This morning I woke up not knowing what hit me.
Where I went to bed last night feeling relatively upbeat after struggling for the last few days prior, this morning I woke up to a shroud of darkness that has settled over me.
I am drained. My energy level is next to non-existent, as is my motivation.
I saw my doctor today for a routine follow-up. She said I need to step back and give myself some recovery time. Unfortunately, going into the holiday season, that’s going to be easier said than done.
I have several special events and meetings that I am supposed to cover in the coming weeks. I will cover what I can, but at this point in time, I am definitely not taking any more on, at least until the new year.
I can get down on myself for struggling easily enough.
I can also chose to accept things for what they are, and proceed accordingly.
I know I struggle this time of year. I know I deal with significant mental health issues that can flare significantly at times. There is no cure for the issues I struggle with. All I can do is be gentle with myself, deal with the issues as they come up.