Category: Fatigue is a hallucinogen

Whirlwind…

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The last couple of weeks have been ... intense. Just about two weeks ago, we said goodbye to our precious Willow. We ultimately ended up having the vet come out on the Monday as we detected another problem with her and we just didn't want her suffering any more. I'm not going to lie; I … Continue reading Whirlwind…

Tweaking things…

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Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com It is unbelievably the middle of July already. This year has been flying by. Between work, school and cramming in some time for Lynn my schedule has been pretty busy. Still, despite the craziness I have been pushing myself to make some changes. I've been out wildlife shooting a bit … Continue reading Tweaking things…

Finding positive stress…

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Photo by Pedro Figueras on Pexels.com It's hard to describe, but this week has been equally frustratingly busy and agonizingly slow. This was was my first week doing layout for both papers, which was definitely some added challenge. Still, being so early in the new year, combined with cases of the Omicron variant of COVID-19 … Continue reading Finding positive stress…

Closing in on the end…

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Well, the end is in sight for another of my courses. I completed the seventh module -of eight- of my Communications 201 course yesterday morning. Which it complete, and still around six weeks left of my contract, I am in good shape to complete the course by the Dec. 31, 2021, deadline. With the module … Continue reading Closing in on the end…

Oops…

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Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com For the second time since the new year rang in, I screwed up and forgot my night-time meds. The problem is, without the meds, I don't sleep. Unfortunately, by the time I realized what had happened, and why I wasn't sleeping, it was four in the morning, and if … Continue reading Oops…

Figuring out how far I can push myself…

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Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Well, this has been a week. I've definitely been pushing myself hard this week. It seems like events and newsworthy activities have exploded in the region this week, and I've had a lot of articles to write as a result. As well, I spent some time attempting to make some … Continue reading Figuring out how far I can push myself…

At least I’m not bored…

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I'm impressed that I've been as functional today as I have been, seeing as I had to get up in the middle of the night cleaning up dog puke. That is not a pleasant wake up..... Aside from that, I was up and out the door to Stettler for a meeting this morning. I was … Continue reading At least I’m not bored…

Progress…

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Despite the moods being up and down, today has been ok. I ended up hitting the treadmill today, and ended up fast walking 3 miles while watching a podcast on Youtube. The three miles took me just over an hour to complete, and allowed me to physically work through some of my stress. The three … Continue reading Progress…

The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

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The animals are lucky they are cute, because I was ready to wring three of their necks last night. They were all being obnoxious turds as well, except for Taffy. She slept. Between Sirius barking his fool head off, Rolo attempting to push me off the bed, and Willow turning my CPAP machine off multiple … Continue reading The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

On bad days, I take the win where I can.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Family, Fatigue, Fatigue is a hallucinogen, Fuck Mental Illness

I slept last night. I still feel like hell today though. I'm just grumpy today. I have things I know I need to do, but no motivation to do them. It really doesn't help matters any that Lynn woke up with a migraine again, so I'm having to cover the store until she feels functional. … Continue reading On bad days, I take the win where I can.

Wallpapering fog…

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Well, today did not go as planned... I let my bedtime routine get messed up last night, and as a result I forgot my meds. As a result I did not sleep worth crap. I finally realised my error around 3 a.m. After some prompting from Lynn I took them then headed back to bed … Continue reading Wallpapering fog…

Sometimes stopping isn’t the answer…

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Little Theatre is done for the year, and I am grateful to have again taken part. Despite the adversity I've dealt with during the month of February, I am grateful for the experience and for the production that this group of talented individuals managed to bring together. The hours may have been long, but seeing … Continue reading Sometimes stopping isn’t the answer…

Fatigue

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Fatigue is hitting me like a wall today. I always feel it the hardest the second day after my sleep gets disrupted, which it definitely did when I went to get Lynn. I was happy to collect her off the train yesterday, I just wish the train wouldn't have been as late as it was. … Continue reading Fatigue

Divine intervention, and an update

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue is a hallucinogen, Fuck Mental Illness, Mental health, Mental Health recovery, ptsd, Storms, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, Writing Therapy

One of my biggest concerns this admission was who was replacing the doctor that left the facility in February, and would the person have the same level of understanding? I found out when I saw my attending today that it was....him. He is back covering for a week. To call this Devine intervention almost has … Continue reading Divine intervention, and an update

Crash

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Fatigue is a hallucinogen, Fuck Mental Illness, Mental health, Mental Health recovery, ptsd, Storms, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

To say I feel exhausted does not even begin to describe it. Over the last couple of weeks I have crashed. Hard. I haven't been sleeping much over the last few days. I think last night I would have been lucky to get four hours of broken sleep. My appetite has crashed and I have … Continue reading Crash

Life update: Long (redacted) Week

by thrutheashesblog, posted in borderline personality disorder, bpd, Emergency medical services, ems, Fatigue is a hallucinogen, Mental health, Mental Health recovery

Well, the last week has been busy. After my few weeks riding the wave of higher energy, my energy levels and moods have both been dropping. I've called my  Psychologist and Psychiatrist have appointments coming up with both in the coming weeks. To add to the stress of my moods dropping, I ended up getting … Continue reading Life update: Long (redacted) Week