Dissecting intrusive thoughts

Another busy day. The last few days have been hectic. They've been a good hectic, but hectic none the less. The type of hectic where if I don't pump the brakes I am going to be headed for a world of hurt. Pumping the brakes is exactly what I am going to do. This evening … Continue reading Dissecting intrusive thoughts

Today was a long fricking day. Up and out the door by 8 a.m. to head to Calgary to meet with a W.C.B. doctor. Today's appointment was an independent consultation to see how I have progressed in my recovery and if there is any permanent remnants of the P.T.S.D. lingering. The interview he did with … Continue reading

Exploring the world around me.

Today a friend and I met for lunch, then took off to explore this county around us. We covered a lot of ground, visiting four cemeteries that date back to the early 1900s, checked out a couple of old vehicles that have been left to decay on a long abandoned homestead, and checked out some … Continue reading Exploring the world around me.

Finding company in the shadows.

Yesterday was long and exhausting. I attended a suicide, trauma and mindfulness in first responders workshop in Red Deer yesterday. It made for an early morning, as the all day event started at 0800, and concluded around 1630. It was definitely a worthwhile day. The speaker is someone who has lived with the trauma of … Continue reading Finding company in the shadows.

Trying to find an emotional balance.

I am feeling broken. The weight of the last couple weeks seems to have landed on me today, leaving me tired, overwhelmed, and rung out. I know it's part of grief, that I will have good days and bad days. What makes the waters even murkier is the emotional volatility that I already deal with. … Continue reading Trying to find an emotional balance.

We have the education on mental health/illness. Now show me the money so it can be eradicated.

Today is Bell's Let's Talk day campaign, where they donate a bunch of money to mental health initiatives. The funding helps but is no where close to enough. On average our province spends around 7 per cent of it's health care dollars on mental health. The national average is 7.2 per cent. As a patient … Continue reading We have the education on mental health/illness. Now show me the money so it can be eradicated.

Mourning the past, welcoming the future.

Today has not been a great day.  Both physically and mentally I've been floundering. The bit of the air goes right through my jacket causing my shoulder to stiffen up as soon as I head outside. By the time I shoveled the front walk enough for Lynn to get too and from the house my … Continue reading Mourning the past, welcoming the future.