A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Photo by Brett Sayles on Pexels.com When I can't find something, my brain freaks out. I search all over for the misplaced item. My focus goes out the window, and I struggle. I had just such an occurrence happen yesterday. I couldn't find the clip-on sunglasses for my glasses. I searched my work bag. I … Continue reading A reminder that you aren’t alone…

Recognizing and adjusting…

Photo by Liza Summer on Pexels.com Mentally and emotionally, I feel hung over. The last couple of weeks have been challenging, but I feel like I am finally making good progress in my climb out of the valley of depression. Getting my sleep figured out has definitely been helping. The last couple of days especially, … Continue reading Recognizing and adjusting…

Struggling with sleep…

Photo by Christian Domingues on Pexels.com I think one of the biggest reasons being admitted to hospital helps as much as it does is because it helps reset my sleep patterns. Looking back at all the times I've struggled and ended up in hospital, one common thread is that my sleep patterns have been screwed … Continue reading Struggling with sleep…

Laying low…

Old man winter had one more swing in him. We woke this morning to a major spring storm. Though we didn't get a lot of accumulation of the white stuff, the drifts were next level. We had a three-foot snow drift directly outside our back door which I had to force through just to put … Continue reading Laying low…

Figuring out what to master…

This has been turning into quite the week. I was covering council meetings for the local paper both Monday night and Tuesday morning. The Monday night meeting was fairly light so only ended up getting one story out of it. The Tuesday morning meeting had more substance to it and I ended up generating three … Continue reading Figuring out what to master…

Road Trip…

An eight hour drive is long enough when you have company. It's even longer when you're doing the trip solo. I spent yesterday on the road to the mother-in-law's house, where I am spending a week or two helping her out after her surgery tomorrow. I was debating on leaving yesterday or today, but considering … Continue reading Road Trip…

Where I’m supposed to be…

When I was a child, I wanted to be a marine biologist. As I got into high school my aspirations shifted, moving towards the Coast Guard or ambulance, of which I was fortunate to be able to get to work on the the latter. During my young adult years, I was all about working as … Continue reading Where I’m supposed to be…

Stay Strong…

I have dealt with mental health issues for the better part of the last two decades. Over the years, doctors have given me multiple diagnoses, with the main two being Borderline Personality Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, though anxiety and depression are both factors as well. Medications have been a part of my treatment … Continue reading Stay Strong…

Perspective change…

No blog post yesterday as the day got away from me. Yesterday was definitely busier than other recent days. I had a council meeting to cover for the paper first thing yesterday morning. When that concluded I spent some time working on my meeting notes before breaking for lunch. After lunch, it was back to … Continue reading Perspective change…

Just beginning…

So, my plans to switch over to a communications degree have hit a bit of a snag. The program on offer is a Bachelor of Professional Arts in communication, however I don't meet the minimum requirements to enter the program. I need to be at minimum finished second-year of university before I can even apply. … Continue reading Just beginning…

The river of time…

The river of time is not something anyone can slow. I had that driven home this morning after my optometrist appointment. After twenty years of not needing glasses, the doctor is strongly recommending them for distance. While the prescription is low enough that I don't need them for driving, again, she is strongly encouraging them. … Continue reading The river of time…

The importance of therapy…

I am really liking my new therapist with our local mental health unit. I've been seeing her since last summer, and so far things seem to be a good fit. I had an appointment with her today, and we discussed a few different things, mainly surrounding my confidence issues. Despite being still mentally and physically … Continue reading The importance of therapy…

Enjoying the peace of morning…

How can you be upset with this face waking you up??? Thanks to a puggle who needed to go outside earlier than normal this morning, I was up earlier than my usual wakeup lately. I'm not even mad. I've been wanting to start getting up earlier again. Lately, I've just been so fatigued that I've … Continue reading Enjoying the peace of morning…

Unstable sense of self…

I wish I had more faith in myself. Surprising me incredibly, I got my exam results back yesterday for the twentieth century history final I wrote on Friday. First off, I was surprised that the exam was marked and back to me so fast. Secondly, I was surprised that I passed, and by a fairly … Continue reading Unstable sense of self…

Stress test

After an intense three week push, it's all over but the crying. I wrote the final exam for the first half of twentieth century history today. I say this after every exam, but I do not have a good feeling about this one. The exam was three long answer questions where you were expected to … Continue reading Stress test

No complaints

Well, the last few days have been busy. I've been heavy into study mode, with my final exam taking place a week from Friday. In addition to the studying, work has been keeping me busy as well. I covered the store for Lynn today so she could get some work finished up at the church, … Continue reading No complaints

Coming up for air…

Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Pexels.com Since it's been a few days since I've last written, I figured I should probably make an appearance. I haven't been active on here, or on social media in general, due to studying. I've been working my way through the last couple modules of my current course, before I … Continue reading Coming up for air…

In good stead…

I am feeling somewhat relieved tonight. I received an email from my school today, notifying me that my essay, which I agonized over for a month, was graded. The resulting mark was a much needed confidence boost. The mark for the assignment was 84 per cent, which was consistent with the 82 per cent for … Continue reading In good stead…

Whatever comes my way…

I'm slowly making progress in my 20th Century History course. After around a month of work put into it, I finally got my second assignment polished up and submitted. With that weight off, I can focus on the last four modules of this course, focusing on post World War 2 life and the start of … Continue reading Whatever comes my way…

Plans and goals…

I am happy to be coasting into the weekend after what turned into a fairly busy week. I have a few things to work on tomorrow, but I should be able to get some good downtime as well this weekend. My goal for tomorrow is to get the final tweaks done on my essay done, … Continue reading Plans and goals…

Crawl before I walk, walk before I run…

Photo by Snapwire on Pexels.com Well, after a much needed break, I am back at it again. Despite spending some of Sunday in the office working on my school stuff, I did manage to take it mainly easy, watching some television with Lynn. Monday was supposed to be an office day, working on school stuff, … Continue reading Crawl before I walk, walk before I run…

Needing a recharge…

Well, this stupid busy week is drawing to a close. Between work meetings and errands to run, this week has kept me hopping. I still have a couple of stories to finish writing, but thankfully the end is in sight. I just keep reminding myself that I have got this. And, I do. The fact … Continue reading Needing a recharge…

Calm…

I'm feeling calm, even centred, tonight. It's been a busy day. I had a meeting to cover this morning, followed by an appointment with M this afternoon. We had a good conversation, covering a lot of ground, talking about things I want to work on in 2021. He said that I seem calmer, more relaxed … Continue reading Calm…

Pulling back into my 3 ft. world…

I'd like to thank the new followers on this blog. I appreciate the support, and am encouraged by the slow growth I've been having. After some deliberations, I've decided to press pause on my YouTube channel, instead focusing on my blog here. While I still intend to start filming later on in the year, at … Continue reading Pulling back into my 3 ft. world…

Oops…

Photo by Aphiwat chuangchoem on Pexels.com For the second time since the new year rang in, I screwed up and forgot my night-time meds. The problem is, without the meds, I don't sleep. Unfortunately, by the time I realized what had happened, and why I wasn't sleeping, it was four in the morning, and if … Continue reading Oops…