So tentative discharge has been set for September 10.
The doctor wants me to have a good couple weeks worth of groups and recharge time, as well as getting the meds figured out again.
I’m definitely doing better than when I was admitted last Friday, but I’m still feeling the lingering fatigue and stress.
I know I pushed myself too hard. I upset the balance and I choked on things as a result. The medication change in summer didn’t help any either.
This is the reality I face as someone dealing with mental health issues. I am no fan of coming in to hospital but I can honestly say it has helped me out of some pretty bad mental health situations in the past.
As frustrated as I feel about things, as tired as I am about dealing with these issues the reality is sometimes I need the extra support, and that is okay.
Kicking my own ass about things doesnt change them. They are still there, and after I self destruct, they still need to be dealt with.
So, I’m taking the time to work on myself, and get myself out of here and into another period of stability.
Is this my last hospital stay? I highly doubt it though I can dream. I can take advantage of what this world- class facility has to offer and work my way towards a future that doesnt include it though.
For the moment I am in a safe place, with staff who are at the top of their game, and well equipped to feel my way through the night until dawn breaks once again.
Thanks for joining me on this journey.