War with myself

Today I’m finding my anxiety peaked and my energy level has dropped off a cliff.

Not a great combination.

I’m tired. I feel like I could sleep for a week.

The thing that sucks is I don’t know what the trigger was for this slide.

Things have been going well.

Work has been keeping me busy, I’ve been exercising everyday. I’ve been losing weight.

Yet I’m starting to slide.

My stomach is knotted up, and I feel nausea.

I know I need to get down stairs for a workout, but I can barely find the energy to move..

My brain is in a fog, and I feel like I am running under water. Slowly. The darkness is cascading back.

I have a wedding to go to today and I just want to hibernate.

I know what I need to do, but all the motivation in the world isn’t working.

I’m at war with my mind.

This battle I am losing, and the darkness is closing in again.

But what can I do other than push through?

I’ll get through today.

I’ll get through tomorrow.

I’ll reevaluate on Monday.

I’m hoping this is just a dip that I can battle through.

If not, I know what to do.

Kevin

One thought on “War with myself

  1. Hope you can figure it all out,take care our friend and know our prayers are with you.🙏🙏🙏🙏

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