I’m feeling mentally and physically drained.
It’s odd that I do feel so drained because I’ve been sleeping almost nine hours ever night this last week.
While that is helping recover my lost sleep from before this admission, I still have a long ways to go before I will feel rested again.
The reason for this is two-fold.
First, you can only run the human body so hard for so long before things start to break.
Secondly, while in hospital it has been work looking at aspects of my life I would rather avoid.
Is it worth the energy and effort to go through this process over again?
I think so, and the reason why is horribly simplistic. The process works. The plan of short admissions works.
It sucks that I still crash but the results of the work I have done speak for themselves.
I dont drop as low as I used to before reaching for help. I dont wait too long, I get in front of problems faster, and as a result I bounce back faster, resulting in reduced down time.
No, being hospitalized is not ideal. It is, however, part of my reality, and it is a reality I share with many people around the world. It is not something to be ashamed of. It is not something to hide.
On the plus side, my discharge has been moved to possibly Friday, which means I’ll be home and able to relax on the weekend, and hit the ground running with work and appointments next week.