Recovery at the edge of the abyss

Mood-wise, things are still turbulent, but they seem to be easing.

I’m still not in a great headspace, but it’s routine battling back from the edge of the abyss.

Yesterday went reasonably well. We attended our friend’s wedding and I even attended the party for a short while before my senses were totally overwhelmed by the noise.

I ended up not going to church this morning. I ended up crawling back into bed and passed out due to fatigue. I needed the rest.

Lynn and I had a good chat this morning as well. She mentioned that just maybe I’ve been so stressing about falling this fall when I go back to school that I’m preemptively doing it now. I have to admit, it’s a distinct possibility.

I’m a little disappointed in myself that I didn’t get my step count or a workout in yesterday, First time in ages I didn’t manage to hit either goal.

Shit happens.

I’m tired. I’m drained. I’ve been pushing hard for weeks and my body and mind are finally telling me to take it easy for a couple days. Let my body and mind heal. Let myself rest.

None of these are bad things. They are part of life.

Yesterday was a rest day. Today is more or less as well.

I’m going to be gentle with myself.

I’m going to ease myself away from the edge of the abyss I find myself standing on yet again.

Tomorrow is a new week.

Tomorrow is a new day to hit the ground running.


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