Learning to treat the symptoms of my mental health…

Wow, today has been long. Up and out early to get the summer rubber put onto the car, then a meeting in Coronation followed by taking over at the store for the day. I did manage to get some work done at the store today. I managed to write up my meeting from this morning, … Continue reading Learning to treat the symptoms of my mental health…

Forcing myself to set limits

I'm tired and grumpy this morning. I didn't sleep well last night, and this morning I was up and out early for an early start to my day. First up the car is in for it's summer rubber, then at 1030 I have an interview with the new RCMP detachment commander, then since Lynn has … Continue reading Forcing myself to set limits

That’s a wrap, RDR2…

After taking a day and a half off, I am feeling recharged and ready to take on the week. I definitely needed the downtime, and with the way this week is shaping up, it's a good thing I took. Looking at the calendar, this week is shaping up to be busy, but slightly more sane … Continue reading That’s a wrap, RDR2…

Making a life worth living…

So much for getting back into my workout routine today.... I woke up this morning, and my foot frigging hurt. Back to Advil and wrapping it I go. Oh well, it could be worse. I just need to be careful I don't push it and prolong the injury. Today has been quiet. Lynn is in … Continue reading Making a life worth living…

Downtime

Good news, the ankle is feeling somewhat better. Bad news, weather has gone to crap. Oh well, I can handle a bit of wet weather. At least I can walk without pain. That said, I'm thinking that I may be able to get back into my workout routine in another 24 hours. I will be … Continue reading Downtime

Movie Review: Captain Marvel(No Spoilers)

While not the best of the Marvel Cinematic Universe movies, I think 'Captain Marvel' makes a case for being in the top third of the movies that Marvel Studios has been pumping out since 'Iron Man' kicked things off in 2008. Brie Larson plays Marvel's first bona fide female solo hero, and between the acting, … Continue reading Movie Review: Captain Marvel(No Spoilers)

Hit a speedbump

My workouts are taking a hiatus for a few days. While I was walking the dogs before leaving for the movie last night I succeeded in rolling my left ankle. I was able to finish the walk, but by the time the movie was over I was somewhat stiff and sore. Icing it, wrapping it, … Continue reading Hit a speedbump

Setting limits and working on self care.

So this week has ended up a little busier than I had intended, but I am coping for the moment. With how busy things have ended up, this afternoon/evening I am devoting to self care. I know I have work projects that I need to get done, but if I don't let off some steam, … Continue reading Setting limits and working on self care.

Beginning a new journey…

To say the least, I'm nervous. I registered for my first course in the Bachelor of Arts English degree program through Augustana University yesterday. The program I selected is a four year degree program done through distance learning and I will be starting it September 1. Being realistic though, I know there is slim to … Continue reading Beginning a new journey…

Today got derailed, but that’s ok…

Well, this morning got derailed, but that's okay. My plan for this morning was to get a workout in and then catch up on my blog and email. Instead I had to cut the workout short because I got a phone call requesting I get some photos for the paper, and they were time sensitive. … Continue reading Today got derailed, but that’s ok…

Happy Easter!

From my family to yours, I wish you a happy Easter. Aside from being a bit stiff and sore today for some reason, today has been a good day. We had our Easter Sunday service at church, and then continued the fellowship with a group of church friends at one of the local restaurants. This … Continue reading Happy Easter!

Regaining my equilibrium

Today was definitely a challenge, but I made it through. The hardest part of the day was running the audio/video board at the church today for a friend's funeral. On top of everything else over the last couple of days, it was tough. With where my mind is it would be way too easy to … Continue reading Regaining my equilibrium

The long view….

The path of mental illness recovery is not easy, nor is it a straight line of improvement. It can feel at times like a wide open highway, yet in a brief moment it can turn 90 degrees and turn into a winding goat path, with sheer cliff face on one side, and an epic drop … Continue reading The long view….

I have no problem with stupid people, I just have issue when they drag me into their stupidity…

When will people bloody well learn that drinking and driving is not acceptable. Period. End of story. I realise that people can be idiots by nature, but it annoys me no end when they drag me in to the midst of their stupidity. Just after midnight last night, Lynn and I were in bed, and … Continue reading I have no problem with stupid people, I just have issue when they drag me into their stupidity…

Today was a long fricking day. Up and out the door by 8 a.m. to head to Calgary to meet with a W.C.B. doctor. Today's appointment was an independent consultation to see how I have progressed in my recovery and if there is any permanent remnants of the P.T.S.D. lingering. The interview he did with … Continue reading

Road trip…

Well, today has "long day" written all over it. I had a hard time falling asleep last night, even with my usual meds, and today is a solo daytrip to Calgary to go see a WCB doc. The appointment is not really concerning to me, but the 6 hours round trip with not great sleep … Continue reading Road trip…

Exploring the world around me.

Today a friend and I met for lunch, then took off to explore this county around us. We covered a lot of ground, visiting four cemeteries that date back to the early 1900s, checked out a couple of old vehicles that have been left to decay on a long abandoned homestead, and checked out some … Continue reading Exploring the world around me.

CW; political post

Well, today has been a busy day. Saw the chiro this morning, followed by asking questions for a story outside our community polling station for a story I was working on. After that, Carol and I did a road trip to Coronation so she could do some banking, followed by lunch and picking up dog … Continue reading CW; political post

Making gains, slowly but surely

Yesterday was a good day. We had church in the morning, followed by lunch that had us visiting until 1430, then a quick run to Halkirk for some photos of the family BINGO being held at the hall. After we got home it was time for a workout and then a stay at home date … Continue reading Making gains, slowly but surely

Working on my photography

Today was steady, if not overly busy. Ran a couple errands for the bookstore, checked out the town rummage sale, and managed to scoop up a couple of good deals, met a friend for lunch, then back to the rummage sale. I managed to get a good workout in this afternoon, finally incorporating the third … Continue reading Working on my photography

Finding company in the shadows.

Yesterday was long and exhausting. I attended a suicide, trauma and mindfulness in first responders workshop in Red Deer yesterday. It made for an early morning, as the all day event started at 0800, and concluded around 1630. It was definitely a worthwhile day. The speaker is someone who has lived with the trauma of … Continue reading Finding company in the shadows.

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Today was busy. I covered the local volunteer appreciation lunch for my community paper, I met my "new" therapist, and I did some shopping in Red Deer before meeting a buddy for supper in Sylvan Lake. I was nervous about todays meeting with the therapist at Stettler Mental Health. I have had bad experiences with … Continue reading 250

Trigger Warning: very dark place in my mind. (Untitled)

This is the last, and darkest piece of poetry I wrote during my latest admission. It does not reflect my current state of mind. The urge to harm myself hit me today,wave after wave, I fend off the assault by my mind.I did not sleep well,shat should be 8, took 11My brain lies to me,it tells … Continue reading Trigger Warning: very dark place in my mind. (Untitled)

The Psirens song…

The call of the psiren embraces my mind,the lure of peace tugs at my soul,the psiren is a liar, a liar with promises of gold.The song of the psiren is alluring,the call of the psiren holds promise,the psiren is known by many names.SatanDevilThe Fallen oneThe reaperDeathThe psiren's call has lured manyI am in good companyYet,I still … Continue reading The Psirens song…