I’ve always been the impatient type. I’ve always wanted things now, instead of putting in the work and appreciating them when they’ve come in due time.
Working on my impatience and my impulsiveness are two parts of my life that I have really worked on over the last couple years. I’m less impatient, and in some ways more appreciative of the process of obtaining something.
Currently, my schooling is one such example of this. Instead of rushing like hell at an unsustainable pace, I am taking it slowly, once course at a time, enjoying the process, and letting the results occur in their own good time.
Yes, I’m taking a couple of other short term courses to do with my photography, but the writing is something that is continuing, no matter what I am doing. I’m enjoying the process, instead of rushing things.
Over the last couple of years, my focus has shifted. I was conscious of only the here and now. I was only aware of the turbulent emotions I felt, and I self-harmed to relieve those feelings.
Now, I’ve finally put the pieces together, so I can get through the short term when I struggle, and have a focus on the long game, knowing that the work now has the possibility of paying big dividends down the road.
I never thought I would reach this point in my life. My life has been a battle for a lot of years, mentally speaking. Yet, I am now thriving, at least compared to where I was.
I still have limitations though. I know that full-time, nine-to-five type of employment is not healthy for me. I know that working nights could potentially be deadly for my health. Knowing these things make me feel blessed to have the work I do have.
I don’t work nine-to-five, and I don’t work full-time. My schedule is flexible, which allows me to get my rest, take the frequent breaks that I need, and avoid the over nights. Between my job at the paper and my photography, I’m as busy as I can handle, which definitely changes depending on the day.
I’m fortunate I have made it to the point I am at. Getting here is the result of the long game. Grinding day after day, for months and years, working on my mental health, has paid off in spades, and further emphasizes the point.
I couldn’t do it alone. I couldn’t do it without my family, friends, or other supports, so thank you to everyone who has followed along.