the long goodbye…we will survive

How do you even begin to say goodbye? That is a question that has been running through my mind today, as we say a final goodbye to my sister-in-law Brenda. Today was the day of her burial, after her sudden loss in the beginning of February. With the burial complete, we are closing one chapter … Continue reading the long goodbye…we will survive

On bad days, I take the win where I can.

I slept last night. I still feel like hell today though. I'm just grumpy today. I have things I know I need to do, but no motivation to do them. It really doesn't help matters any that Lynn woke up with a migraine again, so I'm having to cover the store until she feels functional. … Continue reading On bad days, I take the win where I can.

Suicide vs suicidal; Thankful for friends who break the stigma of suicide and mental illness.

With the weather warming up and the sun shining, it feels like we have finally entered spring proper. The weather in this area has been nasty over the past couple of weeks. Wind storms. Snow. Things have definitely been unsettled, but things seem to have turned a corner. Nothing is permanent. Not the weather, not … Continue reading Suicide vs suicidal; Thankful for friends who break the stigma of suicide and mental illness.

Happy Easter!

From my family to yours, I wish you a happy Easter. Aside from being a bit stiff and sore today for some reason, today has been a good day. We had our Easter Sunday service at church, and then continued the fellowship with a group of church friends at one of the local restaurants. This … Continue reading Happy Easter!

Finding company in the shadows.

Yesterday was long and exhausting. I attended a suicide, trauma and mindfulness in first responders workshop in Red Deer yesterday. It made for an early morning, as the all day event started at 0800, and concluded around 1630. It was definitely a worthwhile day. The speaker is someone who has lived with the trauma of … Continue reading Finding company in the shadows.

My safety plan works…

It feels great to be home and working at my own computer again. I made it home this afternoon at about 1600hrs, and was met at the door with three very happy dogs and one very indifferent cat. It was good to be home. A couple of friends from church were kind enough to come … Continue reading My safety plan works…

Admission update: Growth while going back to basics…

My appointment with the doctor yesterday was good, if not a bit strained. He told me some things I already know, such as I need to change the channel in my mind from dying to living when I get overly stressed. His recommendation for me is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. The problem is where to find … Continue reading Admission update: Growth while going back to basics…