So, my plans to switch over to a communications degree have hit a bit of a snag.
The program on offer is a Bachelor of Professional Arts in communication, however I don’t meet the minimum requirements to enter the program. I need to be at minimum finished second-year of university before I can even apply.
It’s a bummer; however, I’m looking at it as more of a detour than I am a road block. As long as I keep writing for my local paper, which I intend to do for as long as they’ll have me, and keep working towards my English degree, once I get in the neighbourhood of 30-60 total credits I can apply for the program, which I think is the course I want to chart.
Once I complete this history course, which opened today, I will have 12 credits. It’s a far cry from the 130+ I need to earn my degree. The thing is, I’m not in a huge rush. I’m enjoying the process of learning. Just because I can’t shift, yet, it doesn’t mean I won’t be able to down the road. The academic advisor I spoke with told me that they are always making changes to the program, and its admission requirements. The recommendation from the advisor was to continue working on my English degree, then when the opportunity presents itself, and I have sufficient credits and experience, to apply.
It’s a detour, not a road block.
The only thing that it is going to have an affect on is the courses I take in the immediate future. Further down the road, my goals haven’t changed. I want to write. I love the writing I’m doing for my local paper, and I plan to keep continuing that work. I want to grow my writing skills, and the English program will allow me to do that for the time being. Taking the English related courses,, in addition to the history, will help make me a more rounded student, which can only succeed in helping me down the road.
As much as I was getting down on myself about getting older the other day, I am still fairly young. It’s not too late to start anything new. Hell, Stephen King and Mark Twain were both in their fifties when they started writing in earnest, and both are best-selling authors. Being in my forties, I still have time to start down this path.
As much as I miss EMS, I am grateful for this opportunity to change direction in my life. I’m enjoying the process as much as I am the end result. While I still struggle with my mental health from time to time, I have an incredible support team around me, which has helped me get through. I still struggle with my self-confidence and self-worth. I still struggle with thoughts of self-harm and suicidal ideation. The thing is, all of those thoughts have greatly decreased.
I’m learning how to read myself. I’m taking it easier on myself. I’m finding a good balance between work and play. Honestly, after the last two decades of my life, I’m feeling driven to not waste one more day. I’ll look after myself when I have to, and I’ll push myself as well, because it is in pushing myself that I will find growth.
Five years ago, I thought my life ended at forty. Now, with the progress I’ve made, I’m finding out that it’s just beginning.