Slowly, but surely, my moods are starting normalize.
Aside from having a hard time getting my butt out of bed this morning, today has been productive.
I spent some time playing Sub Nautica, a really neat survival game that Sony has made free to play, and then this afternoon I succeeded in getting five articles written for the paper, thoroughly sadly, due to content echoing an article he did the day before, it doesn’t seem that one of them will be published. Oh well, he so rarely doesn’t publish my work, one or another here or there is understandable.
Yesterday, I had an appointment with M, my first one since January. The timing of it couldn’t have been better, considering how I’ve been feeling over the last ten days or so.
As for as my moods today, I’m feeling good. As mentioned, I had a hard time getting up this morning, but once I got up and functional, I was feeling good. I was feeling energized. I was able to get a lot of work done. Getting my sleep figured out again has been instrumental in helping me get things back under control, and today it definitely showed.
While I’m not happy that I’m still struggling to get up and motivated in the morning, I am cutting myself some slack. I’m getting my work done, I’m getting some studying done every day, and I’m getting out for a walk with Taffy and Rolo nearly everyday. In short, despite struggling over the last few days, I’ve still been maintaining a consistency which is oh so important in my mental health.
Honestly, as long as I can maintain that consistency, and keep getting my sleep under control, I am ahead of the curve. To be fair, though, chatting with M yesterday definitely helped too. I felt lighter after we finished the session.
I am not back to 100 per cent again, yet. I am well on my way there though. Getting through the last ten or so days, and starting to come up again, with minimal health care support, tells me truly how far I have come.
What’s changed though?
Simply put, I have tools in my arsenal that I am actually putting to use. Support from Lynn, and her helping me put these tools to use, is equally important. Just like my health care professionals, she takes me at face value, and has gotten better at helping me navigate when the waters get rough. Honestly, it was her comment that my sleep routine was absolutely a mess that helped me navigate getting my sleep back into check.
I follow up with my family doctor on Monday, but at this point I don’t think I’m going to have to reach out to Dr. M, which is something I am proud of.