Month: January 2020

Lofty goals and stumbling

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After a week away, I'm home and working on sliding back into routine, with some minor tweaks. I'm setting some short and medium term goals for myself and for my health. First and foremost, I'm setting my alarm earlier and forcing myself to get up so I can grab a workout and a shower first … Continue reading Lofty goals and stumbling

Complacency and finding my 'why.'

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I know I need to make a change. Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I need to make time to look after myself mentally and physically. It's not that I'm in a bad place right now, it's just I need to find the motivation to make a lasting change. If I can get myself back into … Continue reading Complacency and finding my 'why.'

Working my craft

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Canon T6i, 1/1600s,f5.6,ISO 200, Jan 26,2020 I can't believe it has been nearly a week since I have written last! Suffice it to say, things have been busy. I had various trainings or meetings every night last week, plus quite a few day-time things, including the opportunity to cover a criminal case as a reporter. … Continue reading Working my craft

Kicking ass in the short term

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Mentally, I'm struggling a bit. I'm not tumbling into a full-on depression, but I'm definitely feeling fatigued. My motivation has been next to non-existent, and I'm having a hard time engaging with activities, such as my fitness regime. That said, I've been steady with work, with some new opportunities on the horizon, and I've been … Continue reading Kicking ass in the short term

Being someone else's survival guide

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As anticipated, today was fairly busy. It got even busier with having to do some photography work in my office, but it is what it is. I did manage to get a bit of downtime in, playing a half-hour of Spider Man on the Playstation and watching an episode of SWAT that had Lynn and … Continue reading Being someone else's survival guide

Digging deep

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Today was the final real "down" day I'm going to have for at least a week. I slept in a bit, then went to work processing photos from yesterday's hockey, then I ran sound for this morning's church service. After church we did our usual lunch thing with church friends, then back home where I … Continue reading Digging deep

I find my lack of motivation disturbing….

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Yesterday was a long, but good day. I worked the store for the morning, which was a chilly affair. The furnace in the space we rent is still not working properly, and with the -30 to -40 c weather we've been happening, the heat the furnace has been kicking out has not been enough. Thank … Continue reading I find my lack of motivation disturbing….