Solid

Well, just over a week into summer and the weather is starting to remind me of BC for all the wrong reasons.

I can’t remember the last time our region has been overcast and rainy for as long as it has.

The overcast has definitely not been helping my mood instability over the last few days.

However, there’s not much I can do about it aside from be thankful for the moisture. Our region definitely had been needing it.

Today has been relatively quiet.

One of the contractors who was supposed to come out and work at the house called and said they’re taking a weather day because of the rain. I can’t say I blame them. The second contractor did come out and completed some electrical repairs that we’ve been needing done for far too long.

Otherwise, I did some work in the office, relaxed with some Red Dead 2 and did a 90 minute workout this afternoon. The workout has done wonders to my moods. Lynn can’t understand how it helps me. I wish I could get her to workout with me, but alas she hates working out, so I don’t see that happening anytime soon.

This afternoon’s workout was an hour on the treadmill, which was good for just under 2.8 miles, and then half an hour of strength training and stretching. Up to this point I have been keeping my workouts around an hour in length, including strength and cardio. I’m going to try bumping the cardio up to 60 minutes a day, plus the strength training every other day.

Between the exercise, the writing, and how things have been going with Lynn my moods have been recovering quickly after this last bout of instability.

Though they remain erratic, the swing is not anywhere near as wide as it once was, so I guess that’s progress.

Looking at things objectively, I really am in a solid position right now.

My physical health is better than it’s been in years.

I’m working at a meaningful job that I love, despite some of the decisions that are being made several layers over my head.

I have a solid support system in place. I have Lynn, my folks, Lynn’s mom, and two kick ass therapists that I see regularly.

I’m developing more and more insight into the beast inside me, and though I still wrestle the beast I’m getting better at taming it.

In short, as turbulent as my mind tries to make things, I know I’m solid, and I thank God for that every day.

Thanks for following along,

Kevin