Month: May 2020

I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

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The last few days have been a blur. I've been keeping myself busy with a variety of tasks, such as writing and photoshop work. Despite not writing daily on my blog the way I have been, I have been spending quite a bit of time each day at the computer. Yesterday I got some work … Continue reading I need to keep doing what I’m doing.

Positive indicators

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Today has been a day. I slept in a bit, before getting up and heading into the office. I did a Facebook live announcing the winner of a draw that I was running on my photography business's Facebook page. The winner ended up being a lady from Edmonton that Lynn knows. I ended up coordinating … Continue reading Positive indicators

Busy!

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Where do the days go? I haven't written in a few days because I've gotten busy. I've been putting tons of time in to my studies, as well catching the odd story for work. School-wise, I'm still working on my next module through Athabasca University, which currently has me working on a research essay. I'm … Continue reading Busy!

Playing the long game with my mental health…

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I've always been the impatient type. I've always wanted things now, instead of putting in the work and appreciating them when they've come in due time. Working on my impatience and my impulsiveness are two parts of my life that I have really worked on over the last couple years. I'm less impatient, and in … Continue reading Playing the long game with my mental health…

Struggling with fatigue…

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Today didn't go quite as planned. I ended up not sleeping that well last night. I don't know why, but over the last couple of weeks I have been having a harder time falling asleep than usual. I just haven't been feeling tired, despite the meds. Unfortunately that usually turns into me over sleeping in … Continue reading Struggling with fatigue…

Photography road trip…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Accountability, borderline personality disorder, Creativity, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, History, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, my story isn't over yet., Photography, ptsd, reporter, Road Trip!, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Today was busier than it felt, despite sleeping in. I made pancakes for lunch for Lynn and I, then ended up cleaning my camera and lenses, because it had been awhile since it's been done, and with the pets, their fur gets everywhere. With that task completed, Lynn, Rolo, and I -Sorry Taffy!!-loaded into the … Continue reading Photography road trip…

Working on “downtime.”

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It's been a few days since I've written. Things have been busy. Between work picking up, school, and my photography, I have not had much in the way of downtime, but I'm not complaining. With the weather getting nicer, I've been getting out to shoot more, and have been really happy with some of the … Continue reading Working on “downtime.”

Media Wednesday: Author Review; Richard Castle

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Nathan Fillion plays Richard Castle in the ABC Television series 'Castle". I'm a fan of crime fiction. Michael Connelly and Jeffery Deaver especially. However, I'm currently reading an actual book written by a fictional character... Yes, I know that the last statement doesn't make any sense but let me explain. The fictional character who wrote … Continue reading Media Wednesday: Author Review; Richard Castle

Progress with reasonable goals…

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Today has been fairly quiet on the home front. I finished up an article for my editor that I started last night, and submitted it, then started on the reading for my next unit in my university course that I am currently taking for my writing. I covered a lot today, though it was mainly … Continue reading Progress with reasonable goals…

Swimming along the wall…

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Sometimes doing nothing is doing something. This weekend has been pretty lazy, but I'm not complaining. I've been feeling pretty drained over the last few days, and I'm not 100 per cent sure why. I know that between my writing, looking after the house, school, my photography, and everything else I've had going on, I've … Continue reading Swimming along the wall…

Photography Friday: ACDSee

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #bloggingbranding, #Growth, #PhotographyFriday, borderline personality disorder, Creativity, journalism, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

For image cataloging, I love ACDsee. I was turned on to the software by Greg Johnson, the Tornado Hunter, in one of his two workshops I've taken. The software allows you to go through photos fairly quickly, much more quickly than using Mac's finder app. Using the software I am able to comb through hundreds … Continue reading Photography Friday: ACDSee

Maintaining…

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This morning Lynn and I were up and out a bit earlier than normal, to pick up a new A-frame that we are going to repurpose for the store, because the one down there is too small and light for the task. After we got back from that, I logged into my free webinar I … Continue reading Maintaining…

An evening drive…

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Today was a mix of work and play. This morning I did some interviewing and article writing, then after lunch I went out to take some photos. I only ended up going out for an under an hour as the light was harsh and I didn't end up coming upon any wildlife. After I got … Continue reading An evening drive…

Feeling a bit better.

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Today was a quieter day. On the plus side, I've been in a better mood, on the minus side, I didn't sleep well last night, and I've been dragging ass all day. Willow, the little bugger, didn't help matters any, crying for her breakfast for twenty minutes straight when I had not exited the bedroom … Continue reading Feeling a bit better.

Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

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I'm struggling today. I know I've been feeling the darkness creeping in over the last few days. My anxiety has been a lot higher, and my concentration and motivation have both been proving challenging. I definitely have not been as productive over the last couple days as I have been over the last little while. … Continue reading Not every day is going to be a good one…bad days happen too…

Photography Friday, the Journey So Far…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Growth, #PhotographyFriday, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, Creativity, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Photography, reporter, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

It's time for another Photography Friday! Before I got into photography, the craft didn't really hold much appeal to me. My experience with cameras has always been with the point and shoot variety, and I never really thought that I had the eye for it. I -erroneously- thought that photographers did nothing but take pictures. … Continue reading Photography Friday, the Journey So Far…