Month: February 2020

Contemplation

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Today has been quiet. I was at the church for our annual general meeting this morning, then some research and writing for a bit this afternoon. I was supposed to head to Halkirk to take some photos this afternoon, however since I can barely see across the street, I decided that discretion was the better … Continue reading Contemplation

Poetry: How is Today Going to be?

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The first thought I have every morning when I wake up is “How is today going to be?”             Why do I ask this of myself? It’s quite simple, really. I suffer from several different mental health conditions that cause my emotions to be unstable. When I wake up, I wake up not knowing if the … Continue reading Poetry: How is Today Going to be?

A few small changes…

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Yesterday was a mixed type of day. Mood-wise, the day was good. Work wise, not so much. I was in Stettler covering court yesterday morning. Covering court is definitely interesting. It's interesting seeing how the justice system in this country works. Unfortunately with the two hours I was there, I came away without a single … Continue reading A few small changes…

Movie Review: “The Rise of Skywalker.” (Spoilers)

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Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Lynn and I recently went to see the final chapter in the Skywalker Saga, "The Rise of Skywalker." I wanted to like the movie, and it was definitely the best of the new trilogy, that said, I feel that the movie fell short over what it could have been. The … Continue reading Movie Review: “The Rise of Skywalker.” (Spoilers)

Work and self-care…

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Today is definitely off to a rough start. I do not feel like I slept at all well last night, and this morning I am dragging ass. Despite that though, I have already managed to get some work done, and set up a meeting for later on this morning. My goals for today are to … Continue reading Work and self-care…

The breaking storm…

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I think that slowly but surely, like the weather is warming and the days are getting longer, the storm in my mind is breaking. This morning I woke up feeling like I have more energy, and it was not quite the battle to get out of bed that it has been. Even doing some work … Continue reading The breaking storm…

Emptiness despite success…

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Photo by burak kostak on Pexels.com I'm happy with how the first of eight showings of the Castor Little Theatre production of "Dry Streak" happened yesterday. Despite the simplicity of the play, the show is keeping my busy, and challenged in the AV booth, which is not a bad thing. I'm equally grateful that today … Continue reading Emptiness despite success…