Category: bpd

the long goodbye…we will survive

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Depression, Dogs, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fuck Mental Illness, Furry Family, grief, Hope, Legacy, loss, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, ptsd, Scars, Self-care, sheep dogs, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

How do you even begin to say goodbye? That is a question that has been running through my mind today, as we say a final goodbye to my sister-in-law Brenda. Today was the day of her burial, after her sudden loss in the beginning of February. With the burial complete, we are closing one chapter … Continue reading the long goodbye…we will survive

On bad days, I take the win where I can.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Family, Fatigue, Fatigue is a hallucinogen, Fuck Mental Illness

I slept last night. I still feel like hell today though. I'm just grumpy today. I have things I know I need to do, but no motivation to do them. It really doesn't help matters any that Lynn woke up with a migraine again, so I'm having to cover the store until she feels functional. … Continue reading On bad days, I take the win where I can.

Wallpapering fog…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, coffee...., Depression, Dogs, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fatigue is a hallucinogen, Fuck Mental Illness, Hope, journalism, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Perspective, ptsd, reporter, Road Trip!, Self-care, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Well, today did not go as planned... I let my bedtime routine get messed up last night, and as a result I forgot my meds. As a result I did not sleep worth crap. I finally realised my error around 3 a.m. After some prompting from Lynn I took them then headed back to bed … Continue reading Wallpapering fog…

Getting back on track.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Habits, Hope, journalism, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., ptsd, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Self-care, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Somewhat quiet day today. Church this morning, then instead of going out for lunch Lynn and I grabbed some sandwich materials and had a quiet lunch at home. This afternoon Lynn napped and I played RDR2 and actually got myself downstairs for a workout. Between being fatigued and busy I have not managed to find … Continue reading Getting back on track.

Suicide vs suicidal; Thankful for friends who break the stigma of suicide and mental illness.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Family, Fuck Mental Illness, Hope, journalism, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, ptsd, reporter, Self-care, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

With the weather warming up and the sun shining, it feels like we have finally entered spring proper. The weather in this area has been nasty over the past couple of weeks. Wind storms. Snow. Things have definitely been unsettled, but things seem to have turned a corner. Nothing is permanent. Not the weather, not … Continue reading Suicide vs suicidal; Thankful for friends who break the stigma of suicide and mental illness.

Quiet time.

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Contentment, Depression, Dogs, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Habits, Hope, journalism, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, Photography, ptsd, Red Dead Redemption 2, reporter, Self-care, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Fairly quiet day at home today. I'm more or less caught up on my work projects, for a switch. I was able to get a hunk of work done yesterday while I was covering the store for Lynn. I'm covering the store tomorrow as well, then taking part/covering a health and wellness Symposium in town … Continue reading Quiet time.

The sheepdog

by thrutheashesblog, posted in ;, Acceptance, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, DBT Skills, Depression, Dogs, Emergency medical services, ems, END THE STIGMA, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Furry Family, Goals, Hope, journalism, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Illness Awareness, my story isn't over yet., ptsd, reporter, Self-care, sheep dogs, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I'm enjoying a bit of a change of pace. This week has been slower than my last couple of weeks, although my Thursday and Friday are looking busy this week. It's a good thing though. I need to keep myself somewhat active. I need to keep my mind somewhat active. I just have to pace … Continue reading The sheepdog