Progress

Today was the start of "new normal" for Fridays. With the girl who was working Fridays moving on to a full-time job, after some deliberation Lynn and I decided that I would do the regular cover for that day, though with my schedule we definitely have some wiggle room. I think it will be good … Continue reading Progress

Picking a lane…

Photo by Sebastian Palomino on Pexels.com After a busy day yesterday, I am feeling bushed today. With the help of a friend I took our two mattresses to the dump then picked up two replacements that Lynn managed to find for a good a deal on one of the local buy and sell groups. I … Continue reading Picking a lane…

Back in the groove…

I'm a week in to my new routine, and I'm feeling pretty good. In the last week I've had one morning where things didn't go quite as planned, where I ended up sleeping in until 0930. Aside from that, I've been successful in getting up in between 0600 and 0630; the last couple mornings I've … Continue reading Back in the groove…

The beginning of the end, or the beginning of the next phase?

Photo by Breakingpic on Pexels.com I'm feeling good. My sleep has been getting much more stable, and I'm feeling rested when rise. With one exception I've been getting up at a much earlier hour and I've been enjoying the peace along with my early morning coffee. My mind is feeling calmer and much more focused … Continue reading The beginning of the end, or the beginning of the next phase?

Turning “one day” into “day one”…

top view image of table with open notebook and the text one day turning into day one. success and personal development concept I've finally managed to convince myself to get up somewhat earlier in the morning. Over the last few days my alarm has gone off at 0600, and I've generally been up and moving … Continue reading Turning “one day” into “day one”…

Grateful…

Photo by Jessica Lewis on Pexels.com The last few days have been pretty busy, so I'm happy that this beautiful holiday Monday finds me with a clear calendar. It is Thanksgiving in Canada this weekend, and I'm spending it with the dogs and cat. Lynn is still in Saskatchewan visiting her mom for another few … Continue reading Grateful…

Wrapping up a busy week…

Photo by Bich Tran on Pexels.com This week has been full, though thankfully I am reaching the tail end of it. There hasn't been any single item on my to-do list that has been weighing on me; however, the combination of everything has made for a tiring week. Still, there is a difference between tiring … Continue reading Wrapping up a busy week…

Breaking things into pieces for the upcoming week…

Photo by Bich Tran on Pexels.com Today was a mercifully quiet day. I was up early and got some work done on my creative work-in-progress which I haven't worked on in well over a month. It felt good to make some forward progress with it again. Later in the morning Lynn and I headed to … Continue reading Breaking things into pieces for the upcoming week…

Succeeding in spite of myself…

Photo by Lum3n on Pexels.com Tonight has me feeling accomplished. It was a somewhat busy day, catching up on some writing for work, studying, and doing a dump run. This afternoon at the store we celebrated the third anniversary of the store as well. Some friends were kind enough to bring in a pumpkin pie … Continue reading Succeeding in spite of myself…

Recovery…

To sum up today, it didn't go as planned. I met B this morning to film his weekly devotional. With me being away until today he was going to film it himself on his phone, but since I was home I offered to do it. We got it done in good time, and I went … Continue reading Recovery…

Home again…

After a brief inpatient stay at the centre in Ponoka, I am home and feeling a lot better. I wasn't able to write while I was there because I could not get my tablet to charge properly, and trying to publish a post on my cellphone is just no fun. This admission was by far … Continue reading Home again…

Going in-patient…

direction sign with capital letter H for hospital This week has been challenging. I've been dealing with low moods, fatigue -again-, and poor concentration. I am definitely not at the lowest point that I've been, but I've definitely been struggling. I reached out to Dr. M at the centre, and heard back from him. He's … Continue reading Going in-patient…

Breaking things down on a mixed emotion day…

Today has been pretty mixed. I felt like crap first thing this morning, but picked up again after talking to M2. We had a good chat, though she did recommend that I reach out to Dr. M. I called him before lunch, but unfortunately have yet to hear back from him. I'm hoping tomorrow. This … Continue reading Breaking things down on a mixed emotion day…

An intentionally quiet Sunday…

Today was a bit better than yesterday, but I am still not in a great headspace. I'm feeling tired and unfocused. The self-harm urges are in check, but still a hell of a lot more prevalent than I would like. I'm glad I have an appointment with the therapist tomorrow. Based on how that appointment … Continue reading An intentionally quiet Sunday…

Stopping isn’t an option

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I hate this time of year. As good as I've been doing, I always find myself struggling at this time of year, and this year is apparently no exception. I'm over a week into a downward spiral that always hits me this time of year, and today has probably been … Continue reading Stopping isn’t an option

Feeling empty…

Photo by Alex Fu on Pexels.com This has been a busy, and stressful week. On Monday I took Lynn to Red Deer for an MRI, then had a meeting to cover for the paper that night. On Tuesday I had another meeting, followed by studying. Wednesday, I was at the Alliance Market with my photography … Continue reading Feeling empty…

Holding the line…

Photo by eberhard grossgasteiger on Pexels.com I've been struggling over the last few days. My energy has been low, and I've been feeling totally drained. I have been having a hard time engaging in life, and feeling like I'm actually living. Despite how crappy I've been feeling, I've been pushing through, staying at least somewhat … Continue reading Holding the line…

I will never forget 9/11…

Photo by Camilla Draymarch on Pexels.com Every so often in life something happens that changes the trajectory of life. Nineteen years ago one of those changes occurred which was felt worldwide: terrorists hijacked airplanes and flew them into the World Trade Centre and the Pentagon. Passengers rushed the hijackers of another aircraft, however they were … Continue reading I will never forget 9/11…

Content Warning: Suicide… World Suicide Prevention Day

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Today marks three years that I've been writing this blog. In some ways it feels like yesterday the first day I hit 'Publish' and in other ways it feels like forever. I have come a long ways since then. Or have I? Today has not been a good day. I've … Continue reading Content Warning: Suicide… World Suicide Prevention Day

Forward progress…

Photo by Ru0131dvan u00d6ner on Pexels.com After a weekend away, I hit the ground running today. This morning was spent catching up on some coursework, then I joined Lynn for lunch at the shop before heading up to Alliance to cover an event. After the event, it was grabbing a couple groceries before head home … Continue reading Forward progress…

Catching up…

I can't believe it's been a week since I last updated my blog. It's been a busy week. I ended up covering the bookstore for three days last week, one of which was planned, and then on Friday took off for a guys weekend with my friend C. I'm definitely feeling relaxed after my time … Continue reading Catching up…

Mental health Monday: Looking forward…

In what was an incredibly quick turnaround, I received my marks back from the final exam I wrote last week, and I am not unhappy with the results. I ended up scoring 87 per cent on the exam, which gave me an 85 overall average for the composition course. On the down side, it was … Continue reading Mental health Monday: Looking forward…