I know I've been absent over the last few days, and that my most recent post was locked. I'll be honest, with the fatigue I've been feeling extending into it's second week, I have not been at my best mentally. I've been struggling with impulsivity, self-harm urges, and ever darkening thoughts. I'm hoping that the … Continue reading CW: Mental health relapse/update
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Today was a quiet one. I took the doctors orders to heart and gave myself another day to just let my body rest. It's not like I did nothing though. I finished a book, slept, and played some Red Dead 2. As far as actual productivity I got some files cleaned up on my external … Continue reading Moving Forward
An engine can only run at red line for so long before it will begin to fail. With all the odds and ends I've been getting involved with in recent weeks, as well as helping out at the store, I've been running at my red-line for a awhile now. I'm definitely feeling the toll it's … Continue reading Pushing Red Line
Today did not go as expected. I ended up covering the store today as Lynn wasn't feeling well, which put a crimp in me getting anything else done. On the bright side, the store was busy enough that I wasn't bored, but slow enough that I managed to finish an article for the paper, do … Continue reading Reminders
Today had a little bit of everything thrown in. Knowing that I had a meeting tonight, I turned my alarms off and slept until 0900, then played some Red Dead Redemption 2 for a bit before walking Taffy, followed by some time in the office, working on some graphic design and photo work. For lunch, … Continue reading A task completed
The upcoming week looks like it's going to be pretty light, and I am not going to object. Over the last few weeks I've been pushing hard, with work and school. I've been pushing in what is typically my worst time of year of year. The bright side is I haven't ended up in hospital, … Continue reading Back to basics
Outside of cleaning up a bit of work and going for a massage today has been pretty laid back. As far as work goes, I got some graphic designing done and worked on an article. I did some studying today as well, but my mind has been wandering, so I'll attempt to do some more … Continue reading Stress Load
I'm impressed that I've been as functional today as I have been, seeing as I had to get up in the middle of the night cleaning up dog puke. That is not a pleasant wake up..... Aside from that, I was up and out the door to Stettler for a meeting this morning. I was … Continue reading At least I’m not bored…
This week has gotten busy. After a fairly quiet day Monday, Tuesday I was in a meeting or writing for most of the day, though I did get the car fixed as well. I now have a functional driver side window again. Yesterday I covered the store for Lynn while she was at the Alliance … Continue reading Downtime
The last couple of days have been busy. Between school, house-chores and writing for the paper I haven't had a bunch of downtime. I don't know why, but I found yesterday particularly hard. I had anxiety move into my chest yesterday morning, and it didn't budge all day. It led me to feel tired and … Continue reading Discomfort
Today has been a hell of a lot more active than recent days. I finished a couple of articles for the paper, went in for a massage therapy appointment, and got some studying done. The massage therapy appointment went well, though apparently my workout regime is having some unintended consequences on my shoulder and butt … Continue reading Increasing activity
Though no where near as hectic as yesterday, today was busy enough. I had a morning interview, then I met Lynn for lunch. This afternoon was in the textbooks or in the gym. I did get one bit of good news today. I received my first assignment back from my TA, and while not stellar … Continue reading A bit of good news
Today was busy. Seeing as we are still down to one vehicle, I dropped Lynn off at the store around 10, and headed for Stettler for my 11 o'clock appointment with H. The appointment went well. He gave me some food for thought, and he worked with me on re-framing some of the stress I … Continue reading Busy day
It's been eighteen years since the world was changed on that fateful September day. I remember, like a lot of people, exactly where I was when I heard the news that international terrorism had hit the shores of NorthAmerica. I remember turning on the television minutes before the news showed the second plane hitting the … Continue reading I remember 9/11
Today has been a day. I've been working on the fourth lesson of my course, and have been getting tripped by the various parts of speech. It was honestly getting to the point where I wanted to turf my laptop outside. It's frustrating. It's painful. It's a learning curve. It's at that point I have … Continue reading Counter-intuitive
Lynn and I went out into the back country a few days ago, and along our travels we found this old church. The church is called Notre Dam de Savoie, north of Halkirk. Notre Dame de Savoie Church, north of Halkirk. Kevin J Sabo photo. Being a sucker for history, I had to stop and … Continue reading The old country church
Today wasn't overly busy, but it did have a little bit of everything. This morning I worked on my assignment for school, then went and took some photos at a barbecue the town was hosting to congratulate our U15 baseball team on their hard-fought win to become Western Canadian Baseball Champions. After I got back … Continue reading Reminders
Today was steady, if not overly busy. I was a little mad at myself for sleeping in more than I wanted to, but if I needed the rest, who am I to argue with my body? When I finally dragged my butt out bed around 8 got up and headed into my office to continue … Continue reading Forward motion
Today was a quieter day. I covered the store this morning while Lynn had her table set up at our local monthly Farmers Market. The store was dead while I was in there, but apparently it got pretty busy after Lynn took over. After Lynn relieved me at the store, I headed up to the … Continue reading Shifting winds of life
Today was busy. I took Lynn to Red Deer to see her liver specialist, and stopped to run another couple of errands, at McBain Camera, and at Chapters. I will write more about Lynn's appointment when I get the go ahead from her to do so. At McBain, I looked picked up a view-finder cushion … Continue reading Road trip
Well, today went sideways. My plan for the day involved writing and working out, instead my brain fried itself, and I ended up covering the store for Lynn as she has been feeling unwell most of the day, so I didn't manage to get a workout in. As for the brain frying itself, I've been … Continue reading Don’t quit; rest, then keep going.
Yesterday ended up being a pretty decent day, overall. I managed to finish off the book work for the first unit of my course, which just leaves the first assignment to finish before I move on to the second unit. Things are going pretty good with it so far. It's definitely a lot to take … Continue reading Growth
I've been feeling good, albeit tired, lately. I have truly been blessed and am grateful for the good I have in my life. My mental-health treatment goes well. I have a fantastic team up between M and H and my family doc. I still don't have a new psychiatrist yet, but with where I am … Continue reading Faking self-confidence?