Making the transition from living in crisis to just living…

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It’s been a minute since I’ve written.

I actually can’t believe my last post was the review I did for F9, back on July 18.

The last couple of weeks have been a whirlwind. Between the editor going on holidays for a week, and general gaps in staffing, my writing for the paper has picked up in July, despite my best efforts to keep the numbers lower.

Further contributing to the hectic schedule is the fact that I am currently working on my two university level courses. I’m working on a prose course, studying short stories and novels. The other course I am working on is an introduction to communications course, which is focusing on Canadian communications, and is definitely more technical than I was anticipating. It’s all good though.

Something else that has been keeping me busy is my workout routine. I am full swing into a fitness regime again, and I am feeling better for it, though the tweak the kinesiologist made to my routine is making me question my life choices.

Initially, I was doing a routine of 60-minutes on the treadmill one day, and 30 minutes of cardio followed by 30 minuets of weights on the other, taking a day off every other week. At the last appointment with the kinesiologist, in an effort to give my metabolism a boost, she adjusted my weight training days so that I am doing a 20-minute workout on the treadmill, followed by weights… except I’m doing another two minutes at the highest intensity I can maintain in-between each different exercise.

I’ve done one workout with the new routine so fa, and it is punishing, to say the least. By the time I finished, I definitely felt like I had had a workout. Tonight will be my second time with this new regime, and I will be sticking with this program at least until the end of August.

Still, I can definitely feel a difference in my physical and mental health since I’ve restarted this routine. I’m still having a hard time making a difference where it comes to the scale though. despite the routine I have going I just cannot seem to shed weight. I spoke to my pharmacist about the issue, and he is attributing it to two medications I am on. Apparently each one is well known for their weight-gaining attributes, and being on both together is even less helpful.

I’m hoping that making some adjustments to diet, and continuing the routine, the weight will start to come down, but even if it doesn’t, I know the routine is helping me in other ways.

Being honest, I never thought I would get to this point in my recovery. This last month has been one of the busiest month’s I have had since I worked on ambulance. Coming in to the end of the month, I am definitely tired. But, I have been doing well. Mentally, I’m stronger than I have been at any point in the last five or six years. Yes, I still have my mental health struggles, and not every day is perfect, but I have definitely successfully transitioned from living in full-time in crisis mode to living within my limits. I am okay with that.


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