Category: Noise

Oops…

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Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com For the second time since the new year rang in, I screwed up and forgot my night-time meds. The problem is, without the meds, I don't sleep. Unfortunately, by the time I realized what had happened, and why I wasn't sleeping, it was four in the morning, and if … Continue reading Oops…

The year that was 2020…

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Photo by Karolina Grabowska on Pexels.com As 2020 winds down, I find myself contemplating the year that was. Several adjectives can be used to describe 2020, and not many of them are suitable for this blog. The year has been long, tiring, and trying, thanks to the trials brought about by the Covid-19 pandemic that … Continue reading The year that was 2020…

Why I’m not panicking, yet…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fiction, Fuck Mental Illness, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Noise, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

One thing that is really surprising about all the events going on in the world is that my anxiety is not climbing. There could be a few reasons why this situation isn't affecting me more: I already live with a heightened state of awareness due to my anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and this … Continue reading Why I’m not panicking, yet…

Busy with goals…

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Our theatre performance has finished for another year. With my involvement in practises running since January and the eight recent performances, it's been a buys few weeks. It's been a nice diversion, but truth be told, I'm kind of glad that it's wrapped. It has been a big commitment of time and energy, and now … Continue reading Busy with goals…

Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

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Today has been interesting. I started this morning off conducting an interview with my town's two doctors, then headed down to the store and had lunch with Lynn. When I got home, I had a chat with my editor in regard to the interview this morning then headed onto the treadmill for a workout. The … Continue reading Pushing through the fatigue and keeping busy…

Working on time management…

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With five shows down, we have passed the half way point of this year's theatre run. The show has been going good and I have been enjoying my role doing the AV for the production, but I think I'm looking forward to the show wrapping too. Things are getting busier, and it's just one more … Continue reading Working on time management…

Work and self-care…

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Today is definitely off to a rough start. I do not feel like I slept at all well last night, and this morning I am dragging ass. Despite that though, I have already managed to get some work done, and set up a meeting for later on this morning. My goals for today are to … Continue reading Work and self-care…

Confidence Boost

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Well, after a few lumps and bumps the theatre group got through the dress rehearsal yesterday. Overall there performance went fairly well, though there were a couple of mis-cues with lighting. In the end, though, everything turned out pretty good, and I'm looking forward to the rest of the run. This morning I woke up … Continue reading Confidence Boost

Content Warning (mention of suicide): Getting Whiplash

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I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has reached out to me since I published my last post. As you may have figured out, I'm struggling right now. My moods have been going so up and down over the last few days I'm beginning to get whiplash. At the urging of Lynn, … Continue reading Content Warning (mention of suicide): Getting Whiplash

I’m…

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My anxiety is peaked today, and I find myself battling with my thoughts and my emotions. I'm tired of the noise in my mind. I'm tired of constantly being on edge. I'm tired of the feeling that I am walking on eggshells around everybody. I'm tired of the suicidal thoughts invading my mind again, drowning … Continue reading I’m…

cutting back on the noise.

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Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com In the world today, we are bombarded by noise. Social media. Music. News. We are bombarded by a non-stop torrent of information from the time we get up to the time we go to bed. Across the world, the first thing many people do during the day is check Facebook, … Continue reading cutting back on the noise.