Looking back, looking forward…

Christmas is done for another year and I, for one, am glad.

Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy the holidays. I also enjoy when they end. This year has been additionally hard, with it being the first Christmas since Brenda passed away. However, we have gotten through it at least somewhat unscathed.

That’s not to say that everything has been perfect. Tempers have flared. Things have been said that in hindsight would have been best left unsaid. Unfortunately, that’s not how grief, trauma, and depression work, especially at this time of year.

However, we’ve worked through the rough patches, and made it into somewhat calmer seas. Today the three of us even worked together to put up a new curtain rod in the living room.

With the general craziness of 2019, I am more than looking forward to putting it in my rearview. I mean, 2020 has to be better, right?

Hard to believe there is less than a week left of 2019.

I know 2020 will have its share of challenges. Every year does. I have two assignments to get complete and a final exam to write before the end of February. I’m on the road at the end of January for a course. If everything goes well, I will start my next course at the beginning of March. Then there is my work and Rural Mental Health Project commitments.

Spread throughout are doctors appointments for Lynn and I. I have a planned admission to hospital at the end of March or beginning of April. Bottom line is, the next few months will be busy. I’m hoping not quite as busy as October and November though. I don’t know that I can handle a sustained push like that again, at least not for awhile.

For the time being, I’m going to enjoy the dying days of 2019. I’m going to maintain my fitness regime along with the little things I need to do to keep myself mentally healthy. I’m going to embrace 2020, and make it the year that make things get bigger and better.

I already have some plans in the works to promote my photography business. I’m going to keep pushing it with school, and I am going to keep pushing life in general, to have a life worth living.


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