Category: Old habits die hard

Needing a recharge…

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Well, this stupid busy week is drawing to a close. Between work meetings and errands to run, this week has kept me hopping. I still have a couple of stories to finish writing, but thankfully the end is in sight. I just keep reminding myself that I have got this. And, I do. The fact … Continue reading Needing a recharge…

The year that was 2020…

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Photo by Karolina Grabowska on Pexels.com As 2020 winds down, I find myself contemplating the year that was. Several adjectives can be used to describe 2020, and not many of them are suitable for this blog. The year has been long, tiring, and trying, thanks to the trials brought about by the Covid-19 pandemic that … Continue reading The year that was 2020…

Good and bad…

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The ride-along I was supposed to be doing with our local ambulance crew didn't end up happening. Because of the COVID-19 cases in the province our provincial health authority ended up suspending the entire ride-along program. I'm taking it as both a good and bad thing. It's good because I was worrying about how I … Continue reading Good and bad…

Complacency and finding my ‘why.’

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I know I need to make a change. Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I need to make time to look after myself mentally and physically. It's not that I'm in a bad place right now, it's just I need to find the motivation to make a lasting change. If I can get myself back into … Continue reading Complacency and finding my ‘why.’

Rest & Recovery

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It seems that winter has descended on Castor. The wind started up on Friday while we were in Red Deer, and has not stopped, bringing with it snow which began last night. Today has been a good day to hibernate, and I need to take these days of rest when I get the opportunity. Today … Continue reading Rest & Recovery

Taking time and little things

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Well, today has been a busier day. This morning, K and I spent some time running errands, then later K, D and I are going to go see Fast & Furious Presents: Hobbs & Shaw. After that I'm meeting another friend to go see John Wick 3 at the cheap theatre (Unfortunately I didn't make … Continue reading Taking time and little things

We are the sum of our parts.

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I can be very all or nothing. I've been that way with many things in my life. Work. Relationships. Fitness. The biggest problem I had would be having the motivation for any of the above fall away after a short time. For instance, with the fitness, I would set lofty and in hindsight often unobtainable … Continue reading We are the sum of our parts.

I have no problem with stupid people, I just have issue when they drag me into their stupidity…

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When will people bloody well learn that drinking and driving is not acceptable. Period. End of story. I realise that people can be idiots by nature, but it annoys me no end when they drag me in to the midst of their stupidity. Just after midnight last night, Lynn and I were in bed, and … Continue reading I have no problem with stupid people, I just have issue when they drag me into their stupidity…

Old habits…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Abandonment, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Habits, journalism, learning new skills, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., NaNoWrMo, Novel writing., Old habits die hard, PS4, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, small victories, Storms, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

New year, new me? Not so much. I've been finding myself falling into old habits I can't say I like it. I've been spending more and more time gaming. I've been neglecting things that need to get done. My sleep schedule has been thrown for a loop as well, because I've been allowing myself to … Continue reading Old habits…