Fatigue

Fatigue is hitting me like a wall today. I always feel it the hardest the second day after my sleep gets disrupted, which it definitely did when I went to get Lynn. I was happy to collect her off the train yesterday, I just wish the train wouldn't have been as late as it was. … Continue reading Fatigue

Game Review: Spider-Man PS4 (No spoilers)

The Web-head is back! Spider-Man, the latest game produced by Insomniac Games, dropped for PlayStation 4 in September 2018, and I recently got my hands on a copy. With beautiful graphics, a story that doesn't take itself too seriously, and our favorite hero full of his trademark quips, the game is a prime example of … Continue reading Game Review: Spider-Man PS4 (No spoilers)

Growth in the last year.

I can't believe it's been nearly a week since I wrote last. Things have definitely been busy around here. Between running between events for the paper, theatre, and the dogs, I've been on the go pretty steady. A year ago, I would not be maintaining as well as I am. A year ago, the last … Continue reading Growth in the last year.

Overloaded

Slowly, things are getting back into a groove. I've worked in the store a couple days this week and I've gone back to work chasing stories. Unfortunately with the time I had away, as much as I tried to stay on top of things, I am playing catch up. The last few days have been … Continue reading Overloaded

Trying to find an emotional balance.

I am feeling broken. The weight of the last couple weeks seems to have landed on me today, leaving me tired, overwhelmed, and rung out. I know it's part of grief, that I will have good days and bad days. What makes the waters even murkier is the emotional volatility that I already deal with. … Continue reading Trying to find an emotional balance.

Sometimes doing nothing is doing something important.

Well, I didn't get as much done today as I planned, but that's okay. After the events of the last couple of weeks, I definitely needed the down-time, because even my weekend off ended up being busy. After traveling home Friday, I ended up on the go for most of Saturday and Sunday, between theatre … Continue reading Sometimes doing nothing is doing something important.

Adjustments

Today is my fortieth birthday, and I'm home after a few days in Saskatchewan helping Lynn and the family say goodbye to Brenda after her sudden passing. My sister and I made it home on Friday, and then she carried on North, while I've been trying to get back into a new routine with the … Continue reading Adjustments

Why do we have to say goodbye?

Brenda's dogs, Taffy, Skor, and Rolo. Taffy and Rolo are coming home to join our furry family, and Skor has found a home as well. Yesterday was as upbeat a day as one can have while attending a funeral service. The funeral service was very beautifully done, and the message of the priest was very … Continue reading Why do we have to say goodbye?

He can take our anger

In the morning, we say goodbye to my sister-in-law. It has been more than a week since her loss, and we still struggle to understand. We struggle to understand why God called her home. We struggle to comprehend the permanence of this loss that we feel like a dagger through the heart. We struggle with … Continue reading He can take our anger

Pictures

It has been said that a picture is worth a thousand words. We were invited to some family friends for supper this evening and Lynn and some friends took the opportunity to work on getting into Brenda's photo file in Google. Lynn, Kim, and the friends were successful in their endeavour, and we spent the … Continue reading Pictures

Fractured faith

I believe in God. I have faith in Heaven, and know that Brenda is at His side. My faith has helped me get through a lot of my struggles over the last few years. At church this morning I found my faith struggling. I've been finding it hard to reconcile my emotions and my faith … Continue reading Fractured faith

If the sun comes up tomorrow

This has been a long week. Since traveling to Saskatchewan on Wednesday, it has been a whirlwind. We've been grieving the loss of Brenda, my sister-in-law, after she succumbed to a complication of a knee surgery. The Medical Examiner did come back to us with a Cause of Death. Apparantly she developed a clot from … Continue reading If the sun comes up tomorrow

Rest easy

On Monday, our world ground to a stop. I write this as we are traveling to Saskatchewan to say goodbye to my sister in-law, Lynn's sister, Brenda. Brenda was found deceased in her home on Monday by my mother-in-law and a friend of Brenda. We have no idea what the cause of death was, and … Continue reading Rest easy

Roles

Everyone in this world plays a role. Mothers. Fathers. Brothers. Oil executives. Politicians. Though I wasn't diagnosed until my early twenties, I can see tendrils of my Borderline Personality Disorder reaching into my late teens. With the interpersonal conflict I battled thanks to the disordered thinking, I had a hard time finding my role in … Continue reading Roles