CW: Rollercoaster…

Edit: today continued to decline and the suicidal thoughts hit me in a wave so hard I had to stop driving as I broke down completely. Definitely not a good day, but my doctor is fitting me in today. I have way too much going on to be this damn tired. While yesterday was an … Continue reading CW: Rollercoaster…

Forward motion

Today was steady, if not overly busy. I was a little mad at myself for sleeping in more than I wanted to, but if I needed the rest, who am I to argue with my body? When I finally dragged my butt out bed around 8 got up and headed into my office to continue … Continue reading Forward motion

Busy, busy.

Two pieces of good news for today! The first is Lynn finally made it to her mom's last night after her unexpected stay over in Unity, SK, and the second is I got home from the store last night and found the fence done! Brian and his guys have to come back when the wheels … Continue reading Busy, busy.

Sometimes you need dynamite…

Well, yesterday is the type of day I'd like to see repeated sometime never. I figured out that as good at communicating as I am with the written word, I suck when it comes to talking with Lynn. The resulting blowout was...unpleasant. As unpleasant as it was though, it got us talking, and actually listening. … Continue reading Sometimes you need dynamite…

Protected: Finding ways to reconnect

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Tired in the now.

The fatigue is sinking it's claws deeper and deeper into me. It's 9 p.m, as I write this and I am ready for bed. I just feel drained. As tired as I am feeling though, I'm not feeling the sense of hopelessness that typically accompanies such a soul sucking depletion of my core energy. I'm … Continue reading Tired in the now.

The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

The animals are lucky they are cute, because I was ready to wring three of their necks last night. They were all being obnoxious turds as well, except for Taffy. She slept. Between Sirius barking his fool head off, Rolo attempting to push me off the bed, and Willow turning my CPAP machine off multiple … Continue reading The animals definitely know how to try my patience…