing Therapy

Today was the first real "day-off" I've had in a few weeks. The bad news, a chunk of it was playing catch up around the house. The good news is, even with the housework I worked at catching up on, I still managed to get in a couple hours of 'The Outer Worlds' on the … Continue reading Enjoying down-time

You live, you learn…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

As busy as today was, I still managed to find some downtime. I was up early, and had the plumber stop in to check on a couple of things that we need to get dealt, then off to the lodge to do a photo shoot for the church members who live up there. It was … Continue reading You live, you learn…

downtime…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, COD:WWII, Colour spectrum, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

For a switch, today was a much quieter, yet still productive day. I slept in, played some Playstation, then opened the store for Lynn while she nursed a migraine. After she made it down to the store I ended up meeting with MF to have lunch and discuss plans for our the upcoming training we … Continue reading downtime…

Running Hard

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, small victories, Storms, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I've been running hard for the last few days. Between meetings, covering the store, church commitments , and school, I've been busy. I've been busy, and I'm definitely feeling some fatigue creeping in. The thing is, I'm feeling good-tired, not exhausted, and there is definitely a difference. When the exhaustion sets in, I don't want … Continue reading Running Hard

Productivity…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Dogs, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-harm, sheep dogs, small victories, Uncategorized, Uncharted, Writing Therapy

Today was a somewhat productive day. I started the day by letting myself sleep in a bit, then when I got mobile I started catching up on some office work that I had been neglecting for too long. Then I was out the door, doing another photoshoot with a previous client. After the photoshoot I … Continue reading Productivity…

Seeking my own approval

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, PS4, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, small victories, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was fairly quiet. I managed to get some time in on the "Outer Worlds," wrote some mental health related opinion pieces for the paper, did a couple hours of studying, housework, and even managed to get 20 minutes in on the treadmill. All in all it's been a productive day. I also received my … Continue reading Seeking my own approval

Slowing down

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, Injured List, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Movie, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Physical injury, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Storms, suicide survivor, the fast and the furious, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I am looking forward to sleep tonight. It's going to be in my own bed. It's been a busy, but productive week. I'm glad it's over though, because it was too much time on the road. The second day of my second course was definitely better than the first. It was more defined, and explored … Continue reading Slowing down

Rest & Recovery

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Habits, Hope, Injured List, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Old habits die hard, Perspective, Physical injury, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

It seems that winter has descended on Castor. The wind started up on Friday while we were in Red Deer, and has not stopped, bringing with it snow which began last night. Today has been a good day to hibernate, and I need to take these days of rest when I get the opportunity. Today … Continue reading Rest & Recovery

Road Trip

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, adaptability, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, coffee...., Depression, END THE STIGMA, Family, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Storms, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I don't mind mornings, I just wish they would happen later in the day... This morning was an early one. Lynn, her mom, and I were up and out the door early so we could get Lynn to her appointment in Red Deer for 7:45 a.m. In order for us to be there at that … Continue reading Road Trip

Reminders

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Ghost Recon:Wildlands, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, PS4, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today wasn't overly busy, but it did have a little bit of everything. This morning I worked on my assignment for school, then went and took some photos at a barbecue the town was hosting to congratulate our U15 baseball team on their hard-fought win to become Western Canadian Baseball Champions. After I got back … Continue reading Reminders

Building endurance

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Faith, Family, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, PS4, ptsd, Self-care, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Tomb Raider, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today has been a somewhat peaceful day. I spent a chunk of the day playing Tomb Raider, and cleaning up the house for a surprise visitor. Lynn's mom is on her way back out. for a few days. I was supposed to be taking pictures at the Castor Rodeo, however due to weather it's been … Continue reading Building endurance

Back in the saddle

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, Depression, Dogs, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Furry Family, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, journalism, L.A. Noire, loss, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., PS4, ptsd, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, sheep dogs, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was busy! Up and out the door early, conference most of the day, then my first workout in a few days. Damn that felt good. This evening I joined B for supper on his birthday. Still trying to figure out how he ended up cooking on his birthday, but I appreciate the gesture! After … Continue reading Back in the saddle

Paying off.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goals, Hope, Injured List, journalism, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Physical injury, PS4, ptsd, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Self-care, small victories, Storms, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

My hard work is paying off. I had an appointment with a nurse in my clinic who specializes in weight management. According to her machine, since I saw her last in the beginning of March, I am down 6 lbs, but have lost 12lbs of fat and gained 6lbs of lean muscle mass. Considering the … Continue reading Paying off.

Setting limits and working on self care.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Acceptance, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Ghost Recon:Wildlands, Goal Setting, journalism, Making time for what's important, Marvel, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, PS4, ptsd, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

So this week has ended up a little busier than I had intended, but I am coping for the moment. With how busy things have ended up, this afternoon/evening I am devoting to self care. I know I have work projects that I need to get done, but if I don't let off some steam, … Continue reading Setting limits and working on self care.