Suffice it to say, I’m not the same person I was a year ago.
With all the growth in the past year, how can I be?
Then again, the growth has not been limited to the last year. I find it hard to believe that not only are we a matter hours away from a new year, but the dawn of a new decade as well.
So much has happened in the last decade, I can’t even begin to recall all of it. I do know that most of the last decade has centred on separate themes; my mental health and the journeys surrounding it, strength battling through it, and my resilience in the face of adversity.
Ten years ago, I was working on ambulance, entrenched in a career that I loved. Unfortunately, due to the cumulative trauma of the job, in three short years I was burned out, scorched. My mental health began crashing around me. I was lost at sea, adrift in life, not knowing where I was, or where I was going. Life was something to be survived, not lived.
I began treatment. Over half a decade, I had ups and downs, but I fought my way through the early days. I grew stronger, despite the setbacks. I learned how to live life again, while paying heed to my mental health. I learned new skills that allowed me to shift from survival to growth.
That growth continued, despite several admissions to hospital. Each time began to get shorter. I was growing stronger. Then in the fall of 2017, my growth shifted into high gear. I began writing again. It’s not something I’ve done since I was in high school.
Suddenly my growth had focus. I began relearning, and falling in love with, the craft. It lead me to working again, even on a part time basis. It’s a job I continue to learn and grow at.
The last decade has led me from a cliff atop the abyss, to being a stronger, more confident, well rounded individual. For all the trials of 2019, and the last decade as a whole, I hope the twenties are kinder to my family and my health. That said, I can’t wait to see what the future holds.
If the 2010’s were a period of trial and growth for me, the twenties are going to continue the growth, personally and professionally.
I can’t help but think that the best is yet come, Happy New Year everyone!