Seeing in grey…

Recovery in mental illness is hard. It's not like a physical injury that can be seen. There is no casino splints, nothing visual that clues people in that something is wrong. Mental illness is all internal. Mental illness is painful. It affects relationships. It makes you question your own abilities and confidence. For significant mental … Continue reading Seeing in grey…

Productivity in Recovery…

Kevin J Sabo photo Today, I'm feeling optimistic. I received my marks back for my latest essay, and while I did not do as well as I was wanting, I did do better than I was expecting, scoring above 80 per cent, which I am not going to complain about. With this assignment done and … Continue reading Productivity in Recovery…

Rusting out versus burning out…

Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com During my session with M on Monday, we got talking about how much I've been taking on. In particular, he introduced me to the concept of burning out versus rusting out. In his opinion I am not in danger of the latter, but the former is definitely something I need … Continue reading Rusting out versus burning out…

A restful July 1…

Photo by Social Soup Social Media on Pexels.com Things have been quiet today. I spent some more time prepping myself for the market tomorrow, and spent some more time unwinding playing Spiderman on the Playstation 4. I think I've nearly completed the game, but it's definitely been a fun one to play. The developers, Insomniac … Continue reading A restful July 1…

Waking up functional…

Today wasn't as productive as I would have liked, but it was still productive none-the-less. I started the morning doing some telephone interviews for a story I'm working on, then it was off to the store for the day. The store was quiet, but I did manage to get some creative writing done. I attempted … Continue reading Waking up functional…

Productivity…

Today was a productive day. I started the day by doing a run up to Alliance to grab pet food for Taffy and Rolo. When I got home from that, I headed straight into the backyard and -nearly- finished the mowing the back yard. I would have had it all done, but we got rain … Continue reading Productivity…

I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

The last few days have been a blur. I've been keeping myself busy with a variety of tasks, such as writing and photoshop work. Despite not writing daily on my blog the way I have been, I have been spending quite a bit of time each day at the computer. Yesterday I got some work … Continue reading I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

Busy!

Where do the days go? I haven't written in a few days because I've gotten busy. I've been putting tons of time in to my studies, as well catching the odd story for work. School-wise, I'm still working on my next module through Athabasca University, which currently has me working on a research essay. I'm … Continue reading Busy!

Struggling with fatigue…

Today didn't go quite as planned. I ended up not sleeping that well last night. I don't know why, but over the last couple of weeks I have been having a harder time falling asleep than usual. I just haven't been feeling tired, despite the meds. Unfortunately that usually turns into me over sleeping in … Continue reading Struggling with fatigue…

Working on “downtime.”

It's been a few days since I've written. Things have been busy. Between work picking up, school, and my photography, I have not had much in the way of downtime, but I'm not complaining. With the weather getting nicer, I've been getting out to shoot more, and have been really happy with some of the … Continue reading Working on “downtime.”

Swimming along the wall…

Sometimes doing nothing is doing something. This weekend has been pretty lazy, but I'm not complaining. I've been feeling pretty drained over the last few days, and I'm not 100 per cent sure why. I know that between my writing, looking after the house, school, my photography, and everything else I've had going on, I've … Continue reading Swimming along the wall…

Maintaining…

This morning Lynn and I were up and out a bit earlier than normal, to pick up a new A-frame that we are going to repurpose for the store, because the one down there is too small and light for the task. After we got back from that, I logged into my free webinar I … Continue reading Maintaining…

Photography Friday, the Journey So Far…

It's time for another Photography Friday! Before I got into photography, the craft didn't really hold much appeal to me. My experience with cameras has always been with the point and shoot variety, and I never really thought that I had the eye for it. I -erroneously- thought that photographers did nothing but take pictures. … Continue reading Photography Friday, the Journey So Far…

Tired but accomplished…

Today was another office day, cleaning up more work from my interviews and photos I took yesterday. I managed to get four stories done and submitted which has me pretty close to being caught up for the time being. I have one more story that I can start work on, however until I get some … Continue reading Tired but accomplished…

Reflex… DBT Skill

Today is one of those days that I'm feeling like I accomplished nothing, despite plenty of evidence to the contrary. I was up around 9:30, and played some Red Dead Redemption 2 for a bit while Lynn slept. After she got up, I caught up on some dishes, vacuumed, and cleaned up the back yard … Continue reading Reflex… DBT Skill

Feeling Stable

I am getting tired of sleeping through my alarm clock... I had my alarm set for 7:30 because I had a nine a.m. meeting. I figured it gives me an hour to get up, have coffee, and make myself human. Nope. Woke up at 8:30, and barely made it out the door in time. On … Continue reading Feeling Stable

Getting through this pandemic…

Despite my anxiety being peaked with everything going on in the world, I think I'm doing okay. I've managed to get myself back into a regular workout routine, even re-introducing the weight component with yesterday's workout. So far, I've been on the treadmill everyday this week for 30 to 40 minutes, and I'm already noticing … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic…

Weathering the storm…

Tonight, I find myself in a contemplative mood. I found out today that the paper is struggling today, due to ad revenue fleeing because of the pandemic. According to the letter from the publisher, if things don't change, the paper may not survive through to the other side of this. It has me considering my … Continue reading Weathering the storm…

Skills work amid Covid-19

A pretty light day today. I caught up on some housework, played some Playstation, and disappeared into the backcountry with a friend to take some photos. I didn't end up taking many this afternoon, but I did get a few good ones. My friend B and I were doing some exploring at an old graveyard … Continue reading Skills work amid Covid-19

Why I’m not panicking, yet…

One thing that is really surprising about all the events going on in the world is that my anxiety is not climbing. There could be a few reasons why this situation isn't affecting me more: I already live with a heightened state of awareness due to my anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and this … Continue reading Why I’m not panicking, yet…

Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…

Today has been another quiet day. I let myself sleep in again, trying to kick the remainder of this bug I've been fighting, and aside from heading out to grab groceries haven't been up to much. I've done a bit of gaming, rendering the world of Farcry 5, and also did some grocery shopping, and … Continue reading Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…

Not 100 per cent.. :(

My weekend has ended up differently than I was anticipating. I had a couple events to cover yesterday and was planning on going to church today, however those didn't happen. I ended up waking up with a headache yesterday morning, which progressed to a fever and chills as the day went on. I did escape … Continue reading Not 100 per cent.. 😦

Good and bad…

The ride-along I was supposed to be doing with our local ambulance crew didn't end up happening. Because of the COVID-19 cases in the province our provincial health authority ended up suspending the entire ride-along program. I'm taking it as both a good and bad thing. It's good because I was worrying about how I … Continue reading Good and bad…

A battle in the war…

I am currently sitting at one of the longest writing streaks that I've had, having done a blog daily for the last 28 days. With my fitness regime, I'm sitting at 4 days straight, which is the longest streak I've had in quite awhile, though I am still keeping at my low intensity workouts for … Continue reading A battle in the war…

Living up to your dash…

Photo by Miguel Á. Padriñán on Pexels.com I was recently watching a motivational video on Youtube, and came across a concept that has kind of stuck with me. The short version is, when we die, as we all inevitably will, what is on our tombstone? Usually your date of birth, a dash, and your date … Continue reading Living up to your dash…