I get annoyed at things easily. Be it dumb drivers, people just flat not thinking, or stupid things such as certain websites burping and losing a post that I was somewhat happy with in how it turned out. An apology to all who follow my blog, somehow WordPress burped and my previous blog entitled "the … Continue reading Overblown reactions
I escape into my video games, probably more than I should. Currently I'm working on Grand Theft Auto V. I forgot how fun that game was. As twisted as it may be. Gaming for me is a way to distract. A way to disconnect the emotions. I know disconnecting from your emotions isn't exactly the … Continue reading Effective Coping
Let me pose a question. How much does your sleep affect your mood? I know for myself, that sleep is a major trigger for me. Having sleep apnea doesn't help in that department. Most effective treatment for sleep apnea is a cpap (continuous positive air pressure) machine. While I was in hospital last week, mine … Continue reading Sleep troubles
To the fallen, I'm Sorry I'm sorry that I couldn't help you I'm sorry that my skill was not up to task I did what I could I'm sorry that your pain was so great that you ended your life I'm sorry we couldn't get to you faster I did what I could The injuries … Continue reading The Fallen
Wow. What a week! I'm home, and feeling a lot better after just under 2 weeks in hospital. It's been a wild ride. I was admitted to our regional psychiatric Centre due to severe suicidal ideation. I'm not ashamed to admit that I was in need of some extra support. Between the PTSD and borderline … Continue reading I’m home!
I make no excuses. I have been struggling lately. Suicide has definitely been an option I have considered, at least emotionally. Logically, I know it is not the answer as I have seen what it does to families. But emotionally the voice is whispering, soothing, offering a peace that I have struggled to find. I … Continue reading A new future