Category: Novel writing.

Tired, but not overwhelmed…

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Despite this week being significantly quieter than last, I am feeling trashed. I've had my workout regime derailed, due to bad cramps occurring in my right calf muscle, which is not helping things any. I had a soak last night, which helped, but as it sits right now, I am still feeling. I think if … Continue reading Tired, but not overwhelmed…

A much needed confidence boost…

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Today has been one of the most productive and highest energy days that I've had in weeks. I managed to stay busy most of the day working on various projects, and then I did an introduction to the photography editing software I use, Adobe's Lightroom. While not quite a train wreck,. the session definitely did … Continue reading A much needed confidence boost…

Struggling with sleep…

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Photo by Christian Domingues on Pexels.com I think one of the biggest reasons being admitted to hospital helps as much as it does is because it helps reset my sleep patterns. Looking back at all the times I've struggled and ended up in hospital, one common thread is that my sleep patterns have been screwed … Continue reading Struggling with sleep…

Book review: The Night Fire by Michael Connelly.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #BookReview, #MediaWednesday, ;, Book Review, contemplation, Creativity, Entertainment, Fiction, journalism, Michael Connelly, Michael Connelly, Novel writing., reporter, Uncategorized

Michael Connelly has done it again, with his hit novel "The Night Fire." A decades old murder, with the suspect still on the street. A more contemporary case, where a homeless person living in a tent is burned alive. A murder-book hidden away for decades brought to light by the widow of the cop who … Continue reading Book review: The Night Fire by Michael Connelly.

Getting my -geese- in a row…

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Kevin J Sabo photo I am definitely bouncing back. After taking it easy Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday, Wednesday had me back in the office covering several of my council meetings for the paper, and otherwise get back to work. The only down side to everything going on is that it is making it busy for … Continue reading Getting my -geese- in a row…

Feeling inspired…

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Photo by Lum3n on Pexels.com The fatigue I've been feeling is starting to get old. Yesterday was really bad. Today has been somewhat better, with the fatigue not starting to settle in until later in the day. Today has been quiet. With the fatigue kicking my ass I mainly played low today, reviewing some old … Continue reading Feeling inspired…

Some days…

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It's safe to say that today did not go as planned. First off, I was grouchy pretty much from the time I woke up. That was followed by Lynn saying she wasn't feeling well and asking me to go down and cover the store, for at least part of the day. I did, but I … Continue reading Some days…

Measuring progress in inches, not miles…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, Anxiety, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Novel writing., Perspective, ptsd, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Karolina Grabowska on Pexels.com I have learned a lot over the last few years. I've learned that mental health recovery is possible, but that it takes work. I've learned that progress, real progress, is measured in inches, not in miles. Real progress is measured in the daily grind, how you respond to life's … Continue reading Measuring progress in inches, not miles…

A day of (sort of) rest…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Novel writing., Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I took a day away from my studies today. That said, it wasn't that I did nothing today. We had church this morning, then went for lunch, just Lynn and I. After lunch, we headed home, and I cut the lawn. More specifically, I cut the back yard....the front lawn … Continue reading A day of (sort of) rest…

Trying to give my brain a break…

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Today has found me a bit better than yesterday, though I am still feeling fatigued, stressed, and generally emotional. It's been a quiet day today. I made pancakes for lunch for Lynn and I, and then played an hour of Spider Man on the Playstation 4, before settling in to the office to do a … Continue reading Trying to give my brain a break…

Waking up functional…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, Emergency medical services, ems, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fiction, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Novel writing., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today wasn't as productive as I would have liked, but it was still productive none-the-less. I started the morning doing some telephone interviews for a story I'm working on, then it was off to the store for the day. The store was quiet, but I did manage to get some creative writing done. I attempted … Continue reading Waking up functional…

Productivity…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, Acceptance, Accountability, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, Injured List, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Novel writing., Perspective, Physical injury, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was a productive day. I started the day by doing a run up to Alliance to grab pet food for Taffy and Rolo. When I got home from that, I headed straight into the backyard and -nearly- finished the mowing the back yard. I would have had it all done, but we got rain … Continue reading Productivity…

I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

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The last few days have been a blur. I've been keeping myself busy with a variety of tasks, such as writing and photoshop work. Despite not writing daily on my blog the way I have been, I have been spending quite a bit of time each day at the computer. Yesterday I got some work … Continue reading I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

Feeling a bit better.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Contentment, Creativity, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Novel writing., Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was a quieter day. On the plus side, I've been in a better mood, on the minus side, I didn't sleep well last night, and I've been dragging ass all day. Willow, the little bugger, didn't help matters any, crying for her breakfast for twenty minutes straight when I had not exited the bedroom … Continue reading Feeling a bit better.

Getting through this pandemic…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, coffee...., Colour spectrum, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, Emergency medical services, ems, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Novel writing., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, Social Media, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Despite my anxiety being peaked with everything going on in the world, I think I'm doing okay. I've managed to get myself back into a regular workout routine, even re-introducing the weight component with yesterday's workout. So far, I've been on the treadmill everyday this week for 30 to 40 minutes, and I'm already noticing … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic…

Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…

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Today has been another quiet day. I let myself sleep in again, trying to kick the remainder of this bug I've been fighting, and aside from heading out to grab groceries haven't been up to much. I've done a bit of gaming, rendering the world of Farcry 5, and also did some grocery shopping, and … Continue reading Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…

Heroes

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, #heroes, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Can't Hurt Me, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, David Goggins Motivation, DBT Skills, Depression, Emergency medical services, ems, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Faith, Fiction, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, Hospital Admission, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Military Motivation, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., NavySEALs, Novel writing., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Scars, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, Self-harm, sheep dogs, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.comSome heroes wear capes. Others wear bunker gear and uniforms. I'm feeling the love today. My Facebook page has blown up with birthday well-wishes, and I am grateful. I know I haven't been in a great headspace lately. I know I've been struggling and feeling overwhelmed. The support means the world … Continue reading Heroes

Ticking clock

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Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com Today was a relatively low key day. Lynn was sick this morning, so she didn't end up coming to church. I had to go because I got roped in to running the sound board as the scheduled op was away. I'm glad I went though. Today's sermon was great. … Continue reading Ticking clock

Old habits…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Abandonment, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Habits, journalism, learning new skills, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., NaNoWrMo, Novel writing., Old habits die hard, PS4, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, small victories, Storms, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

New year, new me? Not so much. I've been finding myself falling into old habits I can't say I like it. I've been spending more and more time gaming. I've been neglecting things that need to get done. My sleep schedule has been thrown for a loop as well, because I've been allowing myself to … Continue reading Old habits…

Winter: Take two….

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, END THE STIGMA, Family, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, journalism, learning new skills, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., NaNoWrMo, NHL 18, Novel writing., ptsd, reporter, Self-care, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

  It appears that winter has come crawling back. Yesterday was cloudy, and while the wind held a bite, it was not unpleasant.  Today, the bite remains in the air, and it hasn't stopped snowing since I woke up this morning around nine. The weather has Lynn a bit depressed since she doesn't feel comfortable … Continue reading Winter: Take two….

Calm seas; an update on Lynn and I

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, END THE STIGMA, Gaming, journalism, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., NaNoWrMo, NHL 18, Novel writing., PS4, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, small victories, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

  It's been a quiet day around the house. Lynn continues to heal, and be frustrated by the fact that she can't get up and do much thanks to her injured ankle. The ice, Advil, and the brace seem to all be helping, and while she can't weight-bear yet, she is getting some movement back … Continue reading Calm seas; an update on Lynn and I