Living up to your dash…

Photo by Miguel Á. Padriñán on Pexels.com I was recently watching a motivational video on Youtube, and came across a concept that has kind of stuck with me. The short version is, when we die, as we all inevitably will, what is on our tombstone? Usually your date of birth, a dash, and your date … Continue reading Living up to your dash…

Return to reality, and potential changes on the horizon…

The holiday season is behind us, and with that reality resumes. After a whirl-wind trip to Calgary where we spent New Year's Eve with friends, today is most definitely back to the grind. I'm glad I don't mind driving. First up, I have to recover the dogs from the kennel, where they had a min-vacation … Continue reading Return to reality, and potential changes on the horizon…

Touring the back country

Today was a quieter day. I covered a breakfast with Santa event in Halkirk first thing, then met up for lunch with some of our church folks. After lunch I loaded up the two big dogs, Sirius and Roll, and headed out into the back country to take some photos. It was a relaxing afternoon, … Continue reading Touring the back country

Productivity…

Today was a somewhat productive day. I started the day by letting myself sleep in a bit, then when I got mobile I started catching up on some office work that I had been neglecting for too long. Then I was out the door, doing another photoshoot with a previous client. After the photoshoot I … Continue reading Productivity…

CW: Rollercoaster…

Edit: today continued to decline and the suicidal thoughts hit me in a wave so hard I had to stop driving as I broke down completely. Definitely not a good day, but my doctor is fitting me in today. I have way too much going on to be this damn tired. While yesterday was an … Continue reading CW: Rollercoaster…

Forward motion

Today was steady, if not overly busy. I was a little mad at myself for sleeping in more than I wanted to, but if I needed the rest, who am I to argue with my body? When I finally dragged my butt out bed around 8 got up and headed into my office to continue … Continue reading Forward motion

Busy, busy.

Two pieces of good news for today! The first is Lynn finally made it to her mom's last night after her unexpected stay over in Unity, SK, and the second is I got home from the store last night and found the fence done! Brian and his guys have to come back when the wheels … Continue reading Busy, busy.

Sometimes you need dynamite…

Well, yesterday is the type of day I'd like to see repeated sometime never. I figured out that as good at communicating as I am with the written word, I suck when it comes to talking with Lynn. The resulting blowout was...unpleasant. As unpleasant as it was though, it got us talking, and actually listening. … Continue reading Sometimes you need dynamite…

Protected: Finding ways to reconnect

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Tired in the now.

The fatigue is sinking it's claws deeper and deeper into me. It's 9 p.m, as I write this and I am ready for bed. I just feel drained. As tired as I am feeling though, I'm not feeling the sense of hopelessness that typically accompanies such a soul sucking depletion of my core energy. I'm … Continue reading Tired in the now.

The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

The animals are lucky they are cute, because I was ready to wring three of their necks last night. They were all being obnoxious turds as well, except for Taffy. She slept. Between Sirius barking his fool head off, Rolo attempting to push me off the bed, and Willow turning my CPAP machine off multiple … Continue reading The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

Another piece towards “normal.”

I'm trying to figure out how today was so busy yet restful. I drove into Stettler today, and got an oil change, prescriptions, and a few things from Walmart, then stopped and picked up the dogs from the kennel on my way home. All three of the critters were happy to be making their way … Continue reading Another piece towards “normal.”

Back in the saddle

Today was busy! Up and out the door early, conference most of the day, then my first workout in a few days. Damn that felt good. This evening I joined B for supper on his birthday. Still trying to figure out how he ended up cooking on his birthday, but I appreciate the gesture! After … Continue reading Back in the saddle

Home again.

After eight and a half hours behind the wheel I am home. I'm home, but totally drained. The emotionally charged weekend for Brenda's burial and the drive out there and back saw to that. The bright side is I did get to spend some time with my parents. That is something that happens infrequently enough, … Continue reading Home again.

“new normal”

It has been an emotionally trying few days. Brenda's dogs Taffy, Skor, and Rolo. Taffy and Rolo joined our pack back in February, and Skor was rehomed. We said our final goodbye to Brenda yesterday. Today was a lighter day, but not without it's own emotional drain. We met up with some of Lynn's family … Continue reading “new normal”

the long goodbye…we will survive

How do you even begin to say goodbye? That is a question that has been running through my mind today, as we say a final goodbye to my sister-in-law Brenda. Today was the day of her burial, after her sudden loss in the beginning of February. With the burial complete, we are closing one chapter … Continue reading the long goodbye…we will survive

Wallpapering fog…

Well, today did not go as planned... I let my bedtime routine get messed up last night, and as a result I forgot my meds. As a result I did not sleep worth crap. I finally realised my error around 3 a.m. After some prompting from Lynn I took them then headed back to bed … Continue reading Wallpapering fog…

Quiet time.

Fairly quiet day at home today. I'm more or less caught up on my work projects, for a switch. I was able to get a hunk of work done yesterday while I was covering the store for Lynn. I'm covering the store tomorrow as well, then taking part/covering a health and wellness Symposium in town … Continue reading Quiet time.

The sheepdog

I'm enjoying a bit of a change of pace. This week has been slower than my last couple of weeks, although my Thursday and Friday are looking busy this week. It's a good thing though. I need to keep myself somewhat active. I need to keep my mind somewhat active. I just have to pace … Continue reading The sheepdog

A sea of doggie…

On this beautiful Sunday morning, I am ready to wring one of the dogs necks.... I get up, get dressed, and go to take the boys outside for their morning pee. I get to the landing and see some dog poop on the floor in the basement. So, I go down stairs to clean it … Continue reading A sea of doggie…

Admission update: Growth while going back to basics…

My appointment with the doctor yesterday was good, if not a bit strained. He told me some things I already know, such as I need to change the channel in my mind from dying to living when I get overly stressed. His recommendation for me is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. The problem is where to find … Continue reading Admission update: Growth while going back to basics…

Rebound

After a busy evening last night, today is shaping up to be much more low key. Last night I ended up taking photos of a local service group making donations to several local charities and non-profits, then followed up by taking photos over at the towns curling rink of a bonspiel that is going on … Continue reading Rebound

Sometimes stopping isn’t the answer…

Little Theatre is done for the year, and I am grateful to have again taken part. Despite the adversity I've dealt with during the month of February, I am grateful for the experience and for the production that this group of talented individuals managed to bring together. The hours may have been long, but seeing … Continue reading Sometimes stopping isn’t the answer…

The passing storm

Two days into March, and it's still warmer in my freezer than it is outside. Paintearth County, July 1, 2018. Kevin J Sabo photo The last month has definitely been long. With the severe weather, the sudden trip to Saskatchewan, little theatre, and the addition of the two extra dogs into our home, I can … Continue reading The passing storm

Growth in the last year.

I can't believe it's been nearly a week since I wrote last. Things have definitely been busy around here. Between running between events for the paper, theatre, and the dogs, I've been on the go pretty steady. A year ago, I would not be maintaining as well as I am. A year ago, the last … Continue reading Growth in the last year.