Mood-wise, things are still turbulent, but they seem to be easing.
I’m still not in a great headspace, but it’s routine battling back from the edge of the abyss.
Yesterday went reasonably well. We attended our friend’s wedding and I even attended the party for a short while before my senses were totally overwhelmed by the noise.
I ended up not going to church this morning. I ended up crawling back into bed and passed out due to fatigue. I needed the rest.
Lynn and I had a good chat this morning as well. She mentioned that just maybe I’ve been so stressing about falling this fall when I go back to school that I’m preemptively doing it now. I have to admit, it’s a distinct possibility.
I’m a little disappointed in myself that I didn’t get my step count or a workout in yesterday, First time in ages I didn’t manage to hit either goal.
I’m tired. I’m drained. I’ve been pushing hard for weeks and my body and mind are finally telling me to take it easy for a couple days. Let my body and mind heal. Let myself rest.
None of these are bad things. They are part of life.
Yesterday was a rest day. Today is more or less as well.
I’m going to be gentle with myself.
I’m going to ease myself away from the edge of the abyss I find myself standing on yet again.
Tomorrow is a new week.
Tomorrow is a new day to hit the ground running.