Category: bpd

Kicking ass in the short term

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Mentally, I'm struggling a bit. I'm not tumbling into a full-on depression, but I'm definitely feeling fatigued. My motivation has been next to non-existent, and I'm having a hard time engaging with activities, such as my fitness regime. That said, I've been steady with work, with some new opportunities on the horizon, and I've been … Continue reading Kicking ass in the short term

Being someone else's survival guide

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As anticipated, today was fairly busy. It got even busier with having to do some photography work in my office, but it is what it is. I did manage to get a bit of downtime in, playing a half-hour of Spider Man on the Playstation and watching an episode of SWAT that had Lynn and … Continue reading Being someone else's survival guide

Digging deep

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Today was the final real "down" day I'm going to have for at least a week. I slept in a bit, then went to work processing photos from yesterday's hockey, then I ran sound for this morning's church service. After church we did our usual lunch thing with church friends, then back home where I … Continue reading Digging deep

I find my lack of motivation disturbing….

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Habits, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Relapse, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Yesterday was a long, but good day. I worked the store for the morning, which was a chilly affair. The furnace in the space we rent is still not working properly, and with the -30 to -40 c weather we've been happening, the heat the furnace has been kicking out has not been enough. Thank … Continue reading I find my lack of motivation disturbing….

A little of this, a little of that…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, Storms, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Aside from going hypoglycaemic during a workout, today hasn't been a terrible day. I spent most of the day in the office split between studying and a session with M. I booked my final exam for the later part of February, so I am definitely getting into crunch time. I did get just over a … Continue reading A little of this, a little of that…

Tomorrow is a new day…lessons learned

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, journalism, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, sheep dogs, small victories, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

This morning, I hit the ground running, and didn't stop. I was up and out early to cover today's county meeting, then home to get them wrote up. B picked me up after lunch, and took me into an appointment in Stettler for an eye appointment. The appointment went well, though the doctor does want … Continue reading Tomorrow is a new day…lessons learned

Getting productive…

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Today was a somewhat productive day. I opened the store for Lynn since she had an appointment with the vampires first thing this morning, and while I was at the store I managed to get an interview done. After I headed home, I grabbed a quick lunch, then attempted to get some work done; however, … Continue reading Getting productive…