Category: Impulse control

Scars

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, grief, Hope, Impulse control, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., ptsd, Scars, Self-care, Self-harm, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Scar:a mark left on the skin or within body tissue where a wound, burn, or sore has not healed completely and fibrous connective tissue has developed. (Google dictionary) I have scars covering a good portion of my arms and legs. Like a road map, they criss-cross my skin, each one a testament to battles fought … Continue reading Scars

A piece of my recovery

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, END THE STIGMA, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, Hope, Impulse control, learning new skills, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Perspective, ptsd, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

As I sit back in my chair soaking in the sun as it crosses the morning horizon I contemplate the journey of life I have been on. Since I left EMS in 2013 my life has been a roller coaster of highs and lows. It's seen too many hospital stays during my worst, and even … Continue reading A piece of my recovery

Borrowed time

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, ems, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, Habits, Hope, Impulse control, journalism, learning new skills, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Photography, PS4, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I think we are slowly slipping out of winter's grasp. I hope so anyways. I was reading somewhere that Alberta has not faced a cold this severe since the 1930s. I'm tired, but it feels like slowly I am putting myself back together, after the last month. I'm settling into a new routine with work … Continue reading Borrowed time

Why do we have to say goodbye?

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, Dogs, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fuck Mental Illness, Furry Family, Goals, grief, Hope, Impulse control, journalism, Legacy, loss, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, momments, my story isn't over yet., ptsd, reporter, Self-care, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Brenda's dogs, Taffy, Skor, and Rolo. Taffy and Rolo are coming home to join our furry family, and Skor has found a home as well. Yesterday was as upbeat a day as one can have while attending a funeral service. The funeral service was very beautifully done, and the message of the priest was very … Continue reading Why do we have to say goodbye?

Ok, I’m a little cracked…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Colour spectrum, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Impulse control, journalism, learning new skills, loss, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., ptsd, reporter, Self-care, Self-harm, small victories, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, work-loss, Writing Therapy

Today has been tiring, but I think I am breaking out of the slide of the last few days. Church this morning went well, and people are loving the work that has gone into the church's AV systems. I was acting as emcee as well as helping in the sound booth so that made life … Continue reading Ok, I’m a little cracked…

Moving Targets

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Abandonment, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, grief, Impulse control, journalism, loss, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., PS4, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, Storms, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, work-loss, Writing Therapy

Borderline Personality Disorder is a major psychiatric illness that can be found in the DSM-5 and is described as: a pattern of instability in personal relationships, intense emotions, poor self-image and impulsivity. A person with borderline personality disorder may go to great lengths to avoid being abandoned, have repeated suicide attempts, display inappropriate intense anger or … Continue reading Moving Targets

Mourning the past, welcoming the future.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, END THE STIGMA, Family, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, History, Impulse control, journalism, just for fun, learning new skills, loss, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., ptsd, reporter, Self-care, small victories, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, work-loss, Writing Therapy

Today has not been a great day.  Both physically and mentally I've been floundering. The bit of the air goes right through my jacket causing my shoulder to stiffen up as soon as I head outside. By the time I shoveled the front walk enough for Lynn to get too and from the house my … Continue reading Mourning the past, welcoming the future.