I think that it goes without saying that 2020 has not been going as anticipated. Between the pandemic dragging the world to a screeching halt, the frequent fluctuation with work, and Sirius' diagnosis, 2020 has pretty much been a write-off so far. My anxiety is high. I'm worried about my job, I'm worried about my … Continue reading Working on what I can control…
Month: March 2020
Holding together…an update on me
With all this doom and gloom over Sirius' diagnosis, I really haven't done an update on me for a few days. I'd be lying if I said I was doing just fine. My anxiety has been crawling up over the last few weeks with the real-world events that have been happening, and finding out about … Continue reading Holding together…an update on me
Living for today…
Today has been better than yesterday, so far. Then again, considering the news that rocked our world yesterday, anything is an improvement. I'm feeling better today, now that the initial shock of finding out about my poor boy has worn off. The fact is, he is still happy and healthy, and doctors have been wrong … Continue reading Living for today…
Heartbroken
I am absolutely gutted tonight. This morning I received a phone call from the vet who removed the mass from Sirius' mouth just over a week ago, and it was not good news. The mass they removed was a very aggressive cancer. After speaking with her colleagues, the vet said that without treatment Sirius may … Continue reading Heartbroken
Getting through this pandemic…
Despite my anxiety being peaked with everything going on in the world, I think I'm doing okay. I've managed to get myself back into a regular workout routine, even re-introducing the weight component with yesterday's workout. So far, I've been on the treadmill everyday this week for 30 to 40 minutes, and I'm already noticing … Continue reading Getting through this pandemic…
Weathering the storm…
Tonight, I find myself in a contemplative mood. I found out today that the paper is struggling today, due to ad revenue fleeing because of the pandemic. According to the letter from the publisher, if things don't change, the paper may not survive through to the other side of this. It has me considering my … Continue reading Weathering the storm…
Maintaining in adversity…
A bit of work and a bit of education were my day today. I ended up having a telephone interview for an article I was writing, and aside from that I ended up going through online photography workshops that are offered by Greg Johnson on his Camera Easy website. With everyone across the country being … Continue reading Maintaining in adversity…
Time to slow down and re-centre…
Trying to remain productive while the world is on lock down is a challenge. There has not been much going on today. I spent some time on the Playstation, did some photo work, and took Rolo for a walk, just to get outside and stretch my legs. I also finished editing the video for Castor … Continue reading Time to slow down and re-centre…
Skills work amid Covid-19
A pretty light day today. I caught up on some housework, played some Playstation, and disappeared into the backcountry with a friend to take some photos. I didn't end up taking many this afternoon, but I did get a few good ones. My friend B and I were doing some exploring at an old graveyard … Continue reading Skills work amid Covid-19
Surreal…
Yesterday was an interesting day... I ended up getting notified of a last minute meeting at the county's municipal office, which considering Lynn and I were scheduled to take Sirius to Red Deer around noon, I wasn't sure I'd be able to attend. After assurances that it would a short meeting, I attended, then headed … Continue reading Surreal…
Why I’m not panicking, yet…
One thing that is really surprising about all the events going on in the world is that my anxiety is not climbing. There could be a few reasons why this situation isn't affecting me more: I already live with a heightened state of awareness due to my anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, and this … Continue reading Why I’m not panicking, yet…
Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…
Today has been another quiet day. I let myself sleep in again, trying to kick the remainder of this bug I've been fighting, and aside from heading out to grab groceries haven't been up to much. I've done a bit of gaming, rendering the world of Farcry 5, and also did some grocery shopping, and … Continue reading Getting by with a bit of inconvenience…
Recovery and interesting times…
This bug I'm battling managed to land a punch, but I think I'm riding through it okay. Up to this point the fever only lasted a few hours on Saturday, and aside from some nasty body aches last night and today, I'm feeling a lot better. The headache I've been battling since Saturday is almost … Continue reading Recovery and interesting times…
Not 100 per cent.. :(
My weekend has ended up differently than I was anticipating. I had a couple events to cover yesterday and was planning on going to church today, however those didn't happen. I ended up waking up with a headache yesterday morning, which progressed to a fever and chills as the day went on. I did escape … Continue reading Not 100 per cent.. 😦
Good and bad…
The ride-along I was supposed to be doing with our local ambulance crew didn't end up happening. Because of the COVID-19 cases in the province our provincial health authority ended up suspending the entire ride-along program. I'm taking it as both a good and bad thing. It's good because I was worrying about how I … Continue reading Good and bad…
A battle in the war…
I am currently sitting at one of the longest writing streaks that I've had, having done a blog daily for the last 28 days. With my fitness regime, I'm sitting at 4 days straight, which is the longest streak I've had in quite awhile, though I am still keeping at my low intensity workouts for … Continue reading A battle in the war…
Updated!!!An update on Lynn…
So, it's official, Lynn's liver issues have passed right past zebra status to freaking unicorn. We went to Red Deer on Mar. 10 for an appointment with a liver surgical specialist. We were hoping for more answers than we had before, but unfortunately there are none. The good news is the surgeon didn't think that … Continue reading Updated!!!An update on Lynn…
Living up to your dash…
Photo by Miguel Á. Padriñán on Pexels.com I was recently watching a motivational video on Youtube, and came across a concept that has kind of stuck with me. The short version is, when we die, as we all inevitably will, what is on our tombstone? Usually your date of birth, a dash, and your date … Continue reading Living up to your dash…
Early Morning Peace…
I always forget how much I enjoy the predawn quiet in the house. Lately I haven't even been setting an alarm, because it didn't seem to matter what I tried, I couldn't talk myself into getting out of bed, and as a result I've been sleeping in later and later. With my schedule being kind … Continue reading Early Morning Peace…
Refocus
Despite the best of intentions, everyone can lose sight of their goals sometimes. Throw in mental health struggles, and the very effort of survival can throw goals a little off course, or right out of sight. Thinking about the last few weeks, I can see that despite the forward progress I've continued to make, that … Continue reading Refocus
Busy with goals…
Our theatre performance has finished for another year. With my involvement in practises running since January and the eight recent performances, it's been a buys few weeks. It's been a nice diversion, but truth be told, I'm kind of glad that it's wrapped. It has been a big commitment of time and energy, and now … Continue reading Busy with goals…
Tired…
Winter isn't done with East-Central Alberta yet. Environment Canada issued a snowfall warning for our region yesterday afternoon, and it's been snowing since I got up. Oh well, it's March in the prairies, what more can one expect? Today has been pretty quiet. I've been working on some schoolwork, and I shovelled the driveway, and … Continue reading Tired…
Looking forward to routine…
I've been busy over the past week, and I'm feeling it. My energy has still been such that I am managing to make it through the day and get done what I need to, but I haven't had much energy for anything else. That's been the frustrating part. I continue to lose the war with … Continue reading Looking forward to routine…
Movie Review: “Bad Boys for Life” (No spoilers)
"Bad Boys, Bad Boys, Whacha gonna do, whatcha gonna do when they come for you?" The "Bad Boys" are back, in a fairly solid movie. I'm don't mind movie sequels, however the further between a movie and it's successor, the less inclined I am to like it. It's especially bad when they come over a … Continue reading Movie Review: “Bad Boys for Life” (No spoilers)
Letting go…
I'm feeling stressed out due to events totally beyond my control. Our elected provincial government is working on balancing the books and saving money, which I agree with, however the way they are going about it scares the hell out of me, particularly the changes they are making to health care. They have delisted procedures, … Continue reading Letting go…