Category: Photography

a break in the fighting

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I was up and out early to take a friend to an appointment in Coronation, then after that it was taking laundry over to B's place since our washer is still not working. Hopefully it'll be fixed early next week, because this is getting annoying. You don't realize how much you use something until it … Continue reading a break in the fighting

Progress…

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Despite the moods being up and down, today has been ok. I ended up hitting the treadmill today, and ended up fast walking 3 miles while watching a podcast on Youtube. The three miles took me just over an hour to complete, and allowed me to physically work through some of my stress. The three … Continue reading Progress…

Feeling grateful

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So far, the first half of this weekend has been brutal. Today started early, got my workout in, then a quick meeting at the community hall with the funeral home about the funeral I was helping with today, then to the Trap range to get some pictures of the shoot going on this weekend, followed … Continue reading Feeling grateful

Change in weather

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What a turn in weather. It's actually gotten downright chilly in town, and fortunately the chill has brought along rain with it. Our area has been sorely lacking in moisture and the rain is definitely a good thing, even through it is unfortunately hampering the kid's Show & Sound at the school. I'm not going … Continue reading Change in weather

Feeling content while finding my niche.

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I'm feeling content tonight. Today was busy, yet fulfilling. Meeting this morning, coffee with a couple of friends, then a road trip with B up to Forestberg. Tonight I helped Lynn plant some vegetables in our little garden, and then Lynn and I talked over supper. It was one of the deepest, most connecting conversations … Continue reading Feeling content while finding my niche.

The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

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The animals are lucky they are cute, because I was ready to wring three of their necks last night. They were all being obnoxious turds as well, except for Taffy. She slept. Between Sirius barking his fool head off, Rolo attempting to push me off the bed, and Willow turning my CPAP machine off multiple … Continue reading The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

How anxiety changes my style of play.

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Considering how rough the last few months have been, I'm amazed that mentally I'm maintaining as well as I am. I've slowly been getting back into my workout regime, and things have slowly been leveling out. My anxiety has been peaked though, and I'm not sure why. My chest has been tight, I've been jumpy, … Continue reading How anxiety changes my style of play.