Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

In what was an incredibly quick turnaround, I received my marks back from the final exam I wrote last week, and I am not unhappy with the results.

I ended up scoring 87 per cent on the exam, which gave me an 85 overall average for the composition course. On the down side, it was five per cent lower than my overall mark on the first course I took, but it was still a solid effort none-the-less.

With the marks in, that course is closed, and I am moving onto my twentieth century history course, which I started on in earnest today.

The last few days have been busy. Friday I filmed the pastor for his weekly devotional series, then did the editing on it. Saturday I was in Stettler for the day taking pictures at a high school rodeo association event, followed by another in Halkirk that night. Sunday was church, then photo-processing and writing.

Today has been a little more quietly paced. I spent the morning doing some tidying in the house, then worked on some readings for my history course. This afternoon I had an appointment with M and then spent some time updating my photography website, which can be found at http://www.kevinjsabophotography.com. My latest photos are under the 2020 highlights tab.

Over the last few days, I’ve crossed a milestone that has me contemplative. It’s been over a year since my last admission to hospital. I honestly didn’t know that I would get back to this point in my life. Yet, I’m succeeding, despite my mind trying to derail me.

That said, I do feel like I’m struggling today. I’m just tired and grumpy, for no reason that I can put my finger on. Still, I’ve been able to keep myself busy and motivated so that is something I guess. As much as I would rather they didn’t, bad days will happen, and it’s how I handle them that is the important thing.

My appointment with m was good today. He is supportive, though hesitant when I said that my other therapist through the other mental health unit asked me to back off of seeing him, just so I’m not duplicating services. He is concerned because of the track record that the local mental health unit has, and I can’t say I disagree with him, still I’m willing to give the new therapist a chance, and m did say that if I need to talk sooner, I’m welcome to call, so that is something. I’m definitely appreciative of the support.

Anyhow, we’ll see how the new therapist works out.

Despite the fact that I feel like I’m struggling a bit, I remain optimistic that I can keep on this path. I feel like I’m maturing and that even with struggling that I don’t need to revert back to the unhealthy coping mechanisms of the past. M agrees with me, which is part of the reason he agreed to letting me back off appointments with him. My next appointment with him is going to be mid October, though I do talk to the new girl in three weeks, which should be fine. And if not, I know what to do.

For the first time in I don’t how long, I’m looking forward to working things out without defaulting to a hospital trip. That definitely shows the progress I’ve made.

Kevin

One thought on “Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

  1. Sounds like you’re on the right track,keep up the good work but remember to take care of you!👍👏👏🥰

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