Category: Physical injury

What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

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I strive to make every day better than the one before. I'd say I accomplished that over the last couple of years. I pushed myself, pushed my skills, and managed to get some good work done, for both the paper and the church. Honestly, if someone had told me a year ago that I would … Continue reading What I was leaving on the table…finding out how far I can push myself…

Feeling good, and balanced…

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The last few days have absolutely flown by. I'm happy to say that after a two-week break to let my ankle injury heal I am back in the gym. I'm not jumping right back into things, however. I'm starting off by extending my treadmill routine a bit every day, reintroducing weights in a few days. … Continue reading Feeling good, and balanced…

Learning balance and time management…

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Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com This evening finds me in a contemplative mood. Today was a pretty light day. I let myself sleep in, then did a few hours of coursework. I managed to finish off another module of my 20th Century history course, this time studying how Hitler used the 1936 Berlin Olympiad … Continue reading Learning balance and time management…

Forced slowdown… on the injured list…

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The last few days have been fairly productive. I got a few articles done for work, and jumped back into my history course. Unfortunately, I've had to take a few days off from my workout regime due to an injury. I felt something pop in my left ankle as I was getting off the treadmill … Continue reading Forced slowdown… on the injured list…

Productivity…

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Today was a productive day. I started the day by doing a run up to Alliance to grab pet food for Taffy and Rolo. When I got home from that, I headed straight into the backyard and -nearly- finished the mowing the back yard. I would have had it all done, but we got rain … Continue reading Productivity…

Keeping busy, but finding downtime too.

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Today was steady. I didn't have a lot on the books schedule-wise, but after last night's council meeting I did spend a good chunk of my day researching and writing. However, that was broken up by a visit from my editor in Stettler. He's been on the job as the editor for the Stettler paper … Continue reading Keeping busy, but finding downtime too.

Slowing down

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I am looking forward to sleep tonight. It's going to be in my own bed. It's been a busy, but productive week. I'm glad it's over though, because it was too much time on the road. The second day of my second course was definitely better than the first. It was more defined, and explored … Continue reading Slowing down

Busy days

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I have not been able to write anywhere near as much I would like recently. Fortunately, my schedule should be settling back down to normal as of Friday. I am definitely looking forward to it, because so far in November I've been home under two days. I was in Edmonton on the weekend for my … Continue reading Busy days

Rest & Recovery

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It seems that winter has descended on Castor. The wind started up on Friday while we were in Red Deer, and has not stopped, bringing with it snow which began last night. Today has been a good day to hibernate, and I need to take these days of rest when I get the opportunity. Today … Continue reading Rest & Recovery

CW: Rollercoaster…

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Edit: today continued to decline and the suicidal thoughts hit me in a wave so hard I had to stop driving as I broke down completely. Definitely not a good day, but my doctor is fitting me in today. I have way too much going on to be this damn tired. While yesterday was an … Continue reading CW: Rollercoaster…

Pushing Red Line

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Physical injury, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Scars, Self-care, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

An engine can only run at red line for so long before it will begin to fail. With all the odds and ends I've been getting involved with in recent weeks, as well as helping out at the store, I've been running at my red-line for a awhile now. I'm definitely feeling the toll it's … Continue reading Pushing Red Line

At least I’m not bored…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fatigue is a hallucinogen, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, Injured List, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Physical injury, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, small victories, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I'm impressed that I've been as functional today as I have been, seeing as I had to get up in the middle of the night cleaning up dog puke. That is not a pleasant wake up..... Aside from that, I was up and out the door to Stettler for a meeting this morning. I was … Continue reading At least I’m not bored…

Faking self-confidence?

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I've been feeling good, albeit tired, lately. I have truly been blessed and am grateful for the good I have in my life. My mental-health treatment goes well. I have a fantastic team up between M and H and my family doc. I still don't have a new psychiatrist yet, but with where I am … Continue reading Faking self-confidence?

Coming back

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, Injured List, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Physical injury, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Scars, Self-care, sheep dogs, small victories, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was a relatively quiet, but full day nonetheless. I ended up spending the bulk of my day in the office today. I reorganized my work space, then polished off a couple of work projects before lunch. After lunch I did a workout, then back into the office again for another couple of hours, doing … Continue reading Coming back

speed bump

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Depression, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, Injured List, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Physical injury, ptsd, Road Trip!, Self-care, sheep dogs, small victories, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Well, the first day of my road-trip did not get started as anticipated. Lynn and I were attempting to leave the house when Sirius decided to try sneaking out. As a force of habit I attempted to grab him, and missed... I ended up jamming my ring finger into his collar as he slipped out, … Continue reading speed bump

Being uncommon among the common

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"Be uncommon among the common people." -David Goggins. The quote above came up while I was watching a video during my workout this morning. It's a powerful statement. All through life we are taught to go along to get along. We are taught not to stand out. Com bine that with society's propensity to find … Continue reading Being uncommon among the common

Hitting targets….like a bird into a window.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Hope, Injured List, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Physical injury, ptsd, Road Trip!, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

So I have been trying to lose weight. At my heaviest several months ago I was around 270lbs. Since then through a combination of diet and exercise, I've dropped down to 250lbs on my way to the target of 235lbs. I hit 250 several weeks ago, but aside from dropping down to 248lbs a couple … Continue reading Hitting targets….like a bird into a window.

Pieces are falling together

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goals, Hope, Injured List, journalism, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Physical injury, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, small victories, Sports, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

The end is in sight as far as my current crop of work projects go. It's been a good, busy, but good couple of weeks, but I am definitely looking forward to things slowing down a bit. I have four or five projects currently on the go which I should have wrapped up by the … Continue reading Pieces are falling together

Paying off.

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My hard work is paying off. I had an appointment with a nurse in my clinic who specializes in weight management. According to her machine, since I saw her last in the beginning of March, I am down 6 lbs, but have lost 12lbs of fat and gained 6lbs of lean muscle mass. Considering the … Continue reading Paying off.

Making a life worth living…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Anxiety, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Contentment, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Injured List, journalism, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Physical injury, ptsd, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Self-care, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

So much for getting back into my workout routine today.... I woke up this morning, and my foot frigging hurt. Back to Advil and wrapping it I go. Oh well, it could be worse. I just need to be careful I don't push it and prolong the injury. Today has been quiet. Lynn is in … Continue reading Making a life worth living…

Hit a speedbump

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Acceptance, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Injured List, journalism, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Physical injury, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

My workouts are taking a hiatus for a few days. While I was walking the dogs before leaving for the movie last night I succeeded in rolling my left ankle. I was able to finish the walk, but by the time the movie was over I was somewhat stiff and sore. Icing it, wrapping it, … Continue reading Hit a speedbump

Recovery is scary

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goals, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Perspective, Physical injury, ptsd, Self-care, small victories, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

With the beautiful weather that has descended on my region, it is hard to be in a bad mood. The only real complaint I have today is that I am stuck covering the store while Lynn is away in Saskatchewan. That being said, I have still managed to get some walking in today, by walking … Continue reading Recovery is scary

Muscle memory

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Hope, Injured List, journalism, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Physical injury, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, Sports, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

The human body is an incredible machine. The complexity of it boggles the mind. It can heal. It can filter what we put into it. It can remember. I'm not just talking about cognitive memory. The fact that we can learn from the past and use it to guide our future decisions is amazing. The … Continue reading Muscle memory

Limits aren’t an option, they are a necessity.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Hope, Injured List, journalism, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Physical injury, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, small victories, suicide survivor, Writing Therapy

I'm honestly not sure which is more draining; running my ass off or having some down time. The weekend was busyish, with play practice, a hockey tournament, church, etc. This week has been pretty slow, though. My evenings are pretty much shot though. Meeting Monday night, play practise tonight, tea with a friend tomorrow night, … Continue reading Limits aren’t an option, they are a necessity.

“The list” by Toby Keith drives home the importance of putting yourself on your to do list.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goals, Habits, Hope, Injured List, journalism, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Physical injury, PS4, ptsd, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Self-care, small victories, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

A quiet day today. Country star Toby Keith has a song talking about life that should be required listening. "The List." Bounced between writing, theatre projects, and Red Dead Redemption 2. RDR2 continues to amaze me with the level of detail that the story has had. The only real knock I have found with this … Continue reading “The list” by Toby Keith drives home the importance of putting yourself on your to do list.