Category: coffee….

Getting through this pandemic…

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Despite my anxiety being peaked with everything going on in the world, I think I'm doing okay. I've managed to get myself back into a regular workout routine, even re-introducing the weight component with yesterday's workout. So far, I've been on the treadmill everyday this week for 30 to 40 minutes, and I'm already noticing … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic…

Early Morning Peace…

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I always forget how much I enjoy the predawn quiet in the house. Lately I haven't even been setting an alarm, because it didn't seem to matter what I tried, I couldn't talk myself into getting out of bed, and as a result I've been sleeping in later and later. With my schedule being kind … Continue reading Early Morning Peace…

Road Trip

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I don't mind mornings, I just wish they would happen later in the day... This morning was an early one. Lynn, her mom, and I were up and out the door early so we could get Lynn to her appointment in Red Deer for 7:45 a.m. In order for us to be there at that … Continue reading Road Trip

Time and Consistency

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My recovery day may be extending into two. Woke up this morning feeling like hell. According to my CPAP machine and my Fitbit show that I slept well, but it sure doesn't feel like it. Here's hoping coffee helps. I have a slow weekend in front of me. I am bouncing out to the golf … Continue reading Time and Consistency

The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

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The animals are lucky they are cute, because I was ready to wring three of their necks last night. They were all being obnoxious turds as well, except for Taffy. She slept. Between Sirius barking his fool head off, Rolo attempting to push me off the bed, and Willow turning my CPAP machine off multiple … Continue reading The animals definitely know how to try my patience…

Wallpapering fog…

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Well, today did not go as planned... I let my bedtime routine get messed up last night, and as a result I forgot my meds. As a result I did not sleep worth crap. I finally realised my error around 3 a.m. After some prompting from Lynn I took them then headed back to bed … Continue reading Wallpapering fog…

Road trip…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Black and white thinking, borderline personality disorder, bpd, coffee...., Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Highlight reel, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Photography, ptsd, Road Trip!, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Well, today has "long day" written all over it. I had a hard time falling asleep last night, even with my usual meds, and today is a solo daytrip to Calgary to go see a WCB doc. The appointment is not really concerning to me, but the 6 hours round trip with not great sleep … Continue reading Road trip…