Month: March 2020

Getting through this pandemic…

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Despite my anxiety being peaked with everything going on in the world, I think I'm doing okay. I've managed to get myself back into a regular workout routine, even re-introducing the weight component with yesterday's workout. So far, I've been on the treadmill everyday this week for 30 to 40 minutes, and I'm already noticing … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic…

Weathering the storm…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Faith, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, learning new skills, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Tonight, I find myself in a contemplative mood. I found out today that the paper is struggling today, due to ad revenue fleeing because of the pandemic. According to the letter from the publisher, if things don't change, the paper may not survive through to the other side of this. It has me considering my … Continue reading Weathering the storm…

Skills work amid Covid-19

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A pretty light day today. I caught up on some housework, played some Playstation, and disappeared into the backcountry with a friend to take some photos. I didn't end up taking many this afternoon, but I did get a few good ones. My friend B and I were doing some exploring at an old graveyard … Continue reading Skills work amid Covid-19

Why I’m not panicking, yet…

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One thing that is really surprising about all the events going on in the world is that my anxiety is not climbing. There could be a few reasons why this situation isn't affecting me more: I already live with a heightened state of awareness due to my anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and this … Continue reading Why I’m not panicking, yet…

Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…

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Today has been another quiet day. I let myself sleep in again, trying to kick the remainder of this bug I've been fighting, and aside from heading out to grab groceries haven't been up to much. I've done a bit of gaming, rendering the world of Farcry 5, and also did some grocery shopping, and … Continue reading Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…

Not 100 per cent.. :(

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My weekend has ended up differently than I was anticipating. I had a couple events to cover yesterday and was planning on going to church today, however those didn't happen. I ended up waking up with a headache yesterday morning, which progressed to a fever and chills as the day went on. I did escape … Continue reading Not 100 per cent.. 😦

Good and bad…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, History, Hope, Hospital Admission, journalism, keystone habits, Learn from history!, learning new skills, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., NaNoWrMo, Old habits die hard, Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, Relapse, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, sparks, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

The ride-along I was supposed to be doing with our local ambulance crew didn't end up happening. Because of the COVID-19 cases in the province our provincial health authority ended up suspending the entire ride-along program. I'm taking it as both a good and bad thing. It's good because I was worrying about how I … Continue reading Good and bad…

A battle in the war…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fitness, Ford Mustang, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, History, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, Learn from history!, learning new skills, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I am currently sitting at one of the longest writing streaks that I've had, having done a blog daily for the last 28 days. With my fitness regime, I'm sitting at 4 days straight, which is the longest streak I've had in quite awhile, though I am still keeping at my low intensity workouts for … Continue reading A battle in the war…

Living up to your dash…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Can't Hurt Me, Colour spectrum, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, Dogs, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, Learn from history!, learning new skills, Legacy, loss, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, sparks, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Photo by Miguel Á. Padriñán on Pexels.com I was recently watching a motivational video on Youtube, and came across a concept that has kind of stuck with me. The short version is, when we die, as we all inevitably will, what is on our tombstone? Usually your date of birth, a dash, and your date … Continue reading Living up to your dash…

Early Morning Peace…

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I always forget how much I enjoy the predawn quiet in the house. Lately I haven't even been setting an alarm, because it didn't seem to matter what I tried, I couldn't talk myself into getting out of bed, and as a result I've been sleeping in later and later. With my schedule being kind … Continue reading Early Morning Peace…

Refocus

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, Bipolar, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Colour spectrum, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, Impulse control, journalism, keystone habits, Learn from history!, learning new skills, loss, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, Sports, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

Despite the best of intentions, everyone can lose sight of their goals sometimes. Throw in mental health struggles, and the very effort of survival can throw goals a little off course, or right out of sight. Thinking about the last few weeks, I can see that despite the forward progress I've continued to make, that … Continue reading Refocus

Busy with goals…

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Our theatre performance has finished for another year. With my involvement in practises running since January and the eight recent performances, it's been a buys few weeks. It's been a nice diversion, but truth be told, I'm kind of glad that it's wrapped. It has been a big commitment of time and energy, and now … Continue reading Busy with goals…

Looking forward to routine…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Abandonment, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Colour spectrum, contemplation, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, Discipline, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Fatigue, Fitness, Fuck Mental Illness, Gaming, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Hope, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, learning new skills, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, small victories, sparks, Sports, Storms, Stress, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I've been busy over the past week, and I'm feeling it. My energy has still been such that I am managing to make it through the day and get done what I need to, but I haven't had much energy for anything else. That's been the frustrating part. I continue to lose the war with … Continue reading Looking forward to routine…

Movie Review: “Bad Boys for Life” (No spoilers)

by thrutheashesblog, posted in Bad Boys for Life, Balancing Mental Illness, borderline personality disorder, bpd, Contentment, Creativity, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Entertainment, Fiction, Fuck Mental Illness, Habits, Highlight reel, journalism, just for fun, keystone habits, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, Movie, Movie Review, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, sheep dogs, sparks, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

"Bad Boys, Bad Boys, Whacha gonna do, whatcha gonna do when they come for you?" The "Bad Boys" are back, in a fairly solid movie. I'm don't mind movie sequels, however the further between a movie and it's successor, the less inclined I am to like it. It's especially bad when they come over a … Continue reading Movie Review: “Bad Boys for Life” (No spoilers)

Letting go…

by thrutheashesblog, posted in #Changes, #Growth, ;, Acceptance, Accountability, adaptability, Anxiety, Balancing Mental Illness, Belly of the beast, borderline personality disorder, bpd, contemplation, Contentment, DBT Skills, Depression, END THE STIGMA, Faith, Family, Fatigue, Fuck Mental Illness, Goal Setting, Goals, growth, Habits, Highlight reel, Hope, journalism, keystone habits, learning new skills, Legacy, Making time for what's important, Mental health, Mental Health awareness, Mental Health recovery, Mental Health Tools, Mental Illness Awareness, Motivation, my story isn't over yet., Perspective, Photography, Politics, ptsd, Pushing myself, reporter, Self-care, Self-confidence, Self-Discipline, small victories, Storms, Stress, Suicidal Mind, suicide survivor, TheOnlyEasyDayWasyesterday, Uncategorized, Writing Therapy

I'm feeling stressed out due to events totally beyond my control. Our elected provincial government is working on balancing the books and saving money, which I agree with, however the way they are going about it scares the hell out of me, particularly the changes they are making to health care. They have delisted procedures, … Continue reading Letting go…