Well, today went sideways.
My plan for the day involved writing and working out, instead my brain fried itself, and I ended up covering the store for Lynn as she has been feeling unwell most of the day, so I didn’t manage to get a workout in.
As for the brain frying itself, I’ve been attempting to get a good start on my first assignment for my English course, and every time I go to lay it out I hit a wall. It’s frustrating to say the least.
On the bright side, even with this wall, I am ahead of the curve so far. If it takes me an extra few days to work something out, so be it.
I know tomorrow I will be away from the keyboard for most of the day. I’m taking Lynn in to Red Deer to see her specialist, and see if we can finally get some answers about what the hell is going on with her liver. I’ve got some running around to do in Red Deer as well tomorrow, so in all likelihood we will be leaving earlier so I can get my stops in and still get her back in town for the ELKS Bingo tomorrow night.
I know I’ve been pushing myself hard the last few days as far as school is concerned. The fact that I’m four days into the course and already sitting with the first unit done, except for the assignment, tells me I just maybe need to take a step back and breathe. Give myself some time to reflect on what I’ve learned. Give myself to think about the assignment, instead of pushing myself too hard, and turning in dreck.
I’m not going to lie, this first stumble has had me doubting myself. It’s had me wondering if I’m not wasting my time and money. The thing is, the evidence isn’t there.
My writing has a solid structural base to it. I may not be as technically refined as some, and I honestly feel like I’m coming in short of the starting line here, but I k now the technical stuff can be learned with practise. Despite the doubts, I know I have this in me. I just need to take a step back, and breathe.
That’s the plan for tomorrow. Aside from the appointment, I’m going to enjoy my day with Lynn. I’m going to breathe. I’m going to get today’s workout in tomorrow. And then once I’ve got my exercise in, and gotten some clarity on the problems, I’m going to dive back in and give it hell.
My first instinct when I get tripped up is to quit. The doubt eats at me, and it causes problems. Instead of quitting, I’m going to rest. I’m going to recover. Then, I’m going to dive back in.