Category: Noise

Finding my path…

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Photo by James Wheeler on Pexels.com I can't believe that it has been nearly a month since I've written here last. I think I have finally found the path I am meant to be on. Work has been keeping me busy. I've been making inroads into the community of Stettler, and people are starting to … Continue reading Finding my path…

Over sharpening a blade…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Education, #Growth, #MediaWednesday, #Mental Health Monday, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, Can't Hurt Me, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, loss, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Michael Connelly, Military Motivation, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., NavySEALs, Noise, Perspective, Photography, Prose, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, sparks, Storms, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, University, Writing Therapy

Photo by Los Muertos Crew on Pexels.com My first week officially working full time is drawing to a close. Truth be told, there hasn't been much change from previous weeks aside from the security that it is full time, and in fact my workload has decreased a bit with no longer having as many regional … Continue reading Over sharpening a blade…

Changes afoot…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Education, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, Colour spectrum, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, grief, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, Photography, Prose, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, University, Writing Therapy

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com It's official, sports fans. My permanent part-time position is transitioning to a permanent full-time position effective next Monday, with my new position as the new multi-media journalist for Stettler and Castor. The only real changes between what I am doing now and the position is that the new position will … Continue reading Changes afoot…

Finding growth in challenge…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, #MediaWednesday, #Mental Health Monday, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, History, Hope, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Old habits die hard, ptsd, Pushing myself, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, Storms, Stress, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Olya Kobruseva on Pexels.com As usual, this last week has been steady, if not overly busy, at least compared to some weeks. Work has slowed down some, which has had me focusing my efforts on my next, and final, twentieth century history assignment for the current course I am working on. The assignment … Continue reading Finding growth in challenge…

Tired, but not overwhelmed…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Novel writing., Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, Social Media, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Despite this week being significantly quieter than last, I am feeling trashed. I've had my workout regime derailed, due to bad cramps occurring in my right calf muscle, which is not helping things any. I had a soak last night, which helped, but as it sits right now, I am still feeling. I think if … Continue reading Tired, but not overwhelmed…

Learning and growing…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, Fatigue, Fiction, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Learn from history!, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Men In Black International, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, People are easily offended, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Even with my two weeks in Saskatchewan in March, March was one of the busiest months I've had with the newspaper, writing 28 stories in total. April surpassed that number by one. The last couple of months have been one big push, one which I've tolerated none-the-worse for wear, even if I did struggle for … Continue reading Learning and growing…

A reminder that you aren’t alone…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, Emergency medical services, ems, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, loss, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Brett Sayles on Pexels.com When I can't find something, my brain freaks out. I search all over for the misplaced item. My focus goes out the window, and I struggle. I had just such an occurrence happen yesterday. I couldn't find the clip-on sunglasses for my glasses. I searched my work bag. I … Continue reading A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Road Trip…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Family, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

An eight hour drive is long enough when you have company. It's even longer when you're doing the trip solo. I spent yesterday on the road to the mother-in-law's house, where I am spending a week or two helping her out after her surgery tomorrow. I was debating on leaving yesterday or today, but considering … Continue reading Road Trip…

Just beginning…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, #Mental Health Monday, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, Emergency medical services, ems, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, History, Hope, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, Learn from history!, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, sparks, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

So, my plans to switch over to a communications degree have hit a bit of a snag. The program on offer is a Bachelor of Professional Arts in communication, however I don't meet the minimum requirements to enter the program. I need to be at minimum finished second-year of university before I can even apply. … Continue reading Just beginning…

The importance of therapy…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Hope, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I am really liking my new therapist with our local mental health unit. I've been seeing her since last summer, and so far things seem to be a good fit. I had an appointment with her today, and we discussed a few different things, mainly surrounding my confidence issues. Despite being still mentally and physically … Continue reading The importance of therapy…

Oops…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Book Review, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Faith, Fast cars, Fatigue, Fatigue is a hallucinogen, Fiction, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, journalism, keystone habits, Learn from history!, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, Politics, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Storms, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com For the second time since the new year rang in, I screwed up and forgot my night-time meds. The problem is, without the meds, I don't sleep. Unfortunately, by the time I realized what had happened, and why I wasn't sleeping, it was four in the morning, and if … Continue reading Oops…

The year that was 2020…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Changes, #Depression, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, bpd, branding, Can't Hurt Me, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, momments, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., NaNoWrMo, Noise, Old habits die hard, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, small victories, sparks, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Karolina Grabowska on Pexels.com As 2020 winds down, I find myself contemplating the year that was. Several adjectives can be used to describe 2020, and not many of them are suitable for this blog. The year has been long, tiring, and trying, thanks to the trials brought about by the Covid-19 pandemic that … Continue reading The year that was 2020…

Why I’m not panicking, yet…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fiction, Fuck Mental Illness, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

One thing that is really surprising about all the events going on in the world is that my anxiety is not climbing. There could be a few reasons why this situation isn't affecting me more: I already live with a heightened state of awareness due to my anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and this … Continue reading Why I’m not panicking, yet…

Busy with goals…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Can't Hurt Me, Colour spectrum, contemplation, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Faith, Family, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, grief, growth, Habits, Hope, Hospital Admission, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, Learn from history!, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, People are easily offended, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, sparks, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Our theatre performance has finished for another year. With my involvement in practises running since January and the eight recent performances, it's been a buys few weeks. It's been a nice diversion, but truth be told, I'm kind of glad that it's wrapped. It has been a big commitment of time and energy, and now … Continue reading Busy with goals…

Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Colour spectrum, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fiction, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Scars, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, sparks, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, the fast and the furious, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today has been interesting. I started this morning off conducting an interview with my town's two doctors, then headed down to the store and had lunch with Lynn. When I got home, I had a chat with my editor in regard to the interview this morning then headed onto the treadmill for a workout. The … Continue reading Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

Working on time management…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, #heroes, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, History, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., NavySEALs, Noise, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, Sports, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

With five shows down, we have passed the half way point of this year's theatre run. The show has been going good and I have been enjoying my role doing the AV for the production, but I think I'm looking forward to the show wrapping too. Things are getting busier, and it's just one more … Continue reading Working on time management…

Work and self-care…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, Relapse, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, sparks, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today is definitely off to a rough start. I do not feel like I slept at all well last night, and this morning I am dragging ass. Despite that though, I have already managed to get some work done, and set up a meeting for later on this morning. My goals for today are to … Continue reading Work and self-care…

Confidence Boost

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, Relapse, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, Self-harm, sheep dogs, sparks, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Well, after a few lumps and bumps the theatre group got through the dress rehearsal yesterday. Overall there performance went fairly well, though there were a couple of mis-cues with lighting. In the end, though, everything turned out pretty good, and I'm looking forward to the rest of the run. This morning I woke up … Continue reading Confidence Boost

Content Warning (mention of suicide): Getting Whiplash

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, growth, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, Relapse, reporter, Scars, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-harm, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has reached out to me since I published my last post. As you may have figured out, I'm struggling right now. My moods have been going so up and down over the last few days I'm beginning to get whiplash. At the urging of Lynn, … Continue reading Content Warning (mention of suicide): Getting Whiplash

I’m…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, grief, Habits, journalism, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, poetry, poetry, ptsd, Pushing myself, Relapse, reporter, Scars, Self-harm, sparks, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

My anxiety is peaked today, and I find myself battling with my thoughts and my emotions. I'm tired of the noise in my mind. I'm tired of constantly being on edge. I'm tired of the feeling that I am walking on eggshells around everybody. I'm tired of the suicidal thoughts invading my mind again, drowning … Continue reading I’m…

cutting back on the noise.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, Noise, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, sheep dogs, Social Media, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com In the world today, we are bombarded by noise. Social media. Music. News. We are bombarded by a non-stop torrent of information from the time we get up to the time we go to bed. Across the world, the first thing many people do during the day is check Facebook, … Continue reading cutting back on the noise.